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Alicethruglass
Member

since 2001-06-19

Posts 368

0 posted 2005-03-31 11:22 AM

I swallow my pride rather than choke on it
and wonder what is it that makes me feel
and need and want a kind of love
that probably no longer exists for me.

I weigh myself daily (without scale)
and I am still heavier than I wish to be...
the wait/weight of thoughts holding me down
at a level that needs heels to lift/kick me up.

I dance with fear every day, drink time
from the bottle that sustains me, its rosiness
probably meant for another, my reflection in it
always a distorted view.

I have marked the ounces...drinking only enough
to be half filled and leave it half emptied,
wondering what that other half of life could be like
if I ever chanced it once again.

So I swallow my pride, my throat tight
but allowing the sips to get through, remembering
that tomorrow will arrive, and hoping
the taste of it remains sweet.

~A~

[This message has been edited by Alicethruglass (03-31-2005 11:54 AM).]

Susan Caldwell
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-12-27

Posts 8348
Florida

1 posted 2005-03-31 12:06 PM

some really wonderful lines in this..

and something almost everyone can relate to.

"too bad ignorance isn't painful"
~Unknown~

miscellanea
Member Elite

since 2004-06-24

Posts 4060
OH

2 posted 2005-03-31 01:20 PM

whether a distorted view or not, your poem divulges those inner feelings so well! Hope things soon look a little rosier.

~miscellanea

Gentle Spirit
Member Patricius

since 2000-10-09

Posts 13989

3 posted 2005-03-31 01:29 PM

thinking of you...and huggin you.

passing shadows
Member Empyrean

since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

4 posted 2005-03-31 07:47 PM

I think I need some of what you're drinking instead of what I'm drinking

SmartChick
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-09-23

Posts 7081
On A Journey To The Unknown

5 posted 2005-03-31 09:07 PM

I understand your feelings here.

muted

Member Elite

since 2004-01-15

Posts 2949
Elapsing, Eclipsing, Evolving

6 posted 2005-04-25 01:54 PM

swallow the bitter with the sweet...
and where the two meet..is where you are destined to find reprieve....

always imbibe

Cloud 9
Senior Member

since 2004-11-05

Posts 980
Ca

7 posted 2005-04-25 03:21 PM

"I weigh myself daily (without scale)
and I am still heavier than I wish to be...
the wait/weight of thoughts holding me down
at a level that needs heels to lift/kick me up."

I really like this one.

SmartChick
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-09-23

Posts 7081
On A Journey To The Unknown

8 posted 2005-04-26 08:05 PM

You have a way of putting in words the way I feel. Hope you are okay.
Miss you, my friend.

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