Open Poetry #26 |
The Pinnacle Moment |
Ani Zen Junior Member
since 2003-05-08
Posts 12Ottawa, Ontario, Canada |
It was a very small, very quiet realization that I finally heard through all the noise. Somewhere between a dream, an alcoholic daze, and a moment of pure, poignant clarity. In a downtown street at 4 o'clock in the morning. I was surrounded by homes, like the home I've always wanted. Families, quiet, sleeping, warm in their worlds; their beds. I, on my knees, lost in the mist of my own breath as I heaved out sobs of sadness, worthlessness; understanding... Trying to cradle myself in the arms of concrete that reach out to this cold city. Arms laden with snow. Arms that don't quite reach every place. Arms that don't quite reach me... And I heard it then. A slight whisper in between my sputtering and gasping. It started when I pushed it all out. Getting louder as I quieted. And when I had stopped, the lamplit streets came back to a silent winter haven bathed in an orange glow. The whisper; a sharp internal voice that rang out in my head so loud I could hear nothing else. I could hear nothing, but the truth. And there it was, beside me in the snow. A matter-of-fact expression upon it's face. Like an old friend, with common sense and honest tone. "You don't have to be here if you don't want to be here. You don't have to feel like this, if you don't want to. It's your choice. It's been your choice all along..." My tears had frozen on my eyelashes, on my cheeks, on my heart... The truth stung more than the cold I stumbled through that night. It stung more than the reality of facing dreams I may ultimately never reach. It hurt more to hold it in my hands, than to face the people and places I've burned for, yearned for, but will never have.... Lessons in life, mistakes made; moments of clarity just waiting to happen. Stretching the personal boundries of understanding. Life truly is poetry in motion. |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
WELCOME TO PASSIONS! Absolutely amazing first post! I am truly looking forward to seeing more of your work. Relax, have a look around.. read and reply to other members.. and most of all....Have Fun! I'm sure you will love it here! ~Smiles & Hugs, Nancy~ ~Somewhere in my heart I'm always |
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regards2you Member Elite
since 2002-10-01
Posts 3940California |
Ani, ~WELCOME TO PASSIONS~ Enjoyed this greatly. A moment of truth revealed and written of well. Many have had that experience. Look forward to more of your work. Hugs, Pat |
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Nightshade
since 2001-08-31
Posts 13962just out of reach |
Enjoyed your first post!! |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
Ani: you defintely have my attention this is one amazing jpurney to a place we have all been one time or another What amazing insight you have Welcome to PIP! You will love it here xxoo |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
Awesome! I loved this! Welcome to Passions! please write more! |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Welcome to Passions, Ani! You like stories, that's good - we always have room for one more. Please, check your E-mail for a Special Greeting! Karilea - if I whisper, will you listen? |
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Justbleu Member Elite
since 1999-08-31
Posts 3329Oregon, Originally From Alaska :) |
This is an excellent piece of writing.... Enjoyed!!!! Welcome To Passions!!!!! Hope you like it here!!!!! Bridgette "Somewhere, somehow, it should be possible to touch someone and never let go again. To hold someone, not for a moment but forever." Unknown |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
(big hugggsssssss) You truly never have to remain there, it is your choice and if you rise to the occasion and look for the clearing, you can find a pinnacle and then when you climb the mountain to get there, it doesn't feel so strenuous at all like it used to! This is an excellent wise debut, sweet friend, you shine with understanding! Welcome to Passions, sweet Ani Zen, may you be inspired by all of us here as we will all be inspired by your lovely words! I can't wait to read more of your lovely poetry, dearest friend, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Ani Zen, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton Underneath your clothes, there's an endless story |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Such a wonderful read! I truly enjoyed this ZEN. Welcome. If this is representative of your work, I know I will enjoy future posts. HELLO! Welcome to Passions! |
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Kahlil Senior Member
since 2003-04-12
Posts 1881 |
What a way to make an entrance! Welcome! |
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icebox Member Elite
since 2003-05-03
Posts 4383in the shadows |
I've been there and after 40 years still can not put it into words, but you did. Thank you. Well done. |
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Ceinwyn Member Elite
since 2000-07-09
Posts 2175VA |
Welcome and I'm sorry that I'm fashionably late..but your words put everything into perspective and I'm really like yeah exactly can relate in my own ways.. If at first you don't succeed destroy all the evidence that you tried. |
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