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Denial
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia 
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I am just numb, not dumb. But if I should appear to walk the roadways with my head hung low, looking as if my heart had just been kicked into the dirt, perhaps it's because it was? ...and my feet just haven't yet come to a full stop even though only the shell of me follows the pathway faithfully, step-by-step, in Denial. It sits upon my shoulder like those 50 pound bags of barley I used to carry into the pig yard, climbing over the hurdles my sister called fences, jumping through the hoops of daily existence, sunrise to sunset, oblivious of the clock hands that pushed themselves forever forward whether I was ready to move or not, from Denial. It weighs me down, forces me to gravitate to another realm when I'm only wanting to hold onto the terra firma a bit longer, wondering why the ground trembles with each step, no matter how carefully I place my feet, no matter the beat of Denial. that enables me to refuse to see the reality. Refusal to accept as truth ...you were just a passionate dream, a poetic fantasy painted in blue. And I have been lost in Denial and only Vincent knew. |
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wranx Member Elite
since 2002-06-07
Posts 3689Moved from a shack to a barn |
More Van Gogh, Kacy? Stippled. "It weighs me down, forces me to gravitate to another realm when I'm only wanting to hold onto the terra firma a bit longer, wondering why the ground trembles with each step, no matter how carefully I place my feet, no matter the beat of Denial." |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
He knows many secrets, is there with a compassionate ear, his lips are sealed, yet he says so much. [This message has been edited by Midnitesun (03-26-2003 06:29 PM).] |
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MARK V SHELDON Member Elite
since 2001-06-21
Posts 3015In a corporeal internship... |
Kacy, for some reason these lyrics come to mind from a rather famous alternative band by the name of Nirvana: --------------------------------------- With the lights out it's less dangerous Here we are now Entertain us I feel stupid and contagious Here we are now Entertain us A mulatto An albino A mosquito My Libido Yeah, a denial A denial A denial... ---------------- ...for what it's worth... (But I enjoyed this write and can relate to the emotions...) -MVS You CAN make a difference: |
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catalinamoon
since 2000-06-03
Posts 9543The Shores of Alone |
Kacy, this hurts with the reading. I understand. Sandra |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Yes, I've heard that song. Thanks for sharing it. Sandra, I know by your writes that you do. Sorry for the emotional reminder. But maybe it's a little bit cathartic? |
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wranx Member Elite
since 2002-06-07
Posts 3689Moved from a shack to a barn |
And in that....there is poetry. Beautiful! |
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Sunshine
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Kacy...you did it again! |
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vandana
since 1999-10-22
Posts 10463USA |
enjoyed  |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Ed, thanking you, always, for listening to this heartbeat Karilea, thank you for that reply! This one came straight from my muse, free flow style. |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
Kacy - did you know . . . I have this friend of mine who likes to sneak up on me once in a while - usually when I'm not lookin' . . . hmmm cant seem to remember the name . . . but man - you sure do . . . felt this one - like a rock in my throat . . . always coming out punching you do . . . xxoo [This message has been edited by littlewing (03-26-2003 11:06 PM).] |
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Albert J. Allie Senior Member
since 2003-02-13
Posts 512Queens NY |
Beuatiful!!!  |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Vandana, hello, and thanks. Sue, I'm sorry if this rings a bell, but we can find much healing by letting these things go, and this poem helped me let go (at least a little bit) or should I say let gogh? Albert, thanks for taking a moment to read and reply! |
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Elizabeth Santos Member Rara Avis
since 1999-11-08
Posts 9269Pennsylvania |
Regardless the circumstances, you have produced a wonderful piece of poetry, and in that I find joy. Your muse lies within yourself it's called talent Very well written Liz |
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ctowen Member Elite
since 2001-10-18
Posts 2286Green Mountains of VT |
Both you and your muse did a fantastic job .... if I was to guess, as a child you enjoyed finger painting ... masterpiece, one after another ... ... no denying!! |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Yes, Kacy...you do have talent..... to write what you think and feel. Hugs, Ethel |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Liz, thank you, poet friend! It makes my day to see such replies. Craig, smiling here at that reply.  Yes, and the chalkboard was always covered too!Ethel, thank you for your visit my friend! |
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GG Member Elite
since 2002-12-03
Posts 3532Lost in thought |
afraid I understand the most of this a bit.. too well. I like it alot.. might see you some day out out on the roadways walking too, then!  Always, Alyssa - And so it was that time stood still - (blink, breathe, stand, fight) [This message has been edited by GG (03-28-2003 12:32 AM).] |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Alyssa, sure hope one of us is walking with head up, and not in denial. Thanks for your reply. |
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kaile
since 2000-02-06
Posts 5146singapore |
one of your best writes...i expected this to be about the war and was getting progressively worried the more i read and was kinda relieved to find out this isn't...at least, letting go of a past love is within our control? |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Thanks kaile. Not to worry, only partly relating to my own experiences, mostly it's just a general write about letting go. I do have a relative in Iraq right now though, and I am concerned for his safety.  |
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Duncan Member Ascendant
since 2001-08-07
Posts 5455 |
'that enables me to refuse to see the reality. Refusal to accept as truth ...you were just a passionate dream, a poetic fantasy painted in blue. And I have been lost in Denial and only Vincent knew.' And maybe Theo... |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Duncan, LOL, you think so? |
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bsfradera New Member
since 2003-02-20
Posts 5 |
Hola Kacy, When we can no longer deny the "undeniable" denial, it is a great moment of truth and relief, even if it is unpleasant. Woman, thank you for removing the cobwebs in my mind! I NEEDED THIS!! Blanca [This message has been edited by bsfradera (03-29-2003 10:10 AM).] |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Hola in return, Blanca y Monzy!  I had no idea you stored cobwebs. Happy to have helped clean the home. Check your email, amiga. |
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