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aujussy wolf
since 2003-08-09
Posts 1215Michigan 
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the cold settles around my breath a pure white in the night air frozen memory's seem to pass through time again when we met eleven years ago how they brought a thousand tears in the end to us both my deepest loss when i remember the last day i saw you before you left , how could i have been so cold my pain only grew in the dark roads that followed my life was upside down the things i cared for were no longer there and empty was i inside like a cardboard box in an alley with a bum attitude lost in a maze of abuse my temple was crumbling until one full moon when my old dearest friend called me to his bliss abode and then we set out on a midnight journey through the hills on a full wolf moon ...it glowed a magic unlike i have ever witnessed in my life and as i looked at the light of this massive orbiting globe it changed my path then i knew i had to put down the swords i had been slashing into my energy and destiny with ... so close to the edge i was to the depths of mordor,the shadow lands and it was time to throw in the ring for all eternity ... and with a little help from my friends the temple has been resurrected and the blackness of death turned to the light of love and life there and back again as once said by a wise man .... and now years later still i write about being lost and found ... and how after five years my heart is still aching with those times of me and her on the beach when we walked on the shore and took a seat on a high dune to watch the fall of the days empire talked of how it would be if wishes could come true and how you wanted to swim to the setting sun and we laughed into the dusk of that day .... how the magic was all around us like firefly's in the night you were worth more than all the riches in the world ....and more so now seeing your picture tonight took me back to the old home place of my dreams, it had been so long as you will always be the one who i miss more than words could ever describe that first party when we all went out to the woods and we had to go home early you had a midnight curfew we talked that night in my room till the early morning about our friends who had just passed away , and how we would always miss them with all our hearts and of your nightmares and how i tried to help with calm words i sit now and write of how i have drifted away without your voice and the the warmth you brought to this ice covered old heart of mine so i look up in the sky tonight and pick the furthest away star i can see and i make a wish upon it with the moon i send you my everything forever yours my sweet sunshine through the clouds JDW III 12-17-2005 [This message has been edited by aujussy wolf (12-19-2005 01:42 AM).] |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
Sometimes that emotional outpouring can help...I am touched by your love for this person and hope you find that in your life again.  |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
Human happiness can be imbued with so much sadness. Even though things are not what you both want/ed, she is a very, very lucky woman to have been bathed in such love, and you are so gifted and so honourable to feel and express it in the way that you do. I wish you happiness beyond comprehension, but I think you have that already. What I really mean is a happiness of that magnitude, but without the sadness. - Owl |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
James? I know these ghosts so very well myself and even though sometimes I wish them away I think if I truly did, for good, I would lose entire chunks of myself. This was a beautiful peek at your soul. and here: when i remember the last day i saw you before you left , how could i have been so cold I wonder, too, how in times, I was so blinded by my own ego. Much Love to you, my friend. |
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Gentle Spirit Member Patricius
since 2000-10-09
Posts 13989 |
Your beautiful soul is showing through your words. This? "when i remember the last day i saw you before you left , how could i have been so cold" I think we have all looked back on something in our pasts that we wish we had done differently. This is beautiful James, so good to see another post from you. Beautiful scribe. Peace babe. ~D~ seek the flame within yourself |
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majnu
since 2002-10-13
Posts 1088SF Bay Area |
very nice -majnu |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
how the magic was all around us like firefly's in the night you were worth more than all the riches in the world ....and more so now ~*~ Words like this remind us... that it is never too late to let someone know you cared... they will find a way to listen... |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
James~ Adoring the memories, the instant recall, keeps those memories alive ... 'now years later still i write about being lost and found ... and how after five years my heart is still aching with those times' ... and yes, it often keeps the ache alive too~  Poignant penning, dear poet~ *Huglets* ~*Marge*~ ~*No matter what I search for ... |
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aujussy wolf
since 2003-08-09
Posts 1215Michigan |
this was a tough one to write and then to post it also , well the girl i wrote about in this poem, we had a relationship for quite a few years , we met when i just turned 17 she was visiting her mother who lived in hawaii ,she had not seen her in many years being her dad had custody of her when she was a kid, OK now her parents went to school with mine that's where i fit into the story , so when she was visiting them here in Michigan we had the chance to meet , we had chilled together as little baby's but who remembers that far back ( 4 and 5 years old we were)....so we had a chance to meet again while she was visiting family of hers downstate ,she stayed at my parents for a night while they were in town , now i was dreading meeting her and having to show her around for the night , i was a little stuck up in a way back then , not like a rich stuck up but different , anyways my grumpy butt finally agreed to hang out with her for the day...her mom dropped her with me and away we went, we had more in common than i had ever imagined , her best friend had just died and my cousin who was like a brother to me( we were the same age ) had just passed away strangely in the same year , so we were both super depressed , so after a while we really had some great talks and let out what was like a flood of emotions for us both,..that night we went out to a outside little party thing and ( didn't drink i swear i was a good kid or at least that night lol ) she met my friends and it was cool ..and whatnot , but she had strict orders to be back to my parents by 12 midnight , so my friend drove me and her back to home , well we sat up till 3 am that night talking about our lives and friends it was great , but the sad part was she had to leave the next day , so she did and on her departure she gave me a 3 page letter,i shed some tears we stayed in touch and the story goes much deeper but i wont bore your with endless details of my life , only time will tell the end to this sad love story ..... and to all the replies it means the world over to me thanks so much for the help , love and light to all < james [This message has been edited by aujussy wolf (12-18-2005 03:22 PM).] |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
aujussy wolf, I don't see my reply to this poem, and I think what happened is that my phone voucher ran out while I was replying. Perhaps I don't see it because my replies sometimes take a long time to show. If it went in and I am duplicating a reply, please forgive me. My response (before your explanation) was with regard to the poem and you and her only. Your poem is quiver-beautiful and very sensitive. It takes great courage to expose yourself so (that even before your explanation, but all the more so to include it - bravo, brave man), but fortunately, so safe to do so in the haven of this wonderful forum. I am so glad you have that memory to hang on to when you need it, and so real a memory - so obviously not imagined. I am so glad she has that memory too, even if she has moved on. I wish you strength, courage, determination and happiness. Wallow in the love you have from your family, your real friends (not the greasy ones) and the people who love you in this forum - and let us all keep you from slipping ever again - and if let us help you come back into the light. There are so many beautiful inspirational poems on this board - too many to mention all - but may I suggest two to read - I can't remember whether I saw a reply from you on them and I can't spend too much time online to go and check. Please read Earth Angel's "ALL there is to BE" and "Weight of Worth" of Gentle Spirit (and its links to anothers of hers and one of littlewing's). They will, i am sure, bring you warmth and encouragement. - Owl |
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MGROVES
since 2004-02-01
Posts 3802california |
 My spirit will rise |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
James~ First of all thanks~  This is quite the poem AND the response from you reveals much about your life and defines an example of how someone CAN turn their life around~ As for your loving thoughts and memories of Anna ... "i think she has moved on now but still in my heart i hold the world for her" ... keep them as they are an important part of who you are and why you are ... who you are~ *Huglets* ~*Marge*~ ~*No matter what I search for ... |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
so i look up in the sky tonight and pick the furthest away star i can see and i make a wish upon it with the moon i send you my everything forever yours my sweet sunshine through the clouds lovely~~ M |
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Gentle Spirit Member Patricius
since 2000-10-09
Posts 13989 |
ah James, I just read your explanation to this. Heart hugs to you sweetie. peace n' hugs. ~D~ seek the flame within yourself |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Wolfie? C'mere....  |
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Nightshade
since 2001-08-31
Posts 13962just out of reach |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
talk about tender a heart beat heard loud and clear and hoping your anna hears it too through the clouds |
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Dark Angel Member Patricius
since 1999-08-04
Posts 10095 |
I hear you Wolfie, from across the oceans, heart m xx how i would love you, love you as no one ever did! Die and still, love you more. And still love you more..and more |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
AW... See what your words have inspired amoung your poetic peers? You should be very... pleased... because you've touched so many, so well, from your heartstrings outward... we are all listening to this beautiful song. |
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Ceinwyn Member Elite
since 2000-07-09
Posts 2175VA |
this aches, love and life sometimes make no sense. I'm trying to comprehend events in life. It's hard to keep sane but writing them out is healthy or atleast thats what I think. That's what I've been doing. I do believe even though cliche things end up well in the end eventually. I try to keep on telling myself that. If at first you don't succeed destroy all the evidence that you tried. |
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