Open Poetry #26 |
Anguish .............the end of a relationship. |
Lisann Member
since 2001-01-31
Posts 350 |
this is a little raw......but that is precisely how i feel at the moment.......raw.......a relationship of great importance seems to be coming to an end....and i wrote this as I watched the door close behind her. the pain is rushing through me it feels like a sword has been plunged into my heart. The harder I try to make amends The further we grow apart. Why does it have to be this way? Why can't you understand? What is it about me that you find so "unacceptable?" What is it that you can't stand? I've tried hard to be the best To do all that I could...... Give you all my love inside, More than I thought I would. Yet, somehow through it all you decided it just wasnt' what you needed You turned your back and walked away Left my heart bare and depleted. how do i move past the pain Of knowing you never really cared.... How am i to understand the heart you never shared. please try and explain it I really need to know Can you give me some explanations Before you turn your back and go? |
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carol Senior Member
since 2003-01-25
Posts 624Florida USA |
Lisann,This is so sad but it is very good writing Real friends celebrate in who we are and have faith in all that we can become |
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Kellie_Cantrell Senior Member
since 2002-05-22
Posts 1667New York |
ouch, i feel whiplash! (¨`·.·´¨) (¨`·.·´¨) |
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peaceful_dreamer Member
since 2003-04-25
Posts 159SoMeWhErE oVeR tHe RaInBoW |
this is sad, but so so good! i can relate to it a lot. I love the rhyming! peaceful_dreamer |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
The hurt always seems deeper when you don't know why. A sad but good write. Healing thoughts to you, Lisann. |
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Patricia Member Elite
since 2003-04-06
Posts 2160Missouri |
Oh, do I know this feeling. Let me say this, you are enough...I used to do this, too. The questions: What is wrong with me? Why can't I be the one? What can't you love me? Been there. I don't do this anymore. You can't be in another's mind to know what goes on there. I was married to my husband for over 16 years. During that time, I felt so unloved, so unhappy, just plain miserable. I wondered all of those years what was wrong with me. Why couldn't he love me? I tried to be perfect, and still could not get what I needed. I lost myself in the process. My self esteem was non-existent. Recently, I started to date again. I began falling in love with this new man. Suddenly, he decided he did not want a relationship. I felt shattered, still do some days. But I am not going to ponder his mind. Yes, I still think I love him. I daydream of him frequently. But I will not put this thing on me. Quite frankly, I think he missed out on something that could have really been a blessing for him. But that is his choice. Two things I have learned: You can't make someone do something they don't want to do. AND You can't make someone change unless they want to do so. One last thing...if it was really meant to be, let him go. He will be back on his own terms. I still pray about my guy. I ask the Lord to bring him back to me if it supposed to be. It will be so much better if he comes back to you after his own introspection. I am sorry if I appear to be lecturing. It is just that I know this so well. Your presentation in this piece is real for me. It is like you summed up the whole of my marriage here. Please take care. (I know the pain is great now, but it will lessen with passing days.) -Patricia |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Always sad to lose someone you care for... we can't really know someone else's long range goals or plans...if we could we could easily understand why they take the actions they take...James |
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Startime55 Member Elite
since 2003-04-05
Posts 2148Alberta, Canada |
The pain you feel bleeds through your words and touches the hearts of your readers...the good thing is that it helps to write out your pain... |
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Lisann Member
since 2001-01-31
Posts 350 |
thank you all for your replies.....and your support. I really do hope that time heals all wounds.......how is it possible to claim you love someone and then turn your back on them? that isn't love.......... |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Lisann your last comment was interesting. Time will show you the truth... For now you have so much invested in the relationship emotionally that it is hard to understand why this is happening to you. Meanwhile I have some thoughts...How can someone continue to love a person that walks away from their committment? It is not you walking away...you are merely stuck with the consequences...and in this case you may or may not have any control over that...James |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Lisann, the hurt I felt from reading of your pain really touched me. I can tell that you really care a lot about this person, still. I don't want to say anything that might make you feel worse than you do. I would like to say, though, that you shouldn't put all the blame for the situation on your own shoulders. I don't believe that just one person is the cause of a breakup....it takes both people to have problems in a relationship. Good luck to you.... Hugs, Ethel [This message has been edited by garysgirl (04-28-2003 07:11 AM).] |
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j0n4th4n Member
since 2003-03-11
Posts 94 |
perhaps your wrong when you think they never cared for you..? i mean, they must have done, even if they dont now.. im not trying to correct you, i just dont want you to think something that may not be true, and suffer more for it |
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Mary Ann Member
since 2003-04-23
Posts 111 |
This is a lovely poem but also painful to read...i'm sorry that things between you seem to be falling apart but it may not neccesarily be the end...keep faith and I hope things will work out for you.., God bless, Mary Ann |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
Lisann ~ Here's a big, warm loving hug to help ease at least a tiny bit of the pain you are feeling. Remember, "and this too, shall pass"...This may be small consolation for you at this time, but I promise you ( 's honor), it is very true... Love & Light, EA |
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