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inkedgoddess
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-11-19

Posts 7392
Ohio

0 posted 2003-03-04 10:34 PM

surrounded by them all,
she wants to turn off the noise,
become numb,
their voices hammering,
her head spinning with family matters,

dinner talk,chitter, chatter,
like shrieking tires,
stopping short of totaling her private space,
violating her remaining sanity,
she just wants to withdraw and dream,
and scream,
to be left alone,
for really nothing that they've done,
at that particular moment at all,

more and more she relates
to the world of
Sylvia, the name her son
sometimes likes to call her,
seeing her lost in the basement,
typing away, hours and hours after dinnertime,

she sneeks in more wine,
making sure to see that they're not watching her
with wondering eyes,
as to why, as of late,
the increase in the nightly sauce,

if only to get out of here for a while
her performance over for the day,
figure out a way,
to slip away,
when they're all asleep,
leave this cumbersome, strange now place,
fly to vegas, run to him for a while,
then she stops herself,and wonders, will he even be there for her at all,
when she really needs him even more than ever now,

maybe she'll just take the redeye flight of mind,
instead,
lose herself in the salvation of her imagination,
her faithful childhood saving grace,

on this winter night,
of piercing cold, barren streets, vacant sound,
she yearns to remove herself from the warmth of home,
to just sit crossedlegged and stare out,
finding forever, now,
on her blessed beach,where she always finds home,
sit on beaten rocks, numbed and softened,
by waters forgiving touch,

to sit in silence all alone,
would be the sweetest sound
on her torn apart soul right now

[This message has been edited by inkedgoddess (03-04-2003 10:50 PM).]

GG
Member Elite

since 2002-12-03

Posts 3532
Lost in thought

1 posted 2003-03-04 10:46 PM

ouchh can feel this one. I can see it too, you described it so well, and so beautifully.
That dinnertable talk and sting can be the worst thing even imaginable. The beginning reminded me of holidays here, 'cause we bring in the uncomortable tear-you-up-with-deep-small-words kind of family.
I hope that you can get away for awhile to some quiet, I'm sure you deserve a vacation. Love this write.

Always, Alyssa

- And so it was that time stood still -
(blink, breathe, stand, fight)

BluesSerenade
Member Patricius

since 2001-10-23

Posts 10549
By the Seaside

2 posted 2003-03-04 11:03 PM

Write my book little sister, for you are worthy of the top billing in my acknowledgments.

I would like to thank Michele for her honest thoughts and the clarity she brings to my story.

damn!

garysgirl

Member Laureate

since 2002-09-29

Posts 19237
Florida, USA

3 posted 2003-03-04 11:15 PM

Very well written and real, Michele. I'm sure many people relate to this...I did for a very, very very long time.

If this is about you, I hope that you can have some quiet time alone or with whoever you want to be with.

Heart Hugs

Ethel

regards2you
Member Elite

since 2002-10-01

Posts 3940
California

4 posted 2003-03-04 11:17 PM

Michele,

I know two women who would swear you wrote this just for them.

I really enjoyed these thoughts:

"The redeye flight of mind"

"Her performance over for the day"

"Finding forever"

"Water's forgiving touch"

You did so well with this. Can feel the anguish and boredom and sense of loss of self.

Enjoyed greatly, Hugs, Pat

..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons..
"Desiderata"

Midnitesun

Member Empyrean

since 2001-05-18

Posts 28647
Gaia

5 posted 2003-03-04 11:23 PM

Outstanding! I'm saving this one, as it rings so true for so many parents who are unable to find a moment of quiet personal space.
I used to sit on the jetty and watch the seagulls. Now, in the city, I'm lucky to have found apark full of ducks and geese, with the Rocky mountains in the background.

Wishing you a peaceful corner...
and maybe light a lavendar candle?

BluesSerenade
Member Patricius

since 2001-10-23

Posts 10549
By the Seaside

6 posted 2003-03-04 11:42 PM

Did you know your email address has fatal errors? Darnit all!

majnu

Senior Member

since 2002-10-13

Posts 1088
SF Bay Area

7 posted 2003-03-05 12:23 PM

amazingly honest - like a punch in the gut. nice write.

-majnu
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Timid thoughts be not afraid. I am a Poet.

Jason Lyle
Senior Member

since 2003-02-07

Posts 1438
With my darkling

8 posted 2003-03-05 01:55 AM

Silence is my favorite sound.I really liked this one.
Jason

littlewing
Member Rara Avis

since 2003-03-02

Posts 9655
New York

9 posted 2003-03-05 02:30 AM

I know where your at - my heart stopped a bit there - yet in that darkness of night that alone sometimes - isnt all it is cracked up to be - xxoo

Phantom Poet
Member

since 2003-03-03

Posts 116
Arizona USA

10 posted 2003-03-05 02:32 AM

nicely written
>>phantom poet<<

passing shadows
Member Empyrean

since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

11 posted 2003-03-05 02:46 AM

as always, I relate.

Ringo

Member Elite

since 2003-02-20

Posts 3684
Saluting with misty eyes

12 posted 2003-03-05 02:56 AM

Very well written...
"maybe she'll just take the redeye flight of mind,
instead,"

"finding forever, now"

Very visual.

inkedgoddess
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-11-19

Posts 7392
Ohio

13 posted 2003-03-05 06:36 AM

blues, try again,

or ill find you, otherwise,
thanks everyone for your releveant thoughts

Aenimal
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-11-18

Posts 7350
the ass-end of space

14 posted 2003-03-05 12:33 PM

earphones,locked door,smash the lightbulb, album of choice

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