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Maya the Brokenhearted Member
since 2000-02-13
Posts 66 |
it's not enough anymore to tell me that you love me my wounded heart is so far beyond healing, or help, or even you you can't rub salve on my scars or wipe away the tears anymore I see you standing there with your hand raised futilely in a gesture of kindness and I turn away afraid you'll see a truth you cannot live with afraid you'll see the hopelessness that I've tried to hide for so long my heart closed, dim and dark, with my smiles (that once came so freely) hidden in the shadows of life and fear and duty jerking myself roughly back to reality I remember where I am and who I belong to and the sense of hopelessness grows stronger and more forceful with each passing second but I hide away my frozen heart to somehow manage another day with a smile that never reaches my eyes and a heart that never feels |
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patricianne Member
since 2000-05-04
Posts 66 |
What a classic description of depression, you seem to know it too well. What a way with words!! |
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Dark Enchantress Senior Member
since 1999-07-27
Posts 1258meet Morgana |
Excellent poem Maya...very well written and expressed. I know you hate hearing this (or at least I know I do...) but it may seem hopeless now but if you keep hanging in there and do some pushing of your own...this will change. Of course that all takes time and effort....I'm not saying a complete transformation...I'm just saying that it'll get better in one way or another. But anyway...great poem.  "A man's fate is a man's fate and life is but an illusion." -Shogun ~*Angel of Darkness*~ |
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Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
Maya, You have described me two years ago, I had taken my heart and froze it, buried it under a tomb, with piles of rocks to keep it down. I had become unfeeling and I felt safe. It would never hurt again, I made sure of it. But I tell you girl, with one kiss it was melted, with one kiss it dug it's way out from the tomb like a damn mummy, with dust as a shroud. and said "huh?" what was that?? "life" My white dove did this to me. yours will come. and you will know life again. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. |
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honey007luv New Member
since 2000-05-09
Posts 7 |
you know it's kind of sad that so many people can relate to how you feel. but you had a nice way of expressing yourself and others that might not know how...good job! |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
Hon so sad you feel this way. Don't hide your heart from the world, perhaps just from the one who caused this pain. If you build walls or hide your heart, other's may not want to take the time to break them down and you will miss out of the joy of love and life, loving..... *hugs* At last I have heard the song of enlightenment.... In your heart you can hear it now, if you listen.... It is the song your spirit has been singing since the moment of your birth. All lasting victories are won in the heart.... ~Isis~ (Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit) |
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sgreybe Member
since 2000-04-28
Posts 209London, UK |
Maya Such heart-breaking, heart-wrenching stuff this. I can so relate it's uncanny. I know in depression one does feel as if one could never be happy again, and one has to look up to see the bottom of the pit one is in. It can then be tempting to decide to rather never feel again. Sort of safe, as Joel says. But I'm telling you now that this is not the better way. You need to feel all things. But we are here for you, and leave you with HUGS - lots of them! |
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