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It Still Hurts
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It Still Hurts |
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garysgirl  
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA 
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It has been almost six years now since you died You said you loved me and I really thought you may have ........sometimes The times when you weren't speaking words that cut through my heart And the times you weren't slapping or gently pushing me across the room or while riding down the road hollering and screaming at me because I just happened to look out the window or did some other little thing you didn't like And I thought that you just might mean it when you said that you loved me until you would get insanely jealous and accuse me of all the things your other women were actually doing with you But then you would be so sorry you said And you would cry and beg me to be patient with you You would tell me that you were like you were because of the way you were abused as a child And you would beg me not to leave Then after you died I found out some unspeakable things that you did and now I know..... You could have never loved me in all those years that we were married If you had how could you have done the horrible things that you did? |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
Pains like those never go away completely, but hopefully they do lessen with time. It must have been very difficult to learn of things after his death, where you weren't given the opportunity to confront him with them and hear his side of the story. I am so happy that a man of Gary's stature has come into your life to heal old wounds and to treat you with the love and respect that you so richly deserve, Dear One. May you continue writing happy chapters in your book of life with your Honey-Love! Luvs 'n hugs to you love bugs! Linda |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
garysgirl Oh my is this comming from the sweetest girl I know?  |
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papabear Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 102Atlanta, GA |
I just had to stop and give you a big bear hug… That was amazing… I really felt that… |
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gemjop Member Elite
since 2002-11-18
Posts 2587Pencilveinia, USA |
Oh you poor sweet thing. no one like you should ever have to go through stuff like that. but then it never works like that does it. sigh....i'm so glad you have your Gary to make everything right for you.  |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggssssssss) Oh Ethel, I'm so sorry that you had to go through such a difficult relationship, dearest friend, I can understand that he may have went through much pain as a child but that is no excuse for having to be abusive to you as I too have went through a lot and I never want to hurt anyone! (sad sigh) You deserve so much more and I know with a golden hearted man like Gary you will finally find true love forever, yay, God Bless You, you deserve extra big angel hugs for this, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Ethel, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton Underneath your clothes, there's an endless story |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Thank God that you have new opportunities...and may many beautiful experiences and memories fill your heart...James |
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Nightshade
since 2001-08-31
Posts 13962just out of reach |
Awww Ethel, sweet lady, I know it still hurts....but you will get past all of this....believe me. hugs to you, Chris "Said you'd give me light... |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Linda, thank you so very much. I appreciate your hugs and well wishes to me and my Gary. Yes, I don't know what i would do without him and hope and pray that I never have to.  . Seymour, thank you, sweet Sir. I needed that hug, too. I appreciate you, . Thank you, papabear, for the big bearhug. I appreciate it. . Thank you all so very much for your sweet, kind, and compassionate words. Ya'll are sll so nice, and I really do appreciate my family of friends here at Passions.  Heart hugs to you all Ethel |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Oh Gemma, I thank you, my sweet little friend. You are too sweet to have to be hurt too. It's hard to understand sometimes, isn't it? Yes, I am very blessed to have my Gary. He is so patient and loving with me. . . . Noah, I know. There are a lot of people who have been abused that don't abuse others. It's just and excuse when people use that as the reason to mistreat others. I know that you never want to hurt anyone, my friend. Thank you for being you, my friend. . . . James, thank you so very much. That's very sweet for you to say. I really appreciate it, too. . . Chris, thank you, sweet Lady, for that. I really appreciate you. You are so sweet. . . Heart hugs to each of you..... Ethel |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
sad but well expressed Ethel...hope the evening has brought you to a nicer place in thought. hugs M |
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Larry C
since 2001-09-10
Posts 10286United States |
Ethel, And look at the beauty that walked of that living hell... Tragedy without reasonable explanation and still overcome. Gary is lucky to have the woman you have become and we are blessed by you as well. Sad that some memories never go away but only leave a scar. If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again. |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Maureen, thank you, Lady. It did. Hugs Ethel |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Thank you, Larry. I really appreciate your words. I feel very lucky, too, to have my Gary and his love...and all of my family of friends here at Passions, too. Thank you!! Hugs Ethel |
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Wind
since 2002-10-12
Posts 2981 |
I thought I've read this one. But I don't see a reply. But that last line was so familliar, so vivid... I said I'm going to buy a gun and start a war, |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Yeah, Liz...it's a repost....just a little different font and color. It's from Open 24,I think. I was feeling down in the dumps for a while, and this came to mind. Goodness, you've got a really good memory, haven't you? Thanks, Liz. Hugs Ethel |
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Joe Houck Member
since 2001-04-23
Posts 324california |
=( "The worst vice is advice" (Al Pacino, devil's advocate) |
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timothysangel1973
since 2001-12-03
Posts 1725Never close enough |
Wonderful write! Sometimes it's hard to accept bad things even when they are long done and gone. I really enjoyed this one! Tima Some women wait for something to change and nothing does, so they change themselves. |
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SmartChick Member Rara Avis
since 2001-09-23
Posts 7081On A Journey To The Unknown |
Ethel, I am so sorry you are feeling such pain. I hope the pain leaves you real soon. |
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Roniece Dawson-Bruce Member Ascendant
since 2000-01-29
Posts 5689Sydney, Australia |
It is good that you can express your feelings this way.....getting it down on paper does help. I'll have some good thoughts for you Bella xx Roniece Dawson-Bruce |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
love to you ladybug |
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Artic Wind Member Rara Avis
since 2007-09-16
Posts 8080Realm of Supernatural |
Of course it would still hurt. That pain in unbelievably hard I bet. And really no one can live a normal life for awhile after that! Hopefully you will be given the strength you need to live through it every year! ARCTIC WIND |
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