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Mommy, why?
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shoffswife Junior Member
since 2001-12-23
Posts 38KY, US |
I wrote this poem after having a miscarriage in 1998. Mommy, why? Mommy, why'd you get rid of me? You were going to be the first person for me to see Would I have your smile or maybe your eyes? Oh! It wouldv'e been such a surprise. I never got to see you or my dad. Mommy, why? I couldn't have been that bad. Was I going to be a girl or a boy? Either way, I wouldv'e brought you joy. I wouldv'e made you laugh, smile, and even cry. But I'm gone now. Mommy, why? Why'd you let me go? What I look like, you'll never know. Do you ever think about me? Your baby, the one you'll never get to see. Promise me you'll always love me. Promise me you'll always remember me. Why couldn't I have stayed? If you didn't want me, why was I made? |
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amusemi Senior Member
since 2001-12-08
Posts 1262A State of Disarray |
My heart bleeds after reading this poem. I, too, have miscarried and the circumstances were horrible. When things go wrong we tend to blame ourselves for the situation. Know that things happen and there is nothing we can do about it. In one of the religeons I have studied, they believe that if a child dies at a young age it was a perfect soul. It simply needed a body for resurrection. I like that thought, and I took comfort in it. We never forget, and I believe that we mourne always for what could have been... I am not good with comforting words, but know in my heart that this affects me deeply and I hope for you only healing and closure. |
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shoffswife Junior Member
since 2001-12-23
Posts 38KY, US |
thank you so much for your words of comfort. i did blame myself for what happened, but i know now that it wasn't my fault. this poem means a great deal to me. i wrote it after coming home from the hospital and the feelings were still fresh, every time i read it or share it with others, the feelings come back. once again, thank you so much for the comfort. |
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Ethan Halo Senior Member
since 2000-04-28
Posts 793on the roof again |
such guilt... those could never have been his/her last thoughts. sad in its content, but filled with promise of good writes to come. mixed emotions to you. and *welcome*. enjoy your stay. Everyone's got their demons. |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Sometimes we think the very thought or step we take result in what happens to us, and that is not always the way. Thank you for this. Welcome to Passions! Please check your E-mail for a Special Greeting! Karilea |
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Kit McCallum
Administrator
Member Laureate
since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
This is such a powerfully emotive first post, I do hope to read more. Welcome to Passions Shoffswife ... Best wishes, /Kit |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
Shoffwife, A powerful first post, welcome. |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Shelly, very powerful first post here. I find writing emotions out helps. WELCOME TO PASSIONS! I look forward to seeing more of your posts.  ~Hugs, Nancy~ *~ Wishing you all a magical Christmas ~* |
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rosepetals25
since 2000-05-31
Posts 3076PA |
Shelly, This is just heartbreaking  Welcome to Passions.. where you can write your pain and find comfort. I hope to see more from you.Hugs, Tara "My heart is like an open book, for the whole world to read" |
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OLIAS Senior Member
since 2000-06-20
Posts 1090Pearl city Iowa |
I am deeply touched by your powerful words, thank you for sharing. Welcome to Passions and may the season bring you peace, comfort and happiness. Regards, Olias. |
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Mother_Earth Senior Member
since 2000-11-20
Posts 13701/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan |
shoffswife, losing a child, no matter at what stage has to be the very worse loss. I am sure you now have a special little angel to look over you. Hugs, ME |
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RosePetal
since 2001-08-26
Posts 2985South Florida |
Oh gosh, I am so very sorry to hear about your loss. My mom also had a miscarriage with her first child : ( Welcome to poetry land, may you find a lot of inspiring poets here! RP |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (tears fall down my cheeks) Oh Shelly, this is sooooooo heartbreaking, my heart cries out to this poor child and all other children who have been miscarriaged and left to cope alone! (wipes tears) I pray that all these children can be helped and healed of this pain, this poem broke my heart reading it! (sad sigh) So sad but well-written, sweet friend! Welcome to Passions, sweet Shelly, may you be inspired by all of us here as we will all be inspired by your lovely words! (kiss on cheek) We all love you so much, sweet friend! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Shelly, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton [This message has been edited by Mistletoe Angel (12-23-2001 04:30 PM).] |
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BloomingRose Member Elite
since 2000-08-09
Posts 3092Florida |
Very touching. You have expressed so very well, the loss. I believe there are lots of babies in heaven... just believe. Hugs, Deb |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
powerfully emotional. . . this flows very well from the heart and from the soul. . . welcome. . . take a look around. . .and enjoy your stay. . . ---------------------------------------------------------- To the world, you may only be one person. But to one person, you may be the world. |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
welcome to Passions. This is so sad. Too sad to really comment on, it's a very personal poem. Kathleen (Kay) |
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Madame Chipmunk Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-05
Posts 8296Michigan |
Welcome to Passions, Shelley... Your poem was powerful, sad and beautifully written. I think Amusemi is right about miscarried babies having such pure souls, that no body is good enough. I hope you can take some comfort in that thought. I understand the guilt part...Although, I have never had a miscarriage, my older son died in July of 2000, suddenly and tragically...and although I know it wasn't my fault, I have never stopped blaming myself. A mother should never outlive her child. May you find some solace in your poetry, as I have. copyright2001 Lyra Nesius |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Welcome to Passions, where you will find some of the kindest, biggest hearts on the planet. Your poem brought tears. I know the hurt you speak of. Writing it out may help heal your heart's wound. |
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shoffswife Junior Member
since 2001-12-23
Posts 38KY, US |
thank you all so much for your comforting words and warm welcome. the years that have passed have somewhat helped heal the pain, but i will always remember my baby that I never got to see. The doctor told me that my hormone level was high enough to have been a little boy. i wasn't far enough along to tell for sure. it was a very tragic thing for me, but as the saying goes, if it doesn't kill you it only makes you stronger. i believe that. if my poem has helped anyone feel the pain or at least think about the pain that a woman goes through when she miscarries, then i'm glad i could help. i wish i had my baby here with me, but everything happens for a reason. i too believe that when a baby dies, it has a perfect soul. i hope my little angel are watching over me and know that i will love him no matter what. |
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