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Hockeychick19
Member

since 2002-10-29

Posts 430
Massachusetts, USA

0 posted 2003-05-16 07:54 PM

I feel alone,
Numbness goes through me,
Nowhere to turn,
When will I learn,

I’m not the person I want to be,
Everyone is just using me,
Why don’t I just stop life,
And start again,
But I’m not brave enough,
But I’m not strong enough,
To do it, do it on my own,

I live life in a box,
Behind closed doors,
Beyond these walls I see nothing,
I see nothing at all,

I’m not the person I want to be,
Everyone is just using me,
Why don’t I just stop life,
And start again,
But I’m not brave enough,
But I’m not strong enough,
To do it, do it on my own,

This is not right,
I can’t get used to this,
Life is supposed to be a great journey,
But I’ve now realized it’s not for me,

I’m not the person I want to be,
Everyone is just using me,
Why don’t I just stop life,
And start again,
But I’m not brave enough,
But I’m not strong enough,
To do it, do it on my own,

I’m not the person I want to be,
Everyone is just using me,
Why don’t I just stop life,
And start again,
But I’m not brave enough,
But I’m not strong enough,
To do it, do it on my own.

FlyingCloud
Member

since 2003-04-28

Posts 151
A little place inside my head

1 posted 2003-05-16 09:12 PM

Don't worry, everything should look up soon.

Always remember to forget
The friends that proved untrue.
But never forget to remember
Those who have stuck by you.
-Anon

Patricia
Member Elite

since 2003-04-06

Posts 2160
Missouri

2 posted 2003-05-16 09:23 PM

Oh, but you are strong enough. Your strength will come from the desire to become the person you want to be. Tear down the walls, climb out of the box, and be! And forget those users in your life. Go out there and be the person you were meant to be.

I felt your pain here. This was very moving for me. There was a time when I felt this way...long ago and far away.

I hope this helps,
Please take care,
-Patricia

Ericc
Member Elite

since 2003-01-31

Posts 4178

3 posted 2003-05-16 10:02 PM

What a strong yearning in your words.
Yet as Rumi reminds us...what we yearn for...yearns for us.
Your words show your strength and beauty...even in their tender expressions.
Eric

carol
Senior Member

since 2003-01-25

Posts 624
Florida USA

4 posted 2003-05-16 10:58 PM

This reminds me of something I seen before it said I'm not the person I want to be but I'm not the person i'm gonna be
great write

Real friends celebrate in who we are and have faith in all that we can become
Lots of Love
Rita

[This message has been edited by carol (05-16-2003 10:59 PM).]

QjQ
Member Elite

since 2003-04-18

Posts 3756
U.S.A.

5 posted 2003-05-17 01:29 AM

sometimes we have to look back to see where we been to know where were going!!!

It matters not how you answer, It matters only that i hear you.

Richy
Member Elite

since 2003-05-03

Posts 3050

6 posted 2003-05-17 02:48 AM

Hockey, just know that we are here for you...

And we can hear the sadness in your heart...

Many of us, have had these feelings before...

But together, we have, and can continue to help each other work them out...

You may not realize it, but your poem, may have already made someone feel like, they are not alone...

Bless You Hockey,

And please stay in touch, OK?

A Friend,

Richy

[This message has been edited by Richy (05-17-2003 02:48 AM).]

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

7 posted 2003-05-17 05:59 AM

I have felt like this often, too often...

Hockeychick19
Member

since 2002-10-29

Posts 430
Massachusetts, USA

8 posted 2003-05-17 12:07 PM

FlyingCloud, I hope it all gets better sooner then later.

Patricia, All I've been feeling lately is pain, thank you for your kind words and concern.

Eric, Thank you for your kind words. I wish I wish I could have the same amout of strength in me as what comes out when I write.

Carol, I'm glad you enjoyed this piece.

QjQ, You're absolutely right. I'm glad you enjoyed this poem.

Richy, I feel this sadness may never go away, but with the help of my friends and everyone here I know it can be eased.

Passing Shadows, I know we all have at some point in our lives.

Thank you everyone,
~Kelly~

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