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angelbear
Member

since 2001-05-22

Posts 139
North East, USA

0 posted 2002-01-08 02:33 PM

I have sat for hours, cried for days
Finding your story within my broken past.
When you alone burned bitter my life's page
Yet from your blood my own life has been cast.

You were the first to liberate the camps, they say,
Arriving as the fires and bodies still burned.
At nineteen years old you carried sin away,
What of humanity can I expect you had learned?

Why, though, did others trough trauma and doom
Live faithful to the fragile human state?
Why did you march away from the camps,
allowing your soul to absorb all the hate?

We were so small, and you were a hero
A man-child of war a keeper of peace.
When did the demons creep into your being
giving ghosts of our history remorseful release?

Man of the Year, you held up so well.
Did they ever suspect where you hid?
In the midst of the songs you sang with the troops
did they ever suspect what you secretly did?

You loved us I know, a twisted truth told.
Trapped in the pain that you witnessed before.
How to make peace of my God-loving Father
When the demons I live with he placed at my door?

Long gone to ashes, I carry your name
The tree of forgiveness stays barren and cold.
But somewhere between your love and your pain,
Their flowers will bloom before I'm too old.

I can't control
my destiny
I trust my soul,
my only goal
is just to "be"
-Lyrics from RENT

Soleil Noir
Senior Member

since 2001-12-19

Posts 688
USA

1 posted 2002-01-08 02:43 PM

War's cruelest wound
is in not losing any
of what was seen, and
total absolute inability
to make it go away.

Your father's suffering
shall one day not be in
vain

and neither shall yours.

Hypnosis
Member

since 2001-12-02

Posts 325
CO

2 posted 2002-01-08 09:46 PM

Your father was a very brave man I see. I'd be proud of him too for trying to rid the world of evil. Great poem Angelbear I loved it deeply.

Randy Meador

a life lived unexplored is a life not worth living.

Nightshade

Member Patricius

since 2001-08-31

Posts 13962
just out of reach

3 posted 2002-01-08 09:49 PM

angelbear - this calls to me to read once again. Well done. Chris

Life is not measured by breaths you take, but by moments that take your breath away.

RosePetal

Member Elite

since 2001-08-26

Posts 2985
South Florida

4 posted 2002-01-08 09:52 PM

I must echo Hynosis, You dad was a brave and honorable man. Always keep him in your heart! Thank you for sharing this.

RP

angelbear
Member

since 2001-05-22

Posts 139
North East, USA

5 posted 2002-01-09 08:36 AM

Soleil Noir---I see from such an insightful comment that you really understand the very confused message I was attempting to convey. Thank you so much. I agree wholeheartedly that suffering can bread more suffering..yet sometimes it brings growth and change.

Hypnosis--Thank you for you kind words. I do feel some pride for my Father when I think of the great things of the past he has done.

Nightshade--Thanks so much for the feedback. And for the second read!

RosePetal--I appreciate your reply. Yes, in so many ways my Father's life and his influence on mine, will always stay will me.

I can't control
my destiny
I trust my soul,
my only goal
is just to "be"
-Lyrics from RENT

[This message has been edited by angelbear (01-09-2002 08:36 AM).]

suthern

Member Seraphic

since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

6 posted 2002-01-10 10:45 AM

So many secrets never make it past the front door... so many sorrows create even more pain. This is heartbreaking, angelbear... and understood by all too many who know a parent the world never sees. Well done!

angelbear
Member

since 2001-05-22

Posts 139
North East, USA

7 posted 2002-01-10 04:37 PM

suthern, Thank you so much for your response. It really touched me. I always have mixed feelings of happiness and some sadness knowing that many can relate...Christine...

His Poet
Senior Member

since 2001-12-18

Posts 750

8 posted 2002-01-10 09:23 PM

Angelbear, This poem so touches my heart. My father was such a beautiful man who enlisted in WWII at the age of 17. He was scarred forever with what he witnessed. I had to re-live many a battle with him, especially if he had been drinking. But his service to his country was his highest calling and he was always a hero in my eyes. Maybe sometime I will post some of the poems I've written in his memory. Thanks for sharing this. Cheryl

[This message has been edited by His Poet (01-11-2002 09:40 PM).]

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