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NormalitxButterfly
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since 2008-07-09

Posts 107

0 posted 2008-08-31 11:12 PM

"the masks we wear"

I have realized some time ago
after a while we become the masks we wear.
i wore the mask to hide
my face, my pain, emotions,
a heart i could not bear.
pretending i was strong,
that i felt nothing,
that the world had not happen to me.
it broke
unable to hold back the piled up humanity.
I can not be perfect
there are times that i will be weak
vulnerable.
Lost in a labyrinth that is my mind
where the world is not so black and white.
who i am is but a memory of a light already faded. a light
i cry from the restlessness of being unable to reach.
i do not understand
why do i cling so desperately to these memories.
why i search so madly for reasons,
for answers to questions i do not know.
my mind is a maze from which i can not escape.
a birdcage from which i watch as time passes
cutting and biting like shards of glass.
when i wore the mask of a child
there was always the dream of growing up
being happy.
i grew up
leaving behind the illusions of a child
the sky stopped being blue so long ago.
dreams died along with the withered rose and butterflies.
i the begining the scars were only made of pen.
though a new design with every day
they'd be there again and again.
i often asked myself why.
Just that supposed simple word/question.
" why"?
I do not have the answers
and the question consumes me.
i have found in this maze mes i never knew existed
peeling away masks that had become flesh.
But the wounds left behind, opened
became festered.
leaving me wounded and weaker than before.
To find myself i risked what sanity remains in me, is it worth it?
what will it solve?
what will/have i gain(ed)?

midnightdreamer
Member

since 2008-02-03

Posts 309
Roy,ut

1 posted 2008-08-31 11:22 PM

we've all got masks. this a very beautiful poem.
midnightdreamer

"It was heaven........right in the center of hell" Bella from New Moon

NormalitxButterfly
Member

since 2008-07-09

Posts 107

2 posted 2008-08-31 11:39 PM

thanks dreamer

I leave to walk ahead, only to be lost
Even though I cannot see the end, I think it's alright
I will leave on a journey at range, it's alright if i

Revon
Junior Member

since 2008-08-29

Posts 15

3 posted 2008-09-01 10:46 AM

Amazing. I really enjoyed it.

Temptress

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-06-15

Posts 7136
Mobile, AL

4 posted 2008-09-02 11:56 PM

I really liked how you wrote about being a caged bird in a totally different way.

I liked a lot more of it, but I would be here all night if I tried to tell you everything.

Enjoyed!

"...buried way beneath the sheets
I think she's having a meltdown..."
"Buckcherry"

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