the crucifixion of my being

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Sven

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since 1999-11-23

Posts 14937
East Lansing, MI USA

0 posted 2003-05-12 12:52 PM

is this the cup that I must
partake of Father?
filled with the last
bitter dregs of a stunted passion
that should have never seen the light of day
but a passion that I poured for myself
thinking that the taste of it would get
better with each successive sip
and wondering why my stomach wanted to retch
at the taste of it
full and acrid in that pit (not of despair)
of design

are these the spears that I must
endure Father?
the points of accusing eyes directed
at my heart and soul
flung over and over until I
am naught but remain
I turn to face the hurler of them
the one who seems to always find
the deepest marks
and find that I see (through the blood)
the same face

is this the walk that I must
proceed on Father?
through the virtual streets of this
still electric cityscape of names and faces
they take up the stones they have cast at themselves
and cast them at me
shouting the names of my supposed crimes
in voices that once spoke to me
as songs of the heart
          one of them comes out to offer me
          some measure of comfort
          and still another bears the
          burden for me
          but, in the end, it is I who will
          know the full weight of the punishment
          (decreed by a howling jury)
          as I walk on
I reach the place
and see that there are others (who know the sacrifice)
who wait for me

are these the nails that I must
feel Father?
driven in over and over again into my very
Spirit and Being until I cry out
in the agony of fire and loss
left to hang for all to see, an exhibit
and, above me, the sign, merely two words
HE BELIEVED

there, hanging on the cross of my life
made of the stuff of my being
I am changed
and my life again
                  becomes my own

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To the world, you may only be one person. But to one person, you may be the world.

Seymour Tabin
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since 1999-07-07

Posts 31720
Tamarac Fla

1 posted 2003-05-12 01:09 PM

Sven,
An excellent write with no answer in sight.
But through the valley of the pain and the blain will emerse the answer of the brain.

Janette

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since 2001-07-20

Posts 2843
Chicagoland for now

2 posted 2003-05-12 01:51 PM

I have no answers, only my own humble opinions.

I feel right now after reading this master piece is this ... no ... no ... you must not forever suffer and carry the pain and burdon ... no you should not.

A magnificient write here dear friend!

Justbleu
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since 1999-08-31

Posts 3329
Oregon, Originally From Alaska :)

3 posted 2003-05-12 03:14 PM

Excellent write.....
Nice to read your work!!!!
Bridgette

"Somewhere, somehow, it should be possible to touch someone and never let go again. To hold someone, not for a moment but forever." Unknown

Honeybee
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since 1999-12-26

Posts 5372
Ontario, CANADA

4 posted 2003-05-12 09:15 PM

I've always loved your unique and classy style...and this is a testament to it's strength. Excellent writing Sven Pen!

Take care,
Melissa

Intellectually I know that Canada is no better than any other country. Emotionally I KNOW that Canada is the best country in the world!

Magnus

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since 2001-10-10

Posts 14135
South Carolina, USA

5 posted 2003-05-12 09:19 PM

A very deep and powerful write...Well done
Sven...

Sven

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since 1999-11-23

Posts 14937
East Lansing, MI USA

6 posted 2003-05-13 12:35 PM

thank you all my friends. . . glad that you enjoyed. . .

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To the world, you may only be one person. But to one person, you may be the world.

Temptress

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-06-15

Posts 7136
Mobile, AL

7 posted 2003-05-14 04:00 AM

Have I heard this out loud, Sven Pen?

Love you in your work...thoughtful...always reaching to understand or know something new...or to rediscover a discovery.

Lovely to see you writing in here again. Was wondering what monsterous thing could keep you away.

You could hurt me with your bare hands. You could hurt me using the sharp edge of what you say. JEWEL

Charisma

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since 2000-09-30

Posts 5906
lost in blue pages

8 posted 2003-05-14 04:11 AM

Powerful words that reach deep into the soul.....heart moved penned Sven.

(((warm hugs)))
Charisma

Bill Charles
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since 2000-07-11

Posts 10619
highways, & byways, for now

9 posted 2003-05-14 10:22 AM

Sven - I felt these words very deeply, and believe I know them also. Such as it is, such as it shall be. Walk with peace my friend...

BC

Marge Tindal

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since 1999-11-06

Posts 42384
Florida's Foreverly Shores

10 posted 2003-05-14 10:59 AM

Sven~
This is a strong emote of ink~

Possibly one of your best pennings ?
I think so~
*Huglets*
~*Marge*~

~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~
[email protected]

Enchantress
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since 2001-08-14

Posts 35113
Canada eh.

11 posted 2003-05-14 02:36 PM

Powerful write my friend.
So good to read you here again.
~Smiles & Hugs, Nancy~

~Somewhere in my heart I'm always
dancing with you in the summer rain~

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

12 posted 2003-05-14 02:56 PM

Nice...James

Marilyn
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since 1999-09-26

Posts 2621
Ontario, Canada

13 posted 2003-05-14 07:02 PM

I must agree with Marge. I think this is the best piece of yours I have read. Though I have been gone a while and have missed much. Kudo's and ((hugs )) my friend.

Marilyn

Sven

Member Laureate

since 1999-11-23

Posts 14937
East Lansing, MI USA

14 posted 2003-05-15 12:29 PM

Temptress, I have no idea. . . have you?

  and. . . the monstrous thing that was keeping me away?  was me. . .

Charisma, thank you my friend. . . it is always good to see your words. . .

BC, thank you Sir. . .I shall, and I know that you will be on that path as well. . .

Marge, one of my best eh?  thank you so much. . . I am glad that you enjoyed. . .

Enchantress, thank you so much. . . so glad to be read again!!

James, always a man of few words, but yet, they mean just as much. . .thanks. . .

Marilyn, thank you so much! so wonderful to have you back. . . no apologies needed, just glad that you enjoy. . .

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littlewing
Member Rara Avis

since 2003-03-02

Posts 9655
New York

15 posted 2003-05-16 06:36 AM

John:

goodness - this is brilliant . . .

you have bled here my friend
xxoo

vandana

Member Patricius

since 1999-10-22

Posts 10463
USA

16 posted 2003-05-16 09:32 AM

nice write

Sven

Member Laureate

since 1999-11-23

Posts 14937
East Lansing, MI USA

17 posted 2003-05-16 12:34 PM

thank you both my friends. . .

littlewing, your comment reminds me of one that we've used around here before. . . "writing is easy, you just sit at a typewriter, and open up a vein". . . or, something like that. . .it means that when you write, you "bleed". . . not blood, mind you. . . but, life. . . and words. . . thanks. . .

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