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Breaking Through (How I Got To Passions Challenge)
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Breaking Through (How I Got To Passions Challenge) |
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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
Breaking Through By: Noah Eaton 7/11/02 My story has not always been that happy So much I just want to forget that's so mopey So come back with me and you will be told The history of this Mistletoe Angel I have grown up in a rough suburb of Denver Where I have no friends and I can never befriend the neighbors I never wanted to take the school bus, I just walked No matter what the weather, I alone followed the sidewalks I went to this elementary school just 3/4 of a mile away I possessed an optimistic spirit when I attended my very first day But the result was so disasterous I just wanted to cry all day from all the unfair harassment  Because boys my own age would pick on me for being too "girl"ish Trying to be peaceful and proper, at the time thry thought it was ridiculous I was abused, chased around the playground, trying to hide I never wished to bring harm to anyone, I never wanted to fight I tried asking my teachers for help they could provide But they ignored my serious heartfelt cries I suppose they just didn't understand I possess a learning difference That I'm unique from many others, in a ways of learning preference It turned out I have a special condition called Aspergers Syndrome A high form of autism which makes me super-sensitive but socially numb I cried for months thinking something was wrong with me and I had a bad disease I continuously thought of dying because I felt no one would ever appreciate me  So after a while, I begged my mom to homeschool me She was the only one who made me feel comfortable and was there to help me While I was socially locked out from the rest of the world outside my window At least I found a refuge to recuperate my sorrows After two years my mom said "Hey, how'd you like to attend a private school?" She invited me on a tour to the Denver Academy downtown, I thought it was peaceful I still was nervous, but knew I had to start up again somewhere As I still wept every while concerned of the outcome of this verdictless life out there It happened that first day I was there, I met a man with a ponytail His name is Philippe Ernewein, who taught me English, literature, and beat poet tall tales Many days after school I shared my tears with him, and he told me of his life It ended up he too grew up in rough times but perservered with might You see, he grew up in Belgium, where he watched The Lone Ranger He dreamed of seeing cowboys for real, so he wanted to go to America to catch Billy the Kid and derringers He said his dad died of an overdose, so his mom wanted to embrace the Land of Opportunity Where she can find a new hopeful life just as he desired in evety heartbeat He couldn't speak English at first, he was always picked on everywhere he went It wasn't till he was twelve that he knew English and he started to feel respect He was saddened to see there were no cowboys or Indians still riding along Yet he told me of a tool he found that pushed his heart on He visited Chaco Canyon where he worked as a park supervisor Where the natives cooked for him and befirended him and got him inspired It turned out they wrote poetry, and he began to write and write and write Which he has been doing ever since, day and night  So he told me, "Hey, have you ever thought of writing out your feelings?" I said, "Sure, though I might not be good, can you please teach me?" So he has given me a special gift I will never forget Eventually, he even introduced me to the Internet At first I visited forums that tore up my work and spit me in the face Until one day came when I stumbled across this place It was a bright December Day, one week before Christmas If you ever questioned why I call myself Mistletoe Angel, well, I guess it was just because of the Christmas spirit For the first eight months I've been here, very few ever noticed me Whjen I was sharing all my sad thoughts and depression through poetry But last summer I got it all out and I've been writing mostly happy poetry All because of all you wonderful friends that I have made here in this coterie So this is the story of how I became a star here at Passions Yet I know my breakthrough is only just beginning, I just know it is For I have fallen in love with a beautiful girl here named Joanna, Passions RosePetal And maybe I may even have a happy future with my sweet Passions angel!  (Thank you all so much for being my friends, I am so happy and lucky to know you all and you will always be in my heart. I love you all so much! )"Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." Shakira [This message has been edited by Mistletoe Angel (07-11-2002 09:39 PM).] |
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1slick_lady Member Ascendant
since 2000-12-22
Posts 6088standing on a shadow's lace |
smoooooooooch |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Noah sweetie! What a sad tale this is but fortunately, one with a happy ending. Also lucky for us that you found this place and made it your home, as many of us have. Passions just wouldn't be the same without our Mistletoe Angel!! I appreciate you being here, and I know everyone else does as well. This must have been a difficult write for you...but very very well done! ~Big hugs to my sidekick!~  |
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catalinamoon
since 2000-06-03
Posts 9543The Shores of Alone |
Wow,Noah, what a story. I m so glad you are finding your happiness, and that you are sharing it here Hugs Sandra |
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the_loner_23 Member Ascendant
since 2002-06-08
Posts 5479Jacksonville, Florida, USA |
*kiss on the cheek* That was a truly wonderful piece of work here. Cold hands means a warm heart |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Thank you for sharing all of this with us, Noah. It makes life seem a little better, knowing you are where you belong... |
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ShadowRider Senior Member
since 2001-07-14
Posts 1038USA |
human experience is a mantle easily broken spirit is a bridle that is not easily wore the world, dear Noah, would be a much better place, if only they had both of yours caring is never a disease it is the cure, my friend. What a wonderful history you have, Noah, and let me say, here and now, amigo, I admire you! Very much! ~huuugg~ jeff [This message has been edited by ShadowRider (07-11-2002 09:55 PM).] |
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SmartChick Member Rara Avis
since 2001-09-23
Posts 7081On A Journey To The Unknown |
Noah, I am so glad you shared this with us. When I was growing up, I was picked on alot, too. I was one, who didn't like and wouldn't fight, either. Teachers can be just as cruel as kids are, sometimes. I am so glad you found your way to passions. Otherwise, I never would have known you. Your are a very kind and sensitive person. And, there is nothing wrong with that at all. Just keep on being yourself. Cause, we all love just the way you are. And, I know very well what it feels like to deal with depression. *HUGS* |
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Kitty** Member
since 1999-07-27
Posts 428Charlottesville,VA USA |
Noah, Guess what ? Love can overcome many things, and you are LOVED here ! Always know that! Hug and kisses to a *never say die* guy!! Kitty If you can't make it so, |
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devina Member Elite
since 1999-10-28
Posts 3539Cali |
I am sooo glad you were up to my challenge Noah!!! This place has healing properties that should be bottled!!! My little brother had much the same aspects...and I'm encouraging him as we speak...just let it out sweet poet...  take care you! Tanya Open arms can be the most fragile in the world... |
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Madame Chipmunk Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-05
Posts 8296Michigan |
Noah...thank you so much for sharing your sad but beautiful story with us. I always knew that you were very sensitive and that is one of the qualities that I love the most about you. You are such a very sweet young man, and I am so sorry that you had to go through so much pain before you got here.... but I am so glad that you are here and that you are a member of our family.  ~ many warm hugs from an older (much older) Passions sisterLyra |
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mycafe Senior Member
since 2002-05-23
Posts 584 |
Noah, your story touched me deeply. You've a wonderful soul and I can feel it from your words...Please continue to be our shining star and one-and-only Passion's Mistletoe Angel. *Hugs* mycafe Keep counting your blessings |
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Suetang Member Ascendant
since 2001-03-07
Posts 5187Melbourne, Australia |
Hello Noah Your light has always shone brightly on me and many others. You are an example to so many and you are one of the kindest souls I know. You welcomed me here with open arms and I feel sure you have read just about everything I put on here which totally humbles me every time. The story of your life was so very moving and brought tears to my eyes. I feel we are all indebted to your Belgium teacher who lead you towards writing poetry and look at you now. Your words have bloomed into a most beautiful bouquet for all of us to enjoy. Take care my friend.......Sue I am in motion |
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GoddessofHell Member
since 2002-07-09
Posts 76 |
Noah....you are the sweetest soul ....I have been reading your poems for along time now ( I was to shy to post until here recently) but I can tell you are very sensitive. This makes for a wonderful poet and a wonderful person. The dawn approaches and drowns out this night Sunshine pours over all in sight The past now slips further away As G_ds light creates the morning of day Enjoy your work very much! Heather |
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Duncan Member Ascendant
since 2001-08-07
Posts 5455 |
Hey Noah...you tell a damn good story! You wanna tell 'em about the mmmmmm sound or should I? |
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CocoBaci Member Elite
since 2000-05-06
Posts 3043 |
muahhhhhh on cheekz my dear dear Angel... You have brought sooooo many smiles2many of us here (moi included) and I'm elated at the chance2have come2know you and I wish you and sweetie Joanna all the best =) Hearthugs2u *~coco~* |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
thanks for the insight...and know you are loved here...no matter what  |
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Chanson Senior Member
since 2000-08-19
Posts 1559Up Creek w/Out Paddle |
And what a beautiful heart you possess! Keep on keeping on, dear Noah. *s When you think you have read it all, |
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Sunnyone Member Ascendant
since 2000-07-06
Posts 5334Staffordshire, England |
Noah... Now I feel like I know you as family, a brother, and I'm proud to be able to share the same love of poetry with you. I, too, had a similar childhood, as many of us here will admit to. But, from the moment I came here to Passions, I felt so much like I had come home. We're your family, and we love you, and wish you and your new love the very best. You have always brightened my heart when I've read your replies, and I hope this one does the same for you....  Open the door and let your adventure begin!!! |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
Noah, thanks so much for sharing your story with me. You did it so well. *HuGGLeS* Lynne Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind. Unknown |
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Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Noah I appreciate the honesty with which you wrote about your life. Isn't it wonderful how sometimes, just one special person can change your life around. You were lucky to find the mentor that you did. All things happen for a reason, I think. I'm so glad you are part of this family. You are very dear! |
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Music Maker Member
since 2002-07-07
Posts 152THE ORIGINAL !!!! |
Noah, Noah, Noah. I have never spoken to you before, but you have spoken to me many times as I have read your submissions over the last few months. It is now over 2 hours since I read your submission, I walked away from the computer in tears. You see - for 50 years, I have shut away a similar background in the dark recesses of my mind, and your words just brought it all back. I was a 'Mummys Boy', a bullied child, and my form Master (an ex-Serviceman), begged my parents not to let me go into the Armed Forces, as it would kill me. Now click on the little 'house' above this post, and see what I did!!! I hope this encourages you, and gives you inspiration. Kind Thoughts to you, Dear Friend. John Grass won't grow under feet that don't move. |
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NewEnglandlazurlu Member Rara Avis
since 2002-01-04
Posts 7470A Mountain Paradise |
Noah, you sweet, sweet thing. People can be so cruel and unkind, especially to kids they think are a little different. Thank goodness you hung in there. Your mom must be an angel and so proud of you and your poetry. I love reading what you write and each time I come to Passions, I know there will be messages at the end of everyone's poems, from our dear Noah. You encourage and say wonderful things to each and every one of us. We so appreciate it and love you dearly. My friend's son also has Asperger's Syndrome. He is such a little cutie and I pray he will find someone like your Mr. Ernewein to encourage him when he's older. Love you lots and keep writing and getting those feelings out. Hugs, Marti " My wrinkles are badges of courage and reveal that I am a Mother." |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
such a wonderful story, told in your own way, Noah..I, too, am told and know I am super sensitive to many stimuli..to some they will think I am hyperactive(especially when young but it wasn't heard of way back then..) I talk fast in real life so some people will tell me to calm down, take it easy as I always seem excited but it's just that I love life(usually) and can get a natural high from it. So I know what you mean...about being picked on..but the exception is I love people...all people....so I belonged to no groups fearing I would leave someone out. But I had friends all over because of that...and today when I run into them..they all remember me..in a kind way. Now I think I understand you and your poetry much better and I thank you for the gift of your words and hope that you do find the happiness you so deserve. hugsss M |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Thanks for sharing your interesting story Noah...James |
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Larry C
since 2001-09-10
Posts 10286United States |
Noah, Seemed like the tale of a castaway! Just more proof that you're a survivor. Glad you are here.  Show you care to those you love...today. |
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kaile
since 2000-02-06
Posts 5146singapore |
Noah, sorry to learn of your past but glad to know that you have persevered through your difficult times without compromising your values of kindness and sensitivity...you are an inspiration to lesser moi.. |
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Titia Geertman Member Ascendant
since 2001-05-07
Posts 5182Netherlands |
You're the sweetest Mistletoe Angel I've ever come across, I'm glad I may call you my friend Titia Like scattered leaves...my words will flow |
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Corinne Member Ascendant
since 1999-10-28
Posts 5167state of confusion |
Hi Noah, a heart-felt, bitter-sweet, honest self-portrait. It's wonderful that your Mom helped you get to that private school and that you finally found a great teacher who understood you. For a while, it was thought that my son had high functioning Aspergers, he's very bright but for a time, had a lot of trouble focusing (they also said he was depressed and ADD) and getting along with other kids at school. He cried almost daily at school - on the playground, when he felt things weren't going his way. The docs wanted to put him on drugs for the ADD and antidepressents for the depression, and also wanted to enroll him in a special program. I decided against medication, and made some major life changes to take some of the stress off of him. He's still highly dramatic and sometimes throws screaming fits, but he's gradually growing out of them. Last year (as a 5th grader) he was in the honor roll society for all semesters. It tears a mother's heart out to see her child having trouble making friends and learning to socialize with other kids. You have much to be thankful for. Peace, Cor |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
Thanks for sharing this Noah! I'm with you all the way! You're an excellent writer! |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
You write so many wonderful poems, it's hard to choose a favorite... but this is one. *S* I know it was hard to write... but there is beauty in such honesty. *S* It was a lucky day for us when you found PIP. *S* |
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Neeraja Senior Member
since 2002-06-22
Posts 812The Netherlands |
What a very touching story Noah, and I admire your courage to write it down to share this with us... Thank you so much Noah! You are such a pure soul...  Neeraja |
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BloomingRose Member Elite
since 2000-08-09
Posts 3092Florida |
Noah, Always remember that you are loved. You've been a spark of sunshine to all who have come to know you! The dedication and love you give to everyone in your generous replies is unsurpassed. So glad you found Passion's, and I hope you stay for a very long time! Hugs, Deb |
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Charisma
since 2000-09-30
Posts 5906lost in blue pages |
nah do you realize what you've done to me now.....yep you got me, *wiping my teary eyes*, and I am so glad you found this place, and being an angel among these blue pages. May love always lighten your path dear friend (((warm hugsssss))) Charisma |
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