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mom i just cant tell you
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mom i just cant tell you |
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Mackenzie New Member
since 2000-05-04
Posts 8 |
Hi all...just a quick note... i have been gone from passions for a long time but i have come back...i was raped about 8 months ago, and afterwards my life just fell apart...i became very depressed and i stoped wrighting..but i am getting my life back together now and i wrote this poem...hope you like it  Mom I Just Can’t Tell You Mom it was awful, This thing I can’t undo. Mom I am sorry, But I just can’t tell you. Mom believe me You do not want to know. Mom please understand It’s so hard to let it go. Mom I just can’t tell you The way he made me feel. Mom I wish it were a dream, But the flashbacks are so real. Mom believe that night Was just so black and dark. Mom look what he did, Look at my back; this mark. Mom it was eight months ago, Why can’t I just move on? Mom somehow I can’t forget Even though it’s been so long. Mom he just didn't listen There was nothing I could do. Mom, Oh please believe me, I swear I didn't want him to. Mom could you please fix this, Life should not be this way. Mom his face still haunts me, And suffocates me each day. Mom I know you love me, That’s why you just can’t know. Mom I just don't want to see The pain your eyes would show. |
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rkcraig Member
since 2003-02-27
Posts 202Cincinnati, Ohio, USA |
welcome back. I'm new here, it's only my second day. But I'm sure that everyone is glad to have you back and they will always be here for you. |
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the_loner_23 Member Ascendant
since 2002-06-08
Posts 5479Jacksonville, Florida, USA |
This is an awesome poem Cold hands means a warm heart |
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Dark Kisses Member
since 2001-06-24
Posts 364Flat lands of Kansas |
Wow! (I am typeless here, odd eh?) Anywho.... very nicely written. I sure hope everything goes well for you and that you can soon overcome this tragedy. Writings like this, might help. Good luck and my prayers are with you. Mags A friend, like a candle, is most needed in the darkness. |
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SmartChick Member Rara Avis
since 2001-09-23
Posts 7081On A Journey To The Unknown |
I am so sorry you had to go through such a horrible thing. Believe me when I tell you, I fully understand what you are going through. It is indeed a horrible thing. I really hope you are doing okay. And, I hope the guy who did that to you was caught and had to pay. |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
What happened to you is not your fault. It's a cowardly deed, one that should not go unpunished. I want you to know I understand your reluctance to reveal this pain to your mom, as I went through this myself so many many years ago and was unable to discuss it with my mother. If you two are close though, and have an element of trust between you, it would probably break her heart more to know you are carrying such a burden without her loving help. Hearthugs to you, it's never an easy subject to talk about. |
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aries_luv_ppl Senior Member
since 2001-09-20
Posts 1448Universal Mind |
I meant it when I say...I know how you feel. ~Every girl has a dream within. [This message has been edited by aries_luv_ppl (03-01-2003 09:16 PM).] |
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garysgirl 
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Mackenzie, I can't describe to you how very much your poem touched my heart. My daughter went through this same thing, and she finds it very hard to talk to anyone about it. It happened a lot of years ago and she is now going to a therapist. The one who hurt her so badly was someone she trusted very much. Speaking from a Mother's point of view, I know that if you are hurting inside, so is your Mother. May God bless you and may your writing bring forth healing.... Heart Hugs, Ethel |
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Kellie_Cantrell Senior Member
since 2002-05-22
Posts 1667New York |
Very Very Good writing. I am very very sorry you had to go through that. I know how you feel! God Bless and Be Strong! (¨`·.·´¨) (¨`·.·´¨) |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (tears fall down my cheeks) There are no words to describe the pain I know from such a crime, my dear cousin too was usurped when she was twelve and ever since she has been suffering and I always do the best I can to console her though I know I will never understand all her pain and it is all up to her! (wipes tears) God Bless You, sweet friend, I send many angel hugs your way and I bessech you, please let your loved ones help you, from someone who has a loved one so dear hurt by this I am serious, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet friend, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
my heart is with you...we are all behind you here  |
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Skyfire
since 2000-12-27
Posts 3381Riding |
Mackenzie... It took me 19 years to be able to talk about what happened to me. *big hugs* You have my deepest sympathy and empathy. I know that it seems empty, and it doesn't really help, but there are people out there who have faced the same thing. You don't have to go through this alone at all. Keep writing about it, honey... if you can't talk about it, then writing might help *big hugs* |
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KristieSue
since 2003-01-31
Posts 1460PA, US |
Not too long ago I was raped twice by two different people. One I thought I could trust with my life, and the other I considered to be a friend. It took me months to tell ANYONE, and over a year to tell my family. Now, I talk openly about it. If you haven't told your mom yet, it will help, trust me. My mom and I don't even have a good relationship and it helped me to tell her...Writing helps a lot...and you express your emotions clearly... if ya need to talk, my address is here... HUGS....and welcome back :-) KS [This message has been edited by KristieSue (03-02-2003 04:38 PM).] |
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hoot_owl_rn Member Patricius
since 1999-07-05
Posts 10750Glen Hope, PA USA |
I feel for your pain, but believe me, as a mom myself, she'd want to know and would help you through this. Please do not hold this all inside and try to deal with it yourself, I know, it can eat you alive. Reach out to someone outside of here like you've reached out to all of us. God Bless, Ruth |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Such a heart-wrenching write... Just grabs you and doesn't let go... ~Hugs~ ~ I've loved you forever, in lifetimes before ~ |
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wandering glider Senior Member
since 2001-04-04
Posts 501aloft |
Sharing your story here is a step in the right direction. I hope the healing continues for you. Keep writing. w.g. |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
You truly are healing and on the mend, or you would not have been able to write so well about such a traumatizing event in your life. I commend you for you opening up and bearing your soul--and for doing so in such an eloquent manner. Love & Light---& extra warm loving hugs, Earth Angel |
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WhiteRose Member Elite
since 2002-07-23
Posts 3208somebody's dungeon |
I too am at a loss for words. If you ever need to just talk to someone who has been through what you have, please, feel free to write to me. What happened to you is criminal and I know what can happen to your thoughts, to your life, to your "self" in the aftermath of rape. My thoughts and prayers are with you. |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
Mackenzie - this is something so many feel yet are not even brave enough to breech it like you have here = for us - bared your soul - a strong soul at that - peace to you xxoo |
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