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nakdthoughts
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Between the Lines

0 posted 2002-02-26 08:41 PM

Thoughts for a Wynters Eve (reworked)

Sometimes, I see you on here.
My eyes light up, a smile forms
at the corners of my lips.
I wonder, just what is it
you have over me.
What hold
that clears my mind,
allows happiness to enter
even if ever so briefly.

For when words, you then type,
ease into my thoughts
and they say solitude, aloneness,
indefinitely, perhaps, maybe,
when I think more along the lines
of fulfillment, togetherness,
closeness, forever and always,
an upheaval occurs.

Inside, the churning begins.
What was once smooth and calm
and colored swirls of sweetness,
becomes hardened, blurred,
roaring moments of doubts.

For I, too,
understand solitude,
the need to be alone.

I move between a sunny,
warm room to comfort me
or a cooler, darkened room
to fit the mood
and another complete floor,
to achieve creative outlets in.

I've had my solitude
for over three years.
My other life before that,
so busy, entwined with others,
that I never noticed
when a day went by.

Now, I not only notice,
but the hours are so slow,
as I sleep more and more
of them away, because
this emptiness is haunting,
shadows me everywhere,
trips me on the stairs,
bumps into me around corners,
wraps me tight in quilts at night,
so not one breeze of a cool thought
can find its way
between the layers of covering,
to bruise me with touch.

I awaken to the softness
of a purring voice
or the tapping of her
against my cheek
wanting of me,
to get up and share
the moments with her,
nourish her and in return
receive her warmth
against my own,
to make me feel
worthwhile.

I wonder...
if she can live
another 20 years,
to be my companion,
to love me unconditionally,
to know that I shall not have
to dwell in this home alone,
passing my shadows
in hallways,
whispering around corners
of my desires,
slowly traveling the steps,
one foot at a time
letting gravity
pull me down,
to start each new day.

These are my sometimes thoughts,
overwhelming the others,
that say
life is wonderful,
when you have someone to love
and that someone loves you.

just thoughts for a
~Wynter's eve

"For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart.
It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul."
(J.Garland)

[This message has been edited by nakdthoughts (02-26-2002 08:51 PM).]

ThisDiamond
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since 2002-02-22

Posts 9353
Michigan, USA

1 posted 2002-02-26 08:47 PM

Bravo,
It is amazing how deeply we delve when time ticks on within us. The range of your talent is limitless. Good Wishes Poet. ThisDiamond

catalinamoon

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The Shores of Alone

2 posted 2002-02-26 09:46 PM

Ah, I understand this well.I even have a kitty that gives me love. She and my granddaughter are the only ones. Off the subject, but I had a cat for 20 years, who died 4 years ago, and I have not been the same since. Though I love my new ones, you know? I think it may be the same with love of a man. You never quite let go of a really special one, no matter what.
I hope it isn't too empty and lonely in your space.
Sanra

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Victoria

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since 2000-08-12

Posts 5869

3 posted 2002-02-26 10:05 PM

nicely done hon..not sure if i remember the first write or not..thanks for posting again hugsss

~Vic

Silver Streak
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Posts 3625
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4 posted 2002-02-26 10:13 PM

Maureen, this is very, very beautiful. Thanks for reposting it, as I had not seen it before.

((Maureen))
-newell

Sharing God's Love through perfectlovepoetry.com

Copyright: 2002 Newell Elsworth Usher

Mistletoe Angel

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Posts 32816
Portland, Oregon

5 posted 2002-02-26 10:32 PM

"These are my sometimes thoughts,
overwhelming the others,
that say
life is wonderful,
when you have someone to love
and that someone loves you.

just thoughts for a
~Wynter's eve"

(big hugggssssssss) Oh Maureen, this is so very touching, you always express yourself so sincerely and wonderfully! (sigh) I believe we all need times when we need to be alone and understand ourselves more closely and to try and rearrange our doubts into hopes again, for I have spent so much time alone and I feel I have grown wise beyond my years! (kiss on cheek) We all love you so much, sweet friend, may your thoughts now forever consist of the spring of hope and joy and love! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Maureen, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

passing shadows
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6 posted 2002-02-27 03:23 PM

you know this one got me

Cpat Hair

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7 posted 2002-02-27 03:29 PM

yes wonderfully done.... wonderfully said...

Seymour Tabin
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8 posted 2002-02-27 03:31 PM

Well done M, I enjoyed the second read.

Dulcinea
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9 posted 2002-02-27 05:18 PM

Solitude is wonderful for a season, and I agree, too much of a good thing can come back to bite you...I understand about the kitty...first angel, and now this one. They truly are a comfort aren't they?

I loved the rewrite! This one seemed to flow more easily. Good job! *S* (((hugs)))

Interloper

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Deep in the heart

10 posted 2002-02-27 05:22 PM

Maureen, this is beautiful!
I'm gonna sneak in that back door one day

SURPRISE!

Fool, said my Muse to me, look in thy heart and write.

Madame Chipmunk
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since 2001-12-05

Posts 8296
Michigan

11 posted 2002-02-27 05:24 PM

Thanks for re-posting this one, Maureen...I haven't seen it before...and it is very beautiful.

this emptiness is haunting,
shadows me everywhere,
trips me on the stairs,
bumps into me around corners,
wraps me tight in quilts at night

as well as very sad. I used to have cats also, but mine were so mischievious that I don't know if I would have the patience for them now in my old age.
Its so good to see you back here again! I've missed you and your wonderful poems. ((hugs))

copyright2002 Lyra Nesius

"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

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Startime
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12 posted 2002-02-27 05:25 PM

BRAVO!!!!What a wonderful drifting of your thoughts...I love the weave of this poem...**big hugs**

Love I leave with you whether it is in your life now or yet the essense of your dreams.

strbbux
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Posts 3859

13 posted 2002-02-27 06:43 PM

Oh this captured me and held me nakd, I loved it so very much. Great writing, floria

Floria

"Alas for those that never sing,
But die with all their music in them"
(Oliver Wendell Holmes)

nakdthoughts
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since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

14 posted 2002-03-03 09:39 AM

ThisDiamond, thank you for the compliment *s

catalinamoon, I had a cat that was my first and longest one and yes she was so special to me. This one is ok also but is more independent and doesn't need the loving the other did..."I think it may be the same with love of a man. You never quite let go of a really special one, no matter what.
I hope it isn't too empty and lonely in your space." Never empty just not filled with what I desire. Maybe I don't deserve a second chance at happiness, maybe the first one lasted  longer than most.

Victoria, probably don't remember the first one, was last winter I think. *s

Silver Streak, you are welcome, and you can read any you have missed by going into search if you wanted. and I thank you for your kindness *s((Newell))
M

Noah, my sometimes thoughts can get me into trouble *s Rearranging doubts into hopes again..I like that *s

passing shadows *s  not sure it was a good gotcha or a bad gotcha  but thanks for stopping

Cpat, *s  thank you  friend (hugs)

Sy, So you remembered the first? Probably the only one who did. thank you I appreciate your visits.

Dulcinea, my cat is a comfort for at least Iknow she will always come back to me with forgiveness and love, no matter what. I live in solitude even if not alone at all times. THank you..it flowed a slightly different  direction this time *s

Interloper, I thank you muchly. *s If you get lost on the way to my house  just ask anyone for me..I am too well known..and it's my side door *w

Lyra, Smiling a thanks to you.
My life has become sad and twisted
due to my openness and acceptance of people,
something I should change but it is  the way I am. I tend to draw the wrong persons to me, trusting and believing in them. I appreciate your kindness. And I am glad to see you also ((hugs))
AND you can't be much older than I (I am trying to not think of myself as old, yet)

Karen, I am drifting too much lately in words, thoughts and deeds. Help me please *s
((big hugs)) to you too

Floria, thank you. gave me a ~smile~
hugs
Maureen

"Love is not blind - It sees more and not less, but because it sees more, it is willing to see less."
(Will Moss)

[This message has been edited by nakdthoughts (03-03-2002 09:41 AM).]

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