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Lonely Shadow
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since 2000-03-14

Posts 128
Virginia

0 posted 2001-09-17 05:18 PM

Leaves departing their homes on high
Swooping back and forth, slowly descending
joining their brethren on the cold earth
fall has come, as it always has
staring out my window
watching the landscape slowly change
and I soon begin to realize
that when the seasons change
so does the state of my being

the spring, gave birth to new love
it seems so long ago
then love slowly dying with the fall,
the winter chilling me to the bone
I am frozen solid with fear
my soul succumbing to regret
knowing that the ones I have loved
I lost by my own hand
I remember the cold night of March
I held her close, savoring our first kiss
Then the nightmares that followed soon after
Her love for me died without reason or cause
But I know that I am to blame

Then, another came into my life
An angel amidst the demons of my personal hell
June flowers blooming on green fields
Love once again flourished within my heart
But as bitter winter approached,
I was dealt the grim reality
That she never really cared
That my heart suffered an ill blow
The icy sting of sorrow, of heartache
My heart had turned to ice
My only emotions, anger, sorrow, regret
My heart once again
Buried beneath the snow

Then a friend, whom now I call my love
Plucked my heart from the bitter cold
And tried her best to warm it
Breathe new life into my deceased heart
And a few people I am so happy to call my friends
Trying so hard to help in this perilous task
Trying to renew the happiness once lost
They have succeeded yet they has failed
My love for her flourishes within
My care for my truest of friends blossoms
But yet, my inner turmoil… my depression
Poisoning the soil that feeds my love and hope
Killing the beauty within, slowly losing my sanity

Sunshine once covering the landscape
But now only darkness remains
They reach out, holding me tight, trying to keep me here
Keeping the light upon the love and care I hold
But yet, the sorrow and heartache
Pulling me away, clawing at my very heart
The scars are evident, as they always have been
Battered, torn, weakened by my inner battles
I must hold on… gripping to what little sanity I have
I must not fail my love, and my truest friends
Who love and care for me more than I ever could
I must be strong, I must survive this bitter winter
So that my heart will see the warmth of spring once again

Fear destroys the mind, depression destroys the soul... only love and compassion may save you from death.

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