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Open Poetry #36

Still Alive Just

Yogi
Member

since 2001-11-05

Posts 68

0 posted 2005-10-15 06:22 PM

I’ve sat at my window
Just staring at the stars above
Wondering what heaven is like
I’ve tried to enter 3 times now
Yet 3 times been brought back to life
I guess heaven does not want me yet

I feel pain like a lot of people do
But my pain came from a loved one
Smile to others yet he hated me with a passion
Just used me as a punch bag, a vent for his temper
He would bruise me yet it never showed
He made me say he was the best dad in the world
If I refused then I knew what was coming

I was afraid of him then as I am now 37 years on
As in my dreams he comes
Like freddy krugger he haunts my heart and soul
Many nights I wished to kill myself
To end the hurting I still feel to this day
He’s dead now but from his grave he still comes
I tried to rid this virus to erase my mind of him
Yet I can’t he’s still here with me awake or sleeping
So I do wonder what heaven is like
Or what heaven has in store for me when I do arrive

Joyce Johnson

Member Rara Avis

since 2001-03-10

Posts 9912
Washington State

1 posted 2005-10-16 04:16 PM

I know Heaven has a wonderful home for you, far into the future. I am not so sure about your Dad. Joyce

Marge Tindal

Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-06

Posts 42384
Florida's Foreverly Shores

2 posted 2005-10-16 04:23 PM

Yogi~
One thing I know about you ... you are healing through the purging~

Bless you ... keep writing it ... you just may help someone else who is still in this troubling scenario~

*Huglets*
~*Marge*~

~*No matter what I search for ...
let me know when it is LOVE that I find*~ <))><

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