A Letter Of Desperation (To My Love)

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Temptress

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-06-15

Posts 7136
Mobile, AL

0 posted 2003-01-21 11:43 PM

One would think that I could sleep
and dream of you at night.
The way your body felt solid beside me
the last time you you were here.
But I can't even dream of you now
because my heart is tired
and my hope is drained again.
It leaves me lonely
knowing you're there and cold
and I can't warm you with my eyes.
And I don't care who listens to our song anymore
or who knows the way we've carried on.
The days have gripped me in their busy schedule again
and each minute I spend without you
I fear my hear falls further away
and I know
this is not what you wanted to hear.
I know this is not the state of mind
you hoped I would be in
when I could finally write again
but this is all I have right now.
One tired head needing your shoulder,
an exhuausted body needing yours to nurture it,
nerves frayed as if the an emotion shredder
had gone on a feeding frenzy.
Teeth clenched in frustration
each time I speak to you
because I know I have nothing positive to offer
in the way of how I feel
except to say that I love you
and how much longer can I hold to that thread?
How much longer can you watch me
failing in what we so valued.
My words are in a prison
and the two keys
my hope
my faith
have been melted in a wildfire of failure
and relentless wrath of self blame.
I am lost in the lost part of me
and I can't find true poetry
because my stability has been punched hard this time
bent
sputtering madly through salt stained moments.
I am unraveling before you
and not even your love can repair
these desolate moods
that ravage me
and leave my heart for dead.

~~I Love You~~

Mistletoe Angel

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since 2000-12-17

Posts 32816
Portland, Oregon

1 posted 2003-01-21 11:52 PM

(tears fall down my cheeks) Oh Jennifer, my heart goes out to you, sweet friend, I know this feeling ever so well and my Joanna was unable to fulfill my yearning and I hope that your love answers your call and consoles you! (big huggsssssss) I send angel hugs your way, sweet friend, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Jennifer, thnk you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

"Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..."

Shakira

A Tone of Voice
Member

since 2001-07-18

Posts 287

2 posted 2003-01-21 11:57 PM

wow, that was intense and felt....good job and btw I like the picture, of you~!

Atov~

~I envy those who have perfected the art of being~

~A Tone of Voice~

BluesSerenade
Member Patricius

since 2001-10-23

Posts 10549
By the Seaside

3 posted 2003-01-22 12:00 PM

I understand the overwhelming feelings you write of, really I do, but don't beat yourself up too hard. However cold the winter might be, the fish are still swimming in the sea....so throw him back and find yourself a new fishing hole.

Be well Temptress, and go easy on yourself.
It pains me to read and be reminded of the heartache I once felt. I only wish I could find the words to comfort you.

hugs~

Moonlight Romeo

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since 2001-09-10

Posts 982
The heart of you

4 posted 2003-01-22 08:16 AM

I am sure that he knows of your desperation, and that he feels desperate himself. I am also sure that he is thankful that you found words, no matter what they are. Love is more than a thread, it is a tie, and holds together more than you can imagine.

Thank you for these words, for I feel that my own heart echoes them.

What light through yon window breaks? It is the east, and Juliet is the sun.

Seymour Tabin
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since 1999-07-07

Posts 31720
Tamarac Fla

5 posted 2003-01-22 08:22 AM

Temptress
An elegant write although sad.

Nan

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Member Seraphic

since 1999-05-20

Posts 21191
Cape Cod Massachusetts USA

6 posted 2003-01-22 08:29 AM

Perhaps it's time to start planning another visit... The doldrums are sure to wane when you do... Your writing is wonderful, in any case...

bsquirrel

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-01-03

Posts 7855

7 posted 2003-01-22 11:43 AM

Love is a poison and a nectar, especially when apart....

I know how ya feel, Jen. I hope you and he can be together again soon.

Connel

Senior Member

since 2002-11-04

Posts 736
Florida, USA

8 posted 2003-01-22 11:44 AM

Good love poem... good topic also.. Thanks for sharing.

I wish to become a great poet some day, but it will only come in time. Til then, I shall write my poems, and wait.

nakdthoughts
Member Laureate

since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

9 posted 2003-01-22 11:48 AM

a wonderful write Jennifer..I could feel the pain and love in every phrase. I am sure many of us have felt this way before. You do have Hope and Faith and that feeling of failure comes in waves, but eventually it will disappear.

hugss
M

Enchantress
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since 2001-08-14

Posts 35113
Canada eh.

10 posted 2003-01-22 01:50 PM

Oh I remember this feeling Jenn.
Hang in there...let some time pass.
All will be well...this just aches!
~Warm Hugs~

~Time has cast a spell on you,
So you won't ever forget me~

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

11 posted 2003-01-24 01:45 AM

Nice writing...James

Brad Majors

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since 2001-04-03

Posts 2647
Georgia

12 posted 2003-01-31 01:01 PM

So beautiful. Its good to see a familiar face

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

13 posted 2003-01-31 01:12 PM

yeah...I understand this...I sleep at night but only have nightmares.

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