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Forever memories. |
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Aya Junior Member
since 2003-03-25
Posts 42New Zealand |
This poem is dedicated to a friend of mine, we were friends, lovers and well now were back to being friends, yet the friendship is nearly over with. Yet thats another poem that i havent written yet. This poem is our friend/relationship wraped up in a poem i dont know what its like to other peole since you guys will be the first ones to read it. I hope its ok. At first when we meet, we flirted Thinking that it was all in great fun You and I never thought much of it Yet in my heart I knew you were the one I dont know how it happened I dont seem to quite understand I thought about how much you meant to me And that loving you was nothing that I planned We made a brand new friendship That was made out of scratch We started getting to know each other But then a fight broke out and I realised I wasnt any match Your friends who I thought that you listened to Made me give up faith and hope Of ever gaining your love that I have always wanted My heart just couldnt cope I tried to ignore my feelings for you I pushed them away from my heart I started to date other people Getting stressed because we were apart I moved on thinking that you were mad at me Because what had happened between me and your friends I made myself deny our friendship The silence between us had to come to an end So I wrote you out an apology And sent it to you straight away I wanted us to start talking again And I felt that this would be the only way I never knew what you would say I didnt know what you would do I half expected you to say go to hell And that I should once again never talk to you But you never did say that You wanted this stupid war to end You and I wanted us to talk again Trust in you was what was about to impend We were a bit distant towards each other Yet we picked up where we left without a doubt in mind We started talking again which made me happy Before the war it was hard to see that you were so kind You treated me like a person, Which I had never had happened before You were there when I had friend and guy troubles And yet in my heart I wanted you and I to be more And then one summers night I Wanted to just give up on you You were being awkward around me I thought of shutting you out of my life since I just never knew You then muttered the words I thought you would not speak The words that I had been wanting to read for ever You said to me that you loved me I couldn?t believe that I nearly gave up on you forever That night I couldnt help it I cried so much I couldnt stop You finally told me that you loved me Yet things had to planed so that we could not been seen You planed it out so perfectly You went out of your way to cover You did everything in your heart for me And yet a darkness was soon uncovered You told me not to tell anyone Or else we couldnt be together You told me to promise you once and for all That my big mouth would stay closed forever I never listened to you I never did obey I never kept my word to you And giving you up was the wost day I stuffed up my happiness I stuffed up yours and Jess's friendship I stuffed up all of everything that you had given me And I cant help but hate myself still for being a drip I muttered the words its over I said to you that we had to part I made this all my fault Because I didnt keep my promise I made to you from the start I now still feel so horrible That I lied to you in such a way I had my dreams come true for once And yet I just threw it all away I cant help but apologise And say that I was such a bitch I want to make it up to you Yet I know that we will never be together again...yet I can only wish I now have to see you Date Amanda the girl that I love to hate I cant stand seeing you with her With tears that fall from my eyes I am calling her a mate I hurt so much to see you with her Yet I know that it is my fault I wanted to be with you for a while I now have to stand by and watch like an adult I break down and cry when I hear about you and her I cant hold it back no more I want to tell you how much I?m sorry How much I want to try once more But I know that it will never happen And so I have made myself move on Yet in my heart I cant stop loving you I cant help but cry and realise you are gone Hunter you mean so much to me You deserve the moon and stars You are with someone a lot better and prettier then I And I know that my heart will heal of these scares You have come into my life And that I can never regret I am glad that we have had this time together Im glade that by chance we did meet Youre a friend that I have grown to love Youre a friend that I hold so near My heart will forever have a place for you And forever I will care Its been a hard road for us But our friendship has proven strong once more I have caused you a lot of stress And for that Im eternally sorry from my heart to yours. Happy Valentines day my love I know its not the same As getting it wished upon you by your first love I just hope your at least happy today. [This message has been edited by Aya (03-25-2003 05:36 AM).] |
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regards2you Member Elite
since 2002-10-01
Posts 3940California |
Aya, Welcome to Passions. You know writing out heartache, poetically, has always helped me. Hope you are felling better by now. Warm hugs to you, Pat  ..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.. |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Welcome to Passions, Aya! I hope you come to find that writing allows for much growth, in several ways...Sit back, read, enjoy, and know you're in a good place! |
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Justbleu Member Elite
since 1999-08-31
Posts 3329Oregon, Originally From Alaska :) |
WELCOME TO PASSIONS AYA!!!!!! You write beautifully!!!! I might be misunderstanding but, if someone loves you why would you not be able to tell anyone??? Hope to see more from you!!!! Bridgette  "Somewhere, somehow, it should be possible to touch someone and never let go again. To hold someone, not for a moment but forever." Unknown |
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KoKo Senior Member
since 2003-02-15
Posts 995Inside the shadow's shadow |
 Aaaaaw Welcome to Passions Aya!!  I think you'll like it here. These are absolutely wonderful people and I'm sure you'll feel at home right away.Can't wait to read more of your work!!! You have so much promise in you, I can tell just from reading your first post, which is a great one at that!!!  Once again, welcome to Passions!!!! I'll be looking for more of your peices!! I do not know whether I was then a man dreaming I was a butterfly, or whether I am now a butterfly dreaming I am a man. |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
WELCOME TO PASSIONS! Much enjoyed your first post! I look forward to seeing more of your work. ~Smiles & Hugs, Nancy~ ~Somewhere in my heart I'm always |
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Nightshade 
since 2001-08-31
Posts 13962just out of reach |
 Enjoyed your first post!! Have fun here! Chris |
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Aya Junior Member
since 2003-03-25
Posts 42New Zealand |
Thank you guys for such a warm welcome, i have been wanting to post here for a while and i just didnt think anything was great enough. I dont know if it's like that for all people, but i myself go through the whole "this poem is nothing but rubish, and no-one will like it" stage every time i write a poem. So it does make you want to not post your poetry on any site, but this site has been a fave poetry site for a while and i thought i would finally give it a try, i dont have anything to lose, so why not. And Justbleu I couldnt just tell him because he is the type of male that isnt the "mushy" type of guys, so instead of a response of some snide male remark or something else around that remark this guy just has an "ok" and then moves onto the next subject and yes hes like that with 9/10 of the things he says. Hes a complex person, what i saw in him is beyond me since he doesnt like animals and i do, he doesnt...well....doesnt like much of anything i love and so as i said, what i saw in him is beyond me since he doesnt like getting attatched to a person. So telling this guy you love him is like telling a fish you love it, you get no reply or some stupid reply. But i do thank you for the warm welcome once more, its great to be welcomed when your a new comer to this site. [This message has been edited by Aya (03-25-2003 11:01 AM).] |
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Jeffrey Carter
since 2000-04-08
Posts 2367State of constant confusion! |
Welcome to Passions, I know for me this place helped tremendously when I was at my lowest point in life. I think you will find here the most wonderfully creative and caring people. I enjoyed your poem it brought back a lot of memories bot glad and sad. Jeff |
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MARK V SHELDON Member Elite
since 2001-06-21
Posts 3015In a corporeal internship... |
Everyone needs some support once in a while, whether they admit to it or not. You've come to the right place. I hope the lessons were gentle ones in retrospect... -MVS You CAN make a difference: |
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pearl6884 Member
since 2003-03-23
Posts 72California coast |
Good first post. Thanks for sharing! *applause* *To see the world in a grain of sand, and heaven in a wild flower...Hold infinity in the palm of your hand and eternity in an hour...* |
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Aya Junior Member
since 2003-03-25
Posts 42New Zealand |
Im working on another peice now, i have no idea how its going to turn out but i promise you guys will be the first to see it when its done. i write through emotions not because im bored and the poem im working on now it meant to be don through sadness and well its not going that way so i hope it turns out all right. [This message has been edited by Aya (03-26-2003 12:57 AM).] |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
Aya - Welcome to PIP! Looks like you have the heart - I can feel it - be good to yourself - life throws us twists and turns and sadly this kind of twist happens more often we would like . . . lot sof emotion here - keep writing - you will learn a lot and make great friends . . . xxoo |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
  (big hugggssssssss) Oh Alicia, while I'm sorry to hear of the conflict as of recently, I'm glad you will always cherish these special memories, I know this feeling all to well because on New Years Day the girl I loved named Joanna confessed she never loved me and had a secret from me for 8 months she loved someone else and now we never talk again, this is a heartfelt debut, I love it! Welcome to Passions, sweet Alicia, may you be inspired by all of us here as we will all be inspired by your lovely words! I can't wait to read more of your lovely words, sweet friend, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Alicia, thank you for sharing!  May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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Little_One Junior Member
since 2003-03-16
Posts 34montana |
Nice writing....I loved it |
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MissKlarmic Member
since 2003-02-20
Posts 70Canada,N.S |
nice write very nice indeed |
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Aya Junior Member
since 2003-03-25
Posts 42New Zealand |
Thank you for the comment, its appreciated. |
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