Reflecting(just venting/thinking dont even bother with this)

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Reflecting(just venting/thinking dont even bother with this)

LoneWolf
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since 2001-03-10

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0 posted 2002-09-04 05:39 PM

Ok, i am sorry i just had to get this out really, nothing more then thinking/venting. its long and i woudl say that you shouldn't even bother reading it because its that bad/long or whatever. but its up to you i really dont 'care.

"Reflecting"

i used to think
all i would ever
know was
lonliness

for how could
another love
one who could
feel nothing?

after her
with the cheating
and the lies
i never thought
i could trust
or love
again

thus i lived
like a shadow
againts the wall
that could at times
be seen
but never touched

though i changed
little by little
day by day
a little more feeling
a little more emotion
and for the first time
the past was behind me

i did my best to live
but with no happiness
i just seem to barely
make it through

for a life without
happiness
is a life without love
and that is
nothing more then
death

and i accepted this fate
i figured it happened
in a million liftimes before
and nothign i did could change it
i was right

because when i met you
it all fell in to place
i didn't have the strength
to change on my own
i needed you

from the moment we met
all i could think of
was to hold you
in my arms
and love you

but i knew
i didn't have much time left
before you would leave
for school
and be beyond my reach

i changed in more ways
in two months
than i thought
i could in an entire
lifetime

it was somethign
neither of us expected
to be so close
so in love
in that short time
before you left

when that
dreaded day came
tears flowed
like rain from
our eyes
as we said
our good-byes

but still
things went great
you said you were happy there
which is all i could ask for
but further still
we talked every day
and talked of the days
we would see
eachother again

me reasuring you
that everythgin will
be alright
and telling eachother
of how we missed
and loved the other

But now i am scared
more then a month of this
added to our two
and less then one
to go
till i see you again
and you tell me
you are second-guessing
everything
including us...

an icey hand
grabs at my heart
as i freeze
scared
not knowing what
to do
or say

i dont want to lose you
for the first time
in this life
and possibly all
others as well
i am happy
i am complete
and i know you feel
the same
you have told me some
in words
others in actions
and more so from
the touch of your hand
and the look in your eyes
that has told me
a thousand times
that you love me
as i love you
and that you never
wanted to leave me

and now
i'm scared
i pray to god
but fear it may not help
and i reflect upon the past
to find the way
past my fear
to the find hope
and the courage
to make it through this
and let you know
just how much i care
in case this distance
has helped you forget
for a moment
how much i love you

and that
we can make it through
so dont' think of me
as a burden
but rather as one
who would carry you
at any cost
when things bring
you down

because
no matter what
i will always be there
for you
and reflecting upon this
gives me hope
and courage
that leads me to feel
we can make it
if you let us

with each day that passes
another one goes by
bring us closer to the day
when we can hold eachother again
and be happy
in the love that we have
beacuse though
today might be bad
and yesterday was always better
tomarrow is always
ours to change
like a blank canvas
to which you apply your paint
making it what you feel
deep inside your heart
we have the chance to make it
make it in to
the things that dreams are made of
which for me is
holding you
in my arms
in love.

It's too bad I'm not as wonderful a person as people say I am, because the world could use a few people like that.
I've learned that even when you th

Marshalzu

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since 2001-02-15

Posts 2681
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1 posted 2002-09-05 05:20 AM

This poem was seemed have a lot of venting in places but apart from that it was a good read, thank you for sharing

Andrew

"I still feel the pain in my heart, what once was pure is now diluted" - Biffy Cylro

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