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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738
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It is already day-old news bundling yesterday's feed-- she wonders if she had a heavy hand with the oregano and wraps it up too carefully-- (I think that she should feed the rats) looking sideways at the buttons numbering the hand of god and allows diminishing without the nod of snoring God. At least tonight his shoes are off-- she moves them so that he won't trip. It's not a moment of concern-- but expedient. He could fall-- lay there all night-- and god-forbid he bleed to death. He could yanno. Just like Scott did. Scott created avalanche and I will never find remiss within my mind--signing the book-- his family thanked me, just for the show. "We thought that no one would be here." I bit my tongue and said nothing, but thought, "you didn't know your son..." and wept his bitterness. Yesterday is balled up twine and knots are waiting gentle toss-- fingers spread in understand-- Don't look. Don't ask. no question cost... This is all familiar. This path we walk through open door. Dark suits grim of understand, hand on shoulder (pay-me-more) for the grief of mystery-- for this language of obscene nervous laughter and coffee (and don't forget the doughnut holes...) I walked a bit to get away and found another in a room. It is there that I let loose and allowed myself to weep. Perfect death of mannequin-- melting life of disbelief-- no it does not hit you then, and there is no gift of speech. Days of living to forget enough of humdrum to believe, I think I'll call my brother now and even dialing up the phone-- "Did you see the news today?" astonished that I had forgot. How could I forget his death? Ashamed to live when he had not-- wishing I could see his hands cradling the guitar neck his voice cracking in the highs, begging me to take "the rest" asking me if I'd seen yet the latest on the news... As I sit here, burping beer, knowing people will not stop dying, just to suit my needs, knowing that a spinning top slows to show the hypnosis of a spiral, losing paint... [This message has been edited by serenity blaze (03-13-2003 04:34 AM).] |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
K - I walked a bit to get away and found another in a room. It is there that I let loose and allowed myself to weep. Perfect death of mannequin-- melting life of disbelief-- no it does not hit you then, and there is no gift of speech I sit here and the salt upon my lips for my pain . . . your words - your pain - become mine You have touched me deeply this morning and have beared your soul like I have not seen, my friend - I was holding your hand through every line . . . and somehow - I knew you held mine xxoo |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
sue?  Thank you... |
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GG Member Elite
since 2002-12-03
Posts 3532Lost in thought |
ohh  I don't know what to say... but I felt this.. I'm not sure if I wanted to though, it hurts.. you must hurt so much... *sigh* ..I think its always still news though, when its something like death.. it hurts just as much everytime the mind ponders, realises, it.. I still don't know what to do but sigh.And.. Always, Alyssa - And so it was that time stood still - |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
Karen? Your most welcome . . . heh - lol |
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Sunshine
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Once again...thanks for letting me sit through this with you... |
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KristieSue
since 2003-01-31
Posts 1460PA, US |
as I attend a funeral today, that is quite appropriate... Hope everything is alright.... KS |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Okay if I sit here with you? Hugs K. Hope you're okay....Nancy. ~ Trace my body with your words.. |
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Miah Senior Member
since 2002-08-26
Posts 1062Pennsylvania |
Oh Serenity. I can't see my screen through my own tears.  You have this knack of bring the reader into your mind and heart by just your words. |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
serenity--You know I walk with you so many times, hearts entwined.  |
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Aenimal Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-18
Posts 7350the ass-end of space |
Hey beautiful? You didn't forget his death you remembered his life and a person who's energy was so strong you still feel him there. hugs |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Hey...thank you all...and most days, I'm okay...but I was thinking that how crazy it is, and I know many of you know this all too well. It just seems unreal at times that I can't just pick up the phone and talk to him, or hop in the car and go have a beer (and an argument--smile) with him, and even surrounded by his books and guitars, etc. I can still forget that, and I go to pick up the phone to share something that I'd just read or heard--and it's those times that stun me the most I think...and whew...exhale. That's what inspired this one. shaking my head...I'll just shaddup and say thank you now. |
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vandana
since 1999-10-22
Posts 10463USA |
enjoyed  |
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Paul Wilson
since 2002-07-07
Posts 4711United States |
Serenity~ Touching words from your heart. Thanks for sharing...Paul "To share my poems with you is to share my heart with you" |
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Bill Charles Member Patricius
since 2000-07-11
Posts 10619highways, & byways, for now |
serenity - your words always touch me, best to you, witch of the cypress... BC |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
knowing people will not stop dying, just to suit my needs, knowing that a spinning top slows to show the hypnosis of a spiral, losing paint... Oh, wow... this one just hurts right into the core of me... big hugs and understanding. |
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wranx Member Elite
since 2002-06-07
Posts 3689Moved from a shack to a barn |
My first thought was, "you gotta stop doin' this." But? t'was wrong. You know it must be done this way. You heal here, within this. You heal me here, in the reading. ~yeti |
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Pilgrimage Member Elite
since 2001-12-04
Posts 3945Texas, USA |
Sometimes I think, Jim would love that book! But, then I remember that Jim's been gone since 95 and it's too late. I know this poem. Well done. Nan (Pilgrim variety) |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Yes, K, I certainly can relate to this. Thank you for sharing your heart with us. Heart Hugs, Ethel |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Many hugs are due...I thank you all. And funny, I just read this again, and thought "it isn't finished." I was gonna try to wrap it all up neatly then, but then? decided "no" because, it's kinda perfect, left, unfinished...life and death are just like that. more hugs? oh yes..MORE. love to all...I'm gonna go back to the garden now. |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggssssssss) Oh Karen, I'm so sorry to hear the communication is going rough, sweet friend, I hope soon more contact can be made and all will be hunky-dory again! (sad sigh) I send angel hugs your way, sweet friend, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Karen, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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