Open Poetry #32 |
Schizophrenic’s Have Nothing On Me |
jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas |
Schizophrenic’s Have Nothing On Me Three o’clock in the morning. Sleep and I have parted ways, the night and I have compromised – I’d lay here quietly as long as it held day at bay. Quietly, but for the inside of my head where torrents of thought raged as if the temptress outside my bedroom window was caged inside, fighting to be free, thunder and lighting the pictures and sounds of wide-awake dreams. Alone deep in the night, mind on fire, Schizophrenic’s have nothing on me. Morning’s coming, sleep eludes, head is bursting with activity – delusional thinking, hallucinations, lack of normal emotional response – I see, feel, hear everything, experience nothing but paranoid delusions of you loving me, that you could still love me, despite your having left me here, alone . . . Five a.m. – night has broken it’s promise, day is taking it’s place, the clock is about to scream it’s warning. I have to open my eyes and know you really aren’t here, it wasn’t all a dream, it’s reality. Schizophrenic’s have nothing on me when the sun opens it’s eyes and sees me laying here watching the door, waiting for you, waiting for you . . . just as I’ve always done. Night, and it begins again – sleeplessness, head bursting with activity – thoughts of you loving me. w. james beard, jr. © june 2004 |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
Jimmy, good write. Now, get a glass of warm milk and rest your wreay head. (another insomniac) |
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jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas |
Night-night momma. j. |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
understanding this well |
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LeeJ Member Patricius
since 2003-06-19
Posts 13296 |
ohhh this was sooooo good, really good and an enjoyable read. Very nicely done! |
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Gentle Spirit Member Patricius
since 2000-10-09
Posts 13989 |
Oh Jimmy I know this oh soooooooo well. Hugs. Very well written m'friend. |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
I see, feel, hear everything, experience nothing but paranoid delusions of you loving me, that you could still love me, despite your having left me here, alone . . . Five a.m. – night has broken it’s promise, day is taking it’s place, the clock is about to scream it’s warning. I have to open my eyes and know you really aren’t here, it wasn’t all a dream, it’s reality. How well I know... how well you've written it! *S* This is excellent!! |
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Susan Member Ascendant
since 2004-03-27
Posts 5104walking the surreal |
This is very well done, much enjoyed the read. I've had nights like this. Susan The whole of the Universe resides within each individual heart. |
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