Open Poetry #34 |
Melding the Edges of Life |
Susan Caldwell Member Rara Avis
since 2002-12-27
Posts 8348Florida |
I used to protect my edges religiously. Gathering pieces eroded and damaged. Trying so hard to make them meld. Desperate not to lose too much of myself in this process we call life. Collecting fragments clutching jagged lines of a yesterday me. Holding on to what used to be. Today I smile at the beauty of my outline. Tracing the shadow of who I have become. Knowing each broken, cracked corner shows the character of a survivor, and the memories of those things I miss about myself. Realizing missing is okay because I can learn from the colors of each new day. I know you think you left me broken. But it really was just a check on a long list of misguided trust A transitional thing if you will. Now I am back to what is important. I tap my foot and I dance when no one is looking. I sing at the top of my lungs and I no longer have to worry about making you happy. Which turns out to be an impossible thing closeting as you do, even from yourself. Now, the jagged edges have been smoothed by my own hand. I am grateful for the chance to concentrate on the ones capable of giving as well as receiving. The ones that don’t bath in their own tears demanding someone sooth their fears. I am free, and happy with the pieces of myself that are sometimes rough, sometimes smooth but always there to show that I am unfinished. A collage of yesterday, today and future me and those pieces meld perfectly. "cast me gently into the morning, for the night has been unkind" ~Sarah McLachlan~ |
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Gentle Spirit Member Patricius
since 2000-10-09
Posts 13989 |
and what a beautiful melding it is that makes up all of the pieces of you Suan... and YOU are pretty damn fantastic. Hugs gal, wonderful self expression. |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
"I am free, and happy with the pieces of myself that are sometimes rough, sometimes smooth but always there to show that I am unfinished. A collage of yesterday, today and future me and those pieces meld perfectly." What a positive and uplifting write! Very much enjoyed the read Susan. Happy Holidays to you and yours. Season's Greetings! |
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RMW Senior Member
since 2001-03-21
Posts 1424 |
"Foot tapping." Yes. A certain precursor of ....... JOY! Bob |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
What a wonderful way to end a year, being happy with and about yourself! I on the otherhand, am tracing myself thinking after Christmas I better get this butt to a gym Lovely introsepection Susan, and Merry Christmas to you and your family. |
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Dark Angel Member Patricius
since 1999-08-04
Posts 10095 |
A very uplifting write Susan, thank you for passing that feeling on Mxx into this night i wonder, it's morning that i dread, another day of knowing of, the path i fear to tread. |
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inkedgoddess Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-19
Posts 7392Ohio |
sing at the top of my lungs and I no longer have to worry about making you happy. Which turns out to be an impossible thing closeting as you do, even from yourself. encouraging for some of us out here, still wearing the chains of our oppressors,though we are making strides daily to reclaim who we once were applause and a dozen roses for your inspiration this afternoon dear susan poet |
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Cpat Hair
since 2001-06-05
Posts 11793 |
ah... nicely done ma'am.... may the foot tapping and top of lung singing, not get yu arrested for disturbing the peace.... oh wait.. that's not an irish blessing... dang it.... |
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A Tone of Voice Member
since 2001-07-18
Posts 287 |
Susan I sincerely love this---you dared to expose the vulnerable while emphasing I'm learning from the experience to arrive at "hey I'm cool!" *S* |
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DavePage Member Elite
since 2003-12-21
Posts 2917 |
Susan Superb. I have actually starting playing the old Simon and Garfunkel tapes but I blend them with the Flying Pickets. Dave |
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vandana
since 1999-10-22
Posts 10463USA |
very nice |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
and today you have inspired me to hug myself... a celebratory awakening here thank you |
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Susan Member Ascendant
since 2004-03-27
Posts 5104walking the surreal |
So very well expressed - 'tis words of courage and valor - Susan Happiness isn't something that happens to you, it's created from within you. Joy is a state of mind. |
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Duncan Member Ascendant
since 2001-08-07
Posts 5455 |
If I wasn't so beat, I'd quote each line that I thought rocked (there were lots)... A lot of factors worked together to make this (I think) one of your best writes. (Though, ya know I'd of cut out at least half the words...lol). It's good to see ya back to being happy you... |
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BluesSerenade Member Patricius
since 2001-10-23
Posts 10549By the Seaside |
Beautiful writing Susan~ you are a bright and shining example of a place I aspire to be. Merry Christmas to you~ |
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Susan Caldwell Member Rara Avis
since 2002-12-27
Posts 8348Florida |
Thank you everyone... and Happy Holidays to all of you. "cast me gently into the morning, for the night has been unkind" |
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*Alli4000*
since 2004-03-21
Posts 3188The World of Poetry |
Very nicely written Susan! Happy Holidays! ~Alli~ Happy Holidays! |
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Susan Caldwell Member Rara Avis
since 2002-12-27
Posts 8348Florida |
Thank you "cast me gently into the morning, for the night has been unkind" |
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