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I Never Will Understand
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I Never Will Understand |
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SmartChick Member Rara Avis
since 2001-09-23
Posts 7081On A Journey To The Unknown 
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~ By Sue ~ I never will understand How he could just walk out The way he did that day Without even a second thought After all he had said to me How could he just not care? After all that we had been through Promises that were made He just tossed them aside As if they did not mean anything Or even care how I might feel From all of the things he had done Now I sit here in this house all alone Just thinking back to all those days When things started going wrong And wonder what I could have done That might have made a difference This I will never even know Maybe, if he ever stops his drinking He might regret what he has done But, by then it will be too late He had his choice and he blew it Not caring how he made me feel Someday I will find a love that is true But for now I will enjoy my freedom And get my feet back on the ground Standing strong in my own belief That for now it is much better To live all by myself Collecting my thoughts once again 1-10-03 [This message has been edited by SmartChick (01-10-2003 10:34 PM).] |
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Miah Senior Member
since 2002-08-26
Posts 1062Pennsylvania |
I understand some of this pain.  You will find love again, one that is true and for only you.  |
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Andrew Scott Member Elite
since 1999-06-24
Posts 2558Redlands,CA,USA |
"But for now I will enjoy my freedom And get my feet back on the ground Standing strong in my own belief That for now it is much better To live all by myself Collecting my thoughts once again" Words to live by! Keep moving forward and best of luck in your new found freedom. |
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1slick_lady Member Ascendant
since 2000-12-22
Posts 6088standing on a shadow's lace |
you will be ok...i KNOW first hand...sounds trite but time does heal all...let it do it's work...helen |
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garysgirl  
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Sue, I'm glad to see you on here. I enjoyed your poem. I'm glad to see that you're having a positive outlook. Writing about it does help, doesn't it? Thank you, Sweetie, for sharing with us.....  "Love makes the world go around" |
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Paul Wilson
since 2002-07-07
Posts 4711United States |
Sue~ Touching write...Paul Don't ever doubt yourself for one second, because You have what it takes to get over this. "To share my poems with you is to share my heart with you" |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggsssssssss) I will never understand either, nevertheless it is most important to go on and forget trying to excavate the remnants! (sigh) This is powerful, sweet friend, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Sue, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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regards2you Member Elite
since 2002-10-01
Posts 3940California |
Glad to see you are gathering your thoughts and have found a way to move on. Alcoholics are very spiritually sick individuals and too often we blame ourselves, when in fact, has nothing to do with us...they numb themselves out to avoid feeling pain...sounds like he and his mother are hurting pretty badly....NOT YOUR FAULT...I am sorry for your grief and the hell you've been put through, and, are going through now...keep looking within yourself, you are a good, good person, and deserve much more than what life has dealt you...stay strong and may you continue to find strength and know peace soon. Being in the presence of one drinking and their personality changes is very difficult, but to have to have dealt with two....ugh! very hard, indeed.... Hugs and love and warm regards, Pat ..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.. |
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Nightshade
since 2001-08-31
Posts 13962just out of reach |
To live all by myself Collecting my thoughts once again Sue - dear lady, believe me, you WILL collect your thoughts, but, not all by yourself. You have start thinking "with myself." You are never really alone. Make friends with yourself and the rest will follow. I've been there. It gets better. Great write, hugs, Chris  "Hope" is the thing with feathers- |
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vandana
since 1999-10-22
Posts 10463USA |
my friend,enjoy your words |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
there is no real reason...and they never really stop, usually only get worse. It's in God's hands, always was, and maybe that's why He took that relationship away from you. Just wait, you will receive something better in its place. |
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NewEnglandlazurlu Member Rara Avis
since 2002-01-04
Posts 7470A Mountain Paradise |
"Now I sit here in this house all alone Just thinking back to all those days When things started going wrong And wonder what I could have done That might have made a difference..." I'd be willing to bet you could not have done anything. However, leaving him was definitely the right thing to do, despite how you are feeling. It will get better and always remember, HE is the loser, not you. Hugs and luvs, Marti |
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zenny Member
since 2002-11-24
Posts 371Belgium |
I know it's hard to live with an alcoholic, been there myself, hell still am there. Keep writing, it helps Many hugs *kelly* The greatest thing u'll ever learn |
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Wind
since 2002-10-12
Posts 2981 |
i lked that. You showed deep, and compassionate feelings here. Never be normal! |
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SmartChick Member Rara Avis
since 2001-09-23
Posts 7081On A Journey To The Unknown |
Thank you all for reading and replying. |
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*Stubby* Member
since 2002-09-19
Posts 122 |
so verynice J *S* |
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Bill Charles Member Patricius
since 2000-07-11
Posts 10619highways, & byways, for now |
SmartChick - Your writings become stronger and stronger with you. Sometimes the understanding why never shows itself. Hope you are well.. BC |
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