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Martie

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California

0 posted 2001-10-16 08:50 PM

Coming Around Again

Michelle,
fall has found me again
on the day when I screamed you
across the white room
my breath a boil
you ruptured
with your beginning

Scrunched and squinting
and slippery I held
you across my wonder
that had never been that big
with love

and now you’re coming around again
like you do each year
to tear me to tear me
with your crib of pictures
for I cannot bring you to mind
most other days
or remember the sound of your laugh
or how you wrinkled your nose at me
when you thought I wasn’t looking

I cannot see how your shoulders curved
or how your dresses grew too short for your legs
cannot see you turn your head fast
so your hair hits your cheek like sunlight

but you come around again with October
and lay your curls
across my lap then I can feel
the press of your head there
and if I close my eyes
the silk falls through my fingers

I see you stand alone looking back
at where you left the road
and think how brave a child can be
to one day deal with the hard truth
of coloring between the lines
and the next with death

Today you come around again
with your hand holding the hose
that waters the gardens in heaven
and you stop and smile
and beguile me with balloons
that I cannot hold

you come around again
spinning to me
across the chasm of time
and hit me with
a hand full of October.

___________
reposted for Michelle and October

and so I just know
that love never dies
and that souls hold all the candles
and they are the kind
you can’t blow out

sunshinemist
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since 2001-09-29

Posts 595
Fl. sunshines early mist

1 posted 2001-10-16 09:10 PM

Beautiful write, Martie.

smiles ~Marie~
happiness is contentment of the heart

Enchantress
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since 2001-08-14

Posts 35113
Canada eh.

2 posted 2001-10-16 09:23 PM

Oh Martie! How can I speak?...What do I say? My words will not do this justice..I cannot speak at this moment...perhaps later...perhaps when the tears have dried.
~October hugs, Nancy~

Nightshade

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since 2001-08-31

Posts 13962
just out of reach

3 posted 2001-10-16 10:12 PM

Martie, This is so beautiful!!! hugs, Chris

Life is not measured by breaths you take, but by moments that take your breath away.

Denise

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4 posted 2001-10-16 10:13 PM

Martie, everytime I read this I am left speechless. I feel as though I have had the privilege of knowing your little Michelle through your words. (((HUGS)))

Startime
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since 2000-10-03

Posts 5918
Canada

5 posted 2001-10-16 10:17 PM

Absolutely magnificent. You share with us your heart and soul and wrap them up in beautiful words. I love it.

Love I leave with you whether it is in your life now or yet the essense of your dreams.

jwesley
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since 2000-04-30

Posts 7563
Spring, Texas

6 posted 2001-10-16 10:25 PM

Ah, Martie, the wonder of your words reaches out and touches me again...

jwesley

Marge Tindal

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since 1999-11-06

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Florida's Foreverly Shores

7 posted 2001-10-16 10:52 PM

SisterOfMyHeart~
Now understanding just which 'poem' you were thinking of today~
I hug you with all the love I can send~

Sharing Michelle's Room with others -
http://www.angelfire.com/zine/bereaved/michelleopen.html

Much love~
~*Marge*~

~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~
[email protected]

Mysteria

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since 2001-03-07

Posts 18328
British Columbia, Canada

8 posted 2001-10-17 12:12 PM

There are no words to ease the grief of a Mother, but know this I do feel your pain, and wish I could give you a hug this October. What a heartfelt memory you have shared and I feel very privilaged, thank you.

~I always have time to listen to someone talking from their heart~

Midnitesun

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since 2001-05-18

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Gaia

9 posted 2001-10-17 01:34 AM

Oh, Martie. I just don't know what to say to this, except, my heart is aching knowing the pain this day must bring to you, mixed with the joys of remembering the happy moments you shared together.

Cpat Hair

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since 2001-06-05

Posts 11793

10 posted 2001-10-17 08:40 AM

Martie..... too deep and personal for me to say anything but to wish for you the the love of family and friends to help when those visits come...

Janet Marie
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11 posted 2001-10-17 08:50 AM

and now you’re coming around again
like you do each year
to tear me to tear me
with your crib of pictures
for I cannot bring you to mind
most other days
or remember the sound of your laugh
or how you wrinkled your nose at me
when you thought I wasn’t looking

I cannot see how your shoulders curved
or how your dresses grew too short for your legs
cannot see you turn your head fast
so your hair hits your cheek like sunlight

but you come around again with October
and lay your curls
across my lap then I can feel
the press of your head there
and if I close my eyes
the silk falls through my fingers

I see you stand alone looking back
at where you left the road
and think how brave a child can be
to one day deal with the hard truth
of coloring between the lines
and the next with death
=============================

thru you, we came to know and love her...
and now as this time comes round again...and I read these words that I wont ever be able to read with out crying and wanting to hug you for them....
now as this season of memories and healing in the words release comes round again.......
I will simply say..thank you for sharing her and touching me like this.
love you lady

This distance has shown how the road remains alone
Now I'm looking in my life ... for a truth that is my own.

Lady In White

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since 2001-02-12

Posts 2799
USA

12 posted 2001-10-17 08:59 AM

There are many reasons I share October memories with you, and this is one of them...

always in understanding....

Dark Angel
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since 1999-08-04

Posts 10095

13 posted 2001-10-17 09:30 AM

Oh Martie, I am left speechless. Such a beautiful, tender and touching write.

Hugging you!

Maree

RMW
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since 2001-03-21

Posts 1424

14 posted 2001-10-17 10:21 AM

Martie....a warm and tender poem, despite the ache. And how wonderful the responses from your many friends above. Comfort.

Seymour Tabin
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Tamarac Fla

15 posted 2001-10-17 10:30 AM

Martie,
I smell the roses. Your warm bouquet has fixed the air with October. One of your best.
*L* Sy

SmartChick
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since 2001-09-23

Posts 7081
On A Journey To The Unknown

16 posted 2001-10-17 10:48 AM

Thank you for sharing this. I am so sorry for your loss. I send you a great big hug, and lots of love.

Martie

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Posts 28049
California

17 posted 2001-10-17 10:53 AM

Friends--Although this seems like a sad poem, and in many ways it is...it is also my way of remembering the lovely child that blessed by life for a few years. I am not sad, only filled more with her then most other times. Thank you all for your sweet and caring replies. They mean a great deal to me. Hugs and love to you all!

Elizabeth Santos
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since 1999-11-08

Posts 9269
Pennsylvania

18 posted 2001-10-17 12:14 PM

You left me in tears
and wrapped me in a mother's love
so exquisite are your verses
unlike any others
THank you for posting this beautiful piece
Liz

Interloper

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since 2000-11-06

Posts 8369
Deep in the heart

19 posted 2001-10-17 12:24 PM

Thanks for reposting. I am too new to have seen the original or I stupidly missed it

Fool, said my Muse to me, look in thy heart and write.

Mark Bohannan
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since 2000-06-21

Posts 7269
In the winds of Cherokee song

20 posted 2001-10-17 01:31 PM

Not only do we get to know her and the love of a very special MOM through your words but you teach us just how special and eternal love is and should be. Your heart is felt my friend in her, in your words, and in your very wonderful way of just being you. Hugs and prayers.

The Lady of Shallot
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since 2001-10-03

Posts 818
USA

21 posted 2001-10-17 02:04 PM

I enjoyed this so much, it had a story-telling quality to it!!!

-befriend yourself and you will never be alone-
Anna

blondeon
Junior Member

since 2001-07-31

Posts 13

22 posted 2001-10-17 02:15 PM

This poem brought me to tears, death is a hard process and in my young life I have experinced it many times, its still great that we were given the gift of words to honour those we love.

Corinne
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since 1999-10-28

Posts 5167
state of confusion

23 posted 2001-10-17 04:03 PM

This indeed is a very poignant and personal poem, Martie. And reading it now as I am at lunchtime, at work, tearing up!

Peace to you, dear Martie.

Cor

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