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Sass
Junior Member

since 2003-05-10

Posts 21

0 posted 2004-04-12 09:31 PM

Come in and tell me hi!
Can't you just this once?
This one time, aknowledge my exsistence.
I'm hiding my sadness on the inside.
Crying inwardly,
hoping I dont give you the pleasure of seeing my pain.
Makes you too happy to know you are the creator of my misery.
How can you look me in the eyes and say those words?
You love me, now...sure,
while I do everything you say without a hint of hesitation. So afraid and lonely.
No other choice.
But later, when something's not right, you dont hesitate to come at me with your fists ready as ever.
Are you proud?
You've taught me to hate the words, 'I love you'.
Is this what love is?
Responding to everyone in the room, but glancing recklessly over me?
Giving everyone a loving hug and a gentle kiss on the cheek, but hitting me with nothing more then a "why didnt you..." or a "you stupid son of a...".
Is that what love is?
Love, I hate the word. Its cruelty hits me harder then any blow he may throw at me.
I hurt. Can't you see it?
It's not like I mask my emotions.
I need you!
I dont need a bully.
I dont need to "learn a lesson"
I just need...my dad.

Sass
Junior Member

since 2003-05-10

Posts 21

1 posted 2004-04-12 09:38 PM

sorry guys, I dont know why it posted twice
oops
~Kassi

kissa~rachelle
Senior Member

since 2003-11-27

Posts 988
nowhere special

2 posted 2004-04-12 11:38 PM

oh wow. i really love this. I am hoping you were just writing this, just because, but if you arent i am so sorry. I need my afther too. My step dad is always here for me, like a real dad, but my father... jusat thinking about him hurts. Very amazing write.

I want a relationship i can finally sink my teeth into.~ Alexander Sterling

Lexy
Senior Member

since 2003-01-28

Posts 1038
California

3 posted 2004-04-13 12:08 PM

Sonnie,
This makes me ache inside.
Though there are other loves in your life, the void you feel between you and you dad, can't be filled by my or Mo's love. I wish it could. All I can say is that I care for you so much. And this brings me to tears.
~Lexy

Sass
Junior Member

since 2003-05-10

Posts 21

4 posted 2004-04-13 12:11 PM

Lexy..I love you so much. Your my strength. and although there is that void, you do fill a huge part of my life. And the love you and J-mo both give me is enough to last a lifetime. Thank you though. I love you with my whole heart.
~Kassi

Ixxi
Member

since 2004-01-02

Posts 77
England

5 posted 2004-04-13 03:58 AM

I need my dad too. He was never there for me either, only to hurt me.

I feel a lot from this poem and I'm glad you wrote it. If this is true then I'm sorry that this is happening to you. Never think that you're alone.

"Where paper cuts, and bloody hands, In the middle, they will meet"
- Funeral For A Friend

sweet_cute_palestinian04
Member

since 2004-04-11

Posts 418
Earth

6 posted 2004-04-13 04:56 AM

wow...i was tearing when i was reading it ..omg i thought my problems are worse..but believe in urself ,you dont need anyone for to be standing on just stand on your own feet ,like you alwayz do without him..BUT REMEMBER 1 THING HE WILL ALWAYZZZZZZZZZ LOVE YOU..{"DONT EVER IGNORE THAT"] OR YOU WILL BE THE ONE TO CRY...and remember you have the same blood and i bet 1 day you willl be soo close ,trust me i tried it ....take care..and just depend on yourself..

::^love^::

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