Death of a Love so Strong (repost reminded to me by darkness_witch's piece)

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Ladycat

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since 1999-07-05

Posts 782
At the edge and a doorway,TX

0 posted 2004-12-12 08:16 PM

Standing in this room with the people that I loved the most
People that have been there my whole life, but not
Standing in this place with people that loved people
People that cared about people, but don't now
I was alone
Not lonely
Just alone

I don't know you
I don't like you
Where have you been through all this fustration that I have been through
Why didn't you help me the way that I helped you
Why didn't you love me through it all
There are days that I can think back to time when you cryed on my shoulder
Now I have no shoulder to cry on

I felt my feet sink into the floor as the world was spinning around me
I was not here
I was not there
I was spending time in my head with the voices that kept me sane this whole time
I can hear the clanking of glass as midnight hits
Kisses are passed around, but not from the ones that I love
Not from the ones that I want
Just people
Everywhere

Those times that we had were good
Those times that we shared were special, but I'm sorry to say that I never want to see you all again
I never want to talk to you again
I just want to move on
Without you

Don't hate me during this time of not caring
Don't hate me because I feel left out
Love me more for doing my own thing
Without you
Without the need
Without the want
I wished
I tryed
I needed
I wanted
To be one of you
But I'm not
I never will be

So here is my glass raised high to you
To you for being you and doing your own thing
Here is my glass
Raised high to the fools, lovers, wishers, dreamers, hopers, and family
The family that never was

One last night to say goodbye before I go
One last night to see you all in your true light
Alone....
Not lonely
Just alone....

Love,
Ladycat

"Everything changes, everything stays the same."-Bill Austin

[This message has been edited by Ladycat (12-13-2004 04:01 PM).]

stevebrklynnyc
Member

since 2004-01-04

Posts 292
GA, Camden

1 posted 2004-12-13 08:06 AM

This poem seems so close to where I have been. I actually wept reading this. God, I hate poetry sometimes because it can hit so close to home. I have to save this to remind me not to make the same mistakes again. Loved it very much, thanks, steve.

silhouetted
Senior Member

since 2004-01-30

Posts 537
New Zealand

2 posted 2004-12-13 08:07 PM

oh my god. Ladycat? Where did you learn to write so real? that is such an amazing piece of writing, oh my god. its how i have felt before many times in my life, and everything about it was so perfect and it all fit together and it was all so good. i loved it.

LOR

you're the only one keeping me alive

Ladycat

Senior Member

since 1999-07-05

Posts 782
At the edge and a doorway,TX

3 posted 2004-12-13 09:52 PM

Thank you very much for the responses. I actually wrote this piece years ago after a bad experience at a New Years party in which I realized that I could never talk to those people again since they didn't really know me and I didn't really know them. I'm glad that the piece touched you both and I would like to thank darkness_witch for reminding me of the piece.

*hugs*

Love,
Ladycat

"Everything changes, everything stays the same."-Bill Austin

darkness_witch
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since 2003-12-03

Posts 516
Underneath

4 posted 2004-12-13 11:24 PM

im glad i reminded of this one!

loved it and as you can guess I can relate so well

awesome work

love and empathy
sophie

nirvana means freedom from pain, suffering and the external world.

kissa~rachelle
Senior Member

since 2003-11-27

Posts 988
nowhere special

5 posted 2004-12-15 10:20 PM

I loved it, and can relate..which you should already know. lol This was an amazing write. I think i will save.

~karissa

I ask why, but in my mind,
I find i cant really rely on myself.
~~~Linkin Park~~~

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