ZAC - in memory of Zachary Eves Bear Don't Walk

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n2dmystic
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since 2003-09-27

Posts 253
beyond the doors of perception

0 posted 2003-10-03 12:42 PM

Zac was a client of mine when I worked in mental health.  He was horribly tormented by Paranoid Schizophrenia, to the point that he had demonic video hallucinations.  He died after walking away from the Montana State Hospital at Warm Springs.  The hospital did not put out a search for him, though it covered its' ass when they found his body six weeks later, after the snow melted.  I wrote this and presented it at his funeral.


With angels eyes
  you saw beyond the veil -
Allowed by God to know more than we -
  Some called it schizophrenia
  Some called it spiritual warfare

You heard, you saw, and you knew -
  beyond our limited abilities
You brought to life a sense of wonder
  An oh! How you yearned to be free

You walked gently, with dignity
  In sometimes overwhelming torment -
  because you once said, “I cherish life”
And in your love for life you brought -
  light and love and joy to those you touched

You were a dweller on the threshold
  never losing ground -
In spite of what some thought
  your vision was so profound
And brought to life through your gift for art

Your gift to me was trust and love
  You said I made you feel safe -
Zac, you made me feel safe
Sometimes I called you “son”
  That wasn’t an accident
  I loved you as my own

You, the gentle son
  laid down your life in virgin fields
And crossed the bridge where angels dwell
To live under the watchful gaze of the Master’s eyes

Our loss is God’s gain,
  my son
Go to the Creator
  with the love of many -
You will be in our hearts and minds
  and I know you are safe

Thank you Zac
  for sharing your life
  your love
  and your spirit with me
  You were God’s gift to me

Peace, Joe
in the big MT
seeking the serendipitous magical mysteries of life's ubiquitous twisteries

Susan Caldwell
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since 2002-12-27

Posts 8348
Florida

1 posted 2003-10-03 01:06 PM

I am getting to know you through your words and I am enjoying both.

Susan

nakdthoughts
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since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

2 posted 2003-10-03 07:05 PM

Some called it spiritual warfare

I know someone who suffers from this too..

nicely expressed

M

Kethry
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since 2000-07-29

Posts 9082
Victoria Australia

3 posted 2003-10-03 07:14 PM

n2dmystic,
what a wonderful, wonderful tribute! I haven't read you before but I will read you again.
Kethry

Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind. Unknown

Enchantress
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since 2001-08-14

Posts 35113
Canada eh.

4 posted 2003-10-03 07:15 PM

A very moving tribute.
Well penned....indeed.
~Smiles & Hugs, Nancy~

~Autumn, the year's last, loveliest smile~

n2dmystic
Member

since 2003-09-27

Posts 253
beyond the doors of perception

5 posted 2003-10-04 01:27 AM

thank you all for the kind words. this one was a labor of love. I still think of him often. A beautiful young man

Peace, Joe
in the big MT
seeking the serendipitous magical mysteries of life's ubiquitous twisteries

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