Open Poetry #35 |
mean like that sometimes |
serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
I heard branches cracking wind and even under weight of them-- "Hi, this is Cathy. I'm not available to take your call right now, so please leave a message after the beep." I heard branches groaning me and even under weight of this-- I said thank you for the reeds-- even under weight of it damn but it felt good and it's a miracle upon the end forgive me if I call again "Hi, this is Cathy..." I I'm-furious-with-you-again pissed in fact pick up the phone I know that you are listening as I hit redial to hear you win breathless in the marilyn voice the one we laughed about "Hi..." you sighed and mocked the wind: "This is Cathy" and because I'm drunk again I'm burning up the tape of you: "not available to take your call" goddamn goddamn I wish you knew how it feels to be this way and yet I know you do and you did the same to us and we are frightened now without your calls begging us to be. I can't take the silences I should have kissed your eyes but they had already seen too much so I simply nodded as I watched the final beauty tip: the zipping up of bodybag and your little tiny feet jiggled the last dance I heard the phone in ring, and ring and ring and then the sound of answering listening machine hook up: "Hi. This is Cathy..." and I died a not so simple death with the sound of you replaced by zippers and the sobs of us and I tried to concentrate on the fountain of our youth knowing that it was not you dead and cold to me... you'd be - I heard branches cracking wind and even under weight of them-- "Hi, this is Cathy. I'm not available to take your call right now, so please leave a message after the beep" - mean like that sometimes. |
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MGROVES
since 2004-02-01
Posts 3802california |
woa! dont really know what words to respond to this, but wanted to let you know it was read, and the tension was felt~ My spirit will rise |
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LeeJ Member Patricius
since 2003-06-19
Posts 13296 |
it is human desire to want, what we want, when we what it...this was a poem, I will always remember...there are no words to express my deepest heartfelt prayers and thoughts to you...hugs to you...always remember how amazing you are...Love, Lee J. |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
I'm going to be totally unapologetic about this and simply thank you both for understanding. I miss her. terribly... |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
serenity, It was the crackling of the branch my love. Next time pick up the phone. |
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Dark Angel Member Patricius
since 1999-08-04
Posts 10095 |
I don't have the words to express how this made me feel. Sending love and prayers your way you are always in my thoughts Karen love you mxx "we all have wings, but some of us don't know why" |
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Gentle Spirit Member Patricius
since 2000-10-09
Posts 13989 |
keep writing in the ink of your soul K... and never apologize... this is amazing hon..tugs at the heart and tears me up.. I really want to care, |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Damn Ser.. I wish I could take the pain away for you. Keep writing it out...this just aches so bad. |
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Kahlil Senior Member
since 2003-04-12
Posts 1881 |
hugging you, Ser K |
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SEA
Moderator
Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
Karen, this broke my heart... there isn't any one line that did it, it was the emotion...all of it... |
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vlraynes Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-25
Posts 8229Somewhere... out there... |
Karen?... the tears are flowing... and I'm hugging you... I love you, lady... |
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adagio Member
since 2005-03-19
Posts 449Marrero, La. |
Karen... Sending you my thoughts and tears. don't destroy the tape |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
Donna wrote the words for me, "keep writing in the ink of your soul K... and never apologize..." Linda |
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ThUnDeRkYsS Senior Member
since 1999-09-23
Posts 727Wisconsin |
I can only offer my sympathy and a warm hug to show I'm feeling for you. This one leaves me sort of speachless, with so many things to say that you dont know where to start... stay strong. HugZ Brian Strive for higher levels, if they seem out of reach... Grow, and they will get closer. |
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Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Karen Can you take another hug....you sure have mine! You know, I confess to something I used to do...and I don't think I've ever told anyone of this. I used to call the number of the house where I grew up...that was before answering machines...but something in me hoped that my mother would answer. Love you, lady! |
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Chanson Senior Member
since 2000-08-19
Posts 1559Up Creek w/Out Paddle |
Serenity....Wow, so touching! ...and a hug. |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
Karen, I had the same experience... and I called this weekend and got my sister's voice and had to hang up. I know why he keeps it...but I can't respond to it when my brother-in-law doesn't answer. M |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
dang K |
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Aenimal Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-18
Posts 7350the ass-end of space |
hugs sis |
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Greeneyes
since 2000-09-09
Posts 9903In Your Poetic Mind |
you brought tears to these eyes.....heart hugsss K.... I understand the emotion and can only hug you...... ~~*~~ |
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icebox Member Elite
since 2003-05-03
Posts 4383in the shadows |
"pick up the phone I know that you are listening" ...of course she is listening... *hug* |
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Susan Caldwell Member Rara Avis
since 2002-12-27
Posts 8348Florida |
wrenching. As I told M, I did the same thing. I hate that answering machine and love it at the same time. It's all I have. Wish I could do more. love you. "too bad ignorance isn't painful" |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
thank you and well, I appreciate your patience. I just like leaving her flowers. I'll try to make them prettier ones in the future. |
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