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timothysangel1973
since 2001-12-03
Posts 1725Never close enough 
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Even as I lie next to you, knowing that I am secure Often, I rise from my slumber walk toward the window, and watch over my life. This is my habit, I've been doing this for so long I'm accustomed to listening and watching for a bump, or shadow. Anything... ...something That threatens my safety and my inner peace that the ghosts of yesteryear, wont let go. With me, it's never been sweet release no... ...not at all. I have clung to life and it's demons until I have worn myself so thin, that I'm no longer living... but... ...simply hanging on. You turn, and notice that I am no longer next to you, and you call out... Reluctantly, I return, but not before... glancing... ...one last time At the darkness and the shadows therein, that I am trying to leave behind. |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Let loose the fingers, and walk beyond. A good write, Tima! |
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Suetang Member Ascendant
since 2001-03-07
Posts 5187Melbourne, Australia |
Hello Tima This was such a very powerful write with strong emotions. I hope you find the love you surely deserve. Take care......Sue I am in motion |
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Kaoru
since 2003-06-07
Posts 3892where the wild flowers grow |
Powerful, indeed, but always with you! Loved this. |
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timothysangel1973
since 2001-12-03
Posts 1725Never close enough |
I guess I should've noted that this poem was written for my mother. For years after her divorce from my father she was unable to sleep at night because she was so in fear of my father and his threats to hurt her for leaving him. My mother and I have only recently started to talk about this period in her life, and I wrote this after she told me of the many nights she went sleepless, watching and waiting for him to lash out at her. |
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Bill Charles Member Patricius
since 2000-07-11
Posts 10619highways, & byways, for now |
timothysangel1973 - you're writing is so full of truth and things that seem to follow wherever or whatever we do. I wonder at times if they are ever left behind... BC |
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Janette
since 2001-07-20
Posts 2843Chicagoland for now |
You have expressed this fear so well, lovely write here dear Lady. Enjoyed |
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angelblueyes Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2148Oklahoma |
You have touched this well.May your mother feel peace and serenity throughout her life. angelblueyes |
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timothysangel1973
since 2001-12-03
Posts 1725Never close enough |
Sunshine, Sue, Kaoru, Janette, and AngelBlueEyes...thank you all for your kind words! Bill - YES! I write what I have lived, and I try to help others with my words. I don't think we ever let go of our pasts...they are the mud forms us. |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
Tima: Jesus . . . I do this all the time (not for the same reasons) but I do . . . God . . . wish those bones in my closet would keep quiet They keep me up at night This is brilliant and a wonderful tribute for your mom and what she must have gone through xxoo [This message has been edited by littlewing (07-24-2003 05:09 AM).] |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
shadows don't always need to be left behind  lol... Tima, I understand where you're coming from here...I do that too, probably always will...  luv ya |
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inkedgoddess Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-19
Posts 7392Ohio |
beutiful and full of your warm heart |
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timothysangel1973
since 2001-12-03
Posts 1725Never close enough |
Sue - Me too, even though I don't need to anymore...old habits die hard I guess. Dix - Thanks for the squeeze, I needed that! heres one right back at cha' InkGoddess - Thank you for your sweet words! |
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gemjop Member Elite
since 2002-11-18
Posts 2587Pencilveinia, USA |
I have clung to life and it's demons until I have worn myself so thin, that I'm no longer living... but... ...simply hanging on. wow, this hurts to read. powerful images written here lady. much love and strength to you. love gem xxxx Instant karma's gonna get you. |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
I really felt this, Tima! You pulled my harp strings into an old refrain that fortunately plays less frequently and has now become very faint.  Lovin' hugs, Linda |
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Ericc Member Elite
since 2003-01-31
Posts 4178 |
Wow...!! Eric |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Seems like a transition period...much preferred to still living in that situation...hope she feels safe now...James |
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SharaRose Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2501Somewhere out there~ |
Abuse is a prison all it's own. I hope she is well now, and free. Free from those chains! Wishing her, and you well!!!  SharaRose @-->-- Of sound, and speech let all lift the hearer! |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
glancing... ...one last time At the darkness and the shadows therein, that I am trying to leave behind. Oh Tima, this is so familar to me...in my own life.  Hugs  Ethel |
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timothysangel1973
since 2001-12-03
Posts 1725Never close enough |
Gem - Thank you lady! Earth Angel - Come on now, I bet your harp plays loud as ever! Eric - Thank You James - Yes, she's safe now. 18 Years and counting. Shara Rose - Free as a bird, no longer wearing those chains. Ethel - Yes! Mine too, My shadows are always there, just in different spots as the hours move in and out of this heart. ** Thank you all for the kind words ** |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
Powerful writing, powerfully written. Kethry Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind. Unknown |
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