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timothysangel1973

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since 2001-12-03

Posts 1725
Never close enough

0 posted 2003-06-22 01:00 AM

I'm consused, yet I understand.

I see you staring back at me
through dark shades.
The words that are in your brain
dare not cross those beautiful lips.

Your silent, serene language,
garbles the thoughts in my mind,
as I wait patiently for a sign.
I don't want my paranoia to dismantle
our time together,
though I have to admit
that I am wondering if
reflection has changed your direction.

You called me tonight,
and I came running,
hoping for something wonderful
that you had arranged.
Yet, here we sit and stare,
you drumming your fingers on the table,
and I wondering what it is
that you can't say.

Perhaps if I could see the eyes
that you are hiding,
I would have a glimpse
into the secrets
that you'll not share.
Has the beginning already ended
without me having the slightest clue?

You are too careful
with your words tonight
for this to be anything short
of the last act between two people
sitting across from each other,
in a dark, private corner.

My attraction
from the beginning
was your gentle,
yet silent nature.
Now it seems as though
these traits are
concreting every negative
thought in my mind.

My words are nervously spoken
as I try to persuade you
to share with me
what you feel you can't say.

I am on that pendulum once again,
I begin to ramble,
as I know that I am falling,
yet I feel suspended
and crippled by this frightening
stillness between us.

You could've stayed
on your side of town,
and I on mine,
we could've been silent all alone,
instead of together.

I don't need an explanation,
or a goodbye,
I've been here before,
and I will remain
no more damaged
with your leaving as I was
with your appearance.

This lantern that I carry inside
has lighted my way
many a dark night,
I'm just anybody,
somebody,
yet nobody special.

Abandonment and escape
have become opium to my soul,
this conversation resembles
many that I have had,
yet it shakes my senses
to see you this way.

I'm guilty in admitting
that I've not let you
far enough into my heart
for this seperation
to leave a scar.

I'd rather know
that you are happy,
than to see you
as you are.

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[This message has been edited by timothysangel1973 (06-22-2003 01:27 AM).]

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
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1 posted 2003-06-22 04:54 AM

Tima, m'friend, this is so understandable, I can feel this a thousand miles away! Love the ending especially.

Local Rebel
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since 1999-12-21

Posts 5767
Southern Abstentia

2 posted 2003-06-22 09:48 PM

Yes... reminds me of one of mine from long ago... Peace kid.

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

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3 posted 2003-06-26 01:32 AM

timothysangel1973

Senior Member

since 2001-12-03

Posts 1725
Never close enough

4 posted 2003-06-26 01:33 AM

Thanks for the BUMP Dix!!

QjQ
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since 2003-04-18

Posts 3756
U.S.A.

5 posted 2003-06-28 01:42 AM

very nice write n read,,,,

A voice of honesty
   is treasured
more than voices
   of flattery
      QjQ

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