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regards2you
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since 2002-10-01

Posts 3940
California

0 posted 2002-12-21 12:46 PM

I hard hug drawn up knees
and tremble,

suck in breath
    grit teeth,

dismal,
my eyes sting
unshed drops of misery,

~I am without you.~

Hands curl to fists,
open wide,
stretch to scream.

I sit up straight,
     shove out chin;
eyes smart, restless pant,
run shaky
   fingers through hair,
oh damn,

~I want you.~

That I could wretch,
vomit out
   these feelings,

know peace of mind
that,

~You don't exist~,
~You are not real~,
and,
~I don't need you~!

Alone, with tears in my eyes,
I look in mirror
and ask:

"There's no such thing
as ~needing~ someone,

    is there?

I yearn with wanting
the presence
of you.

Oh, go away, no don't!

Better to know you
exist,

for,
you are all I've waited for,
and all

you
were ever meant to be
to me.

At least I know.

I remain widowlike,
looking for you
to
come
to
me.

I wait and weep,

I,
want you.
.
.
.

..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons..
        "Desiderata"

[This message has been edited by regards2you (12-21-2002 12:48 AM).]

SEA

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Member Seraphic

since 2000-01-18

Posts 22676
with you

1 posted 2002-12-21 12:53 PM

my goodness....the ache just flies off the screen! hugs to you....

Rainbowdust
Member

since 2002-12-05

Posts 320
Sydney, Australia

2 posted 2002-12-21 02:16 AM

You expressed this so powerfully Pat, thanks for sharing!

The soul would have no rainbows, had the eyes no tears.

Mistletoe Angel

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since 2000-12-17

Posts 32816
Portland, Oregon

3 posted 2002-12-21 03:41 AM

(big hugggsssssssss) Oh Patricia, my heart goes out to you, sweet friend, I hope this yearning doesn't fill your heart currently and now you have found the one whom you want so much! (sigh) God Bless You, sweet friend, this is heartfelt, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Patricia, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

"Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..."

Shakira

vlraynes
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-07-25

Posts 8229
Somewhere... out there...

4 posted 2002-12-21 03:48 AM

Pat~
Wow...this just aches all the way through.
I felt every word of this as I read and
it touches deeply. Very powerfully penned.
Hugs,
~Vicky
"...until you have read the verse on his heart,
you have not truly met the poet.
~vlraynes

Aenimal
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-11-18

Posts 7350
the ass-end of space

5 posted 2002-12-21 03:51 AM

Am I right to interpret this as a spiritual rather than a relationship theme? Excellent mood I felt every pang...
raph

CSKpoet
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since 2002-07-12

Posts 845
Island in Paradise

6 posted 2002-12-21 04:25 AM

Deep the ache of want!
Very poignant and heartfelt, Pat.
Your soul crying out
big hugs to you,
Cher

Poetry is:
Passion, imagination and intellect running together.

Aloha with warmest regards, Cheryl Stewart Koomoa

Sandpiper
Senior Member

since 2002-06-15

Posts 738
land of flora and fauna

7 posted 2002-12-21 07:06 AM

longing, wanting..loud and clear..powerful emotions--well done!

"And it was at that age...Poetry arrived in search of me...And something started in my soul."
Pablo Neruda

Midnitesun

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since 2001-05-18

Posts 28647
Gaia

8 posted 2002-12-21 12:31 PM

This is a painfully good write. Are you all curled up around yourself? Maybe if you relax in a warm mineral bath, soothe the mind with a scented candle, and wash away the day. Sometimes it works, but there are no guarantees.

vandana

Member Patricius

since 1999-10-22

Posts 10463
USA

9 posted 2002-12-21 12:42 PM

enjoyed

regards2you
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since 2002-10-01

Posts 3940
California

10 posted 2002-12-21 12:44 PM

Thanks for all the responses.

Appreciate all of you. Just trying to sharpen my poetic skills, changing themes every other poem, or so.....

Not in pain, please don't worry. Writing from mind, and not to say I didn't ever feel like this. It touches me deeply, as well, when I re-read it.

Kacy,

You really made me laugh outloud. Only thing I'm trying to get curled this Sat. AM, is my hair and get out there and beat the snow storm coming in...

Guk! I hate driving in snow! Live in foothills of Sierra and these roads don't have little Ohio ditches, noooo,
these roads have 3-4 ft. ditches that gonna break my axle (sp?), and no way be able to drive out of them. And, no guard rails, either!

Thanks for your cute reply, emotional pain or not sounds like a relaxing thing to do.... smiles, Happy, Happy!

Hugs, Pat

..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons..
"Desiderata"

[This message has been edited by regards2you (12-21-2002 02:10 PM).]

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

11 posted 2002-12-21 02:12 PM

ok, I was doing fine today, until this...

how you can remind me of me...I dunno.

Good expressive write, pain we all have felt.

regards2you
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since 2002-10-01

Posts 3940
California

12 posted 2002-12-21 02:25 PM

Dixie,

Sorry, sweetie....I can write you, but the reality is, this IS me... It is in me and like I said when I read it, I feel it. Also, HE really does exist... I just don't cap on it. (much) smiling here...

We should both take Kacy's advice...
Hugs and love, Pat

..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons..
"Desiderata"

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