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nakdthoughts
Member Laureate

since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

0 posted 2001-09-25 09:11 PM

In Anger

Too tired am I, of this game of compete.
Tomorrow's forever away.
Played out am I, as more rain seems to fall,
until drowning in sorrow this day.

No writing romance, no feelings intense
no wantings, no sharings in vent.
Dragging my life from morning 'til night,
I am angry and showing intent.

Jokes about drinking and ads about same,
if only "they" had to deal
with the everyday cost of a life losing will
and the ending of all that is real.

Can't end this torment, goes on it does
as steps towards tomorrow, they wind.
In circles go I, in searching the calm,
still reaching but out of my mind.

I write for myself, and I write to just feel
in hopes to surrender this pain.
But time after time, when I think I'm ahead,
I'm defeated by actions again.

The senses I need, the strength I once held,
this me isn't someone to love.
She's ruthless now faced, when mirrored to see
and feeling unworthy of.

In anger I feel and write on this eve
and at times think that nothing expressed
can ever embrace the resentment I feel
as I dwell in a life, mine, distressed.

"The worst prison would be a closed heart".
...Pope John Paul II

SEA

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Member Seraphic

since 2000-01-18

Posts 22676
with you

1 posted 2001-09-25 09:50 PM

wow this is a jagged edge........
what a fantastic write! hugs to you

Irish Rose
Member Patricius

since 2000-04-06

Posts 10263

2 posted 2001-09-25 11:24 PM

I'm not in too good shape this evening, but honey, you certainly can end torment. Simply make a choice....don't allow anger or torment in your life, it's far too precious....far too precious.

Kathleen

"Others can stop you temporarily, but only you can do it permanently."

RSWells
Member Elite

since 2001-06-17

Posts 2533

3 posted 2001-09-26 09:32 AM

You're no nut, you've a rut in the gut and I know the feeling.

Zinsser
Senior Member

since 2001-02-27

Posts 1641
Calif.

4 posted 2001-09-26 09:36 AM

This is very good...
I work in recovery.. sounds like a recovery process...BTW, you are worthy!

nakdthoughts
Member Laureate

since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

5 posted 2001-09-26 10:10 AM

thank you all..and Zinsser..I shall never recover from this...a lifetime lost because of someone elses habit not mine. My only addiction was believing he could stop what he started and get back what we once had.

SmartChick
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-09-23

Posts 7081
On A Journey To The Unknown

6 posted 2001-09-26 11:13 AM

This is very good. Thank you for sharing it. I know how it feels to live with anger. I've been trying to get rid of mine for a long time.

Seymour Tabin
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since 1999-07-07

Posts 31720
Tamarac Fla

7 posted 2001-09-26 11:40 AM

Wynter,
Your write is excellent. But do not let the heavy cover the good. We really don't know the future. I'm sure there is good just aroud the cornor. *L* Sy

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Member Rara Avis

since 2000-11-06

Posts 8369
Deep in the heart

8 posted 2001-09-26 12:42 PM

Maureen, go walk around the outside of your gorgeous home and look at it with "new" eyes. Then, sit in your rocking chair, on the porch, and close your eyes and "see" your fabulous Victorian in your mind's eye. Remember all you have put into your home and what if gives back to you. Finally, put pen to paper and write a short piece about how you feel and share it with us if you will.

I look forward to it with gr8 anticipation.

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