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Lisann
Member

since 2001-01-31

Posts 350

0 posted 2001-07-02 11:15 PM

I am six
Daddy why are you hurting me?
You touch me in ways I don't understand
Are all daddies this way?
Do my friends daddies touch them?
"Don't tell, Trust me,
This is right.
Mom will blame you."
I abhor his closeness.
I hate you daddy-
GO AWAY.

I am 7
Why doesn't anybody stop him?
Don't they hear?
Everyone must know----
Isn't it written on my forehead?
"Don't tell you are to blame."

I am 8
If I don't breathe
When he comes into my room
I will be invisible.
And the pain will cease
GO AWAY YOU *******.
GO AWAY.

Oh God,
My daddy is gone.
They took him away,
Are you punishing me?
This is my daddy.
Why have you taken him from me?
Is it because of my secret?
Am I that powerful that I could just wish him away?
Is it my fault?
I am only 9
PLEASE GOD PLEASE BRING MY DADDY BACK
I WON'T DO IT ANYMORE.

Mom says "don't cry
So,
I hide.
I will not feel this pain
I have been taught well.
SILENCE.

I am 16.
If time heals all wounds
The why do I bleed
STILL.

I come to this place---
This home----
NOT MY HOME
but it is warm, it is safe
Loving hands reach out.
Let go.
Trust.
Feel
Talk
We will carry part of your burden.

Hold me,
Rock me,
Don't ever let me go.
I am afraid
I will die if I tell.
Why do I feel 6?

To talk,
To breathe,
Let the fear and the pain subside.
Write about it,
Talk about it,
scream about it
cry about it,
GRIEVE.
For the lost childhood.

I am 18.
I AM ANGRY
I FEEL,
I TRUST,
I AM NO LONGER A SECRET
BUT
WHO AM I?

doreen peri
Member Elite

since 1999-05-25

Posts 3812
Virginia

1 posted 2001-07-02 11:26 PM

i applaud you loudly with standing ovation........... i have no words which can do this piece justice

cpalmer
Senior Member

since 2001-06-26

Posts 977
Phoenix, Az

2 posted 2001-07-02 11:31 PM

Just absolutely incredible! I dont know what else to say...good job! My favorite 'write about it, talk about it, scream about it, cry about it' so true my dear!
Cindi

God is our inspiration; Words of the heart can be music to our ears
Cpalmer

Jessica

Member

since 2001-06-28

Posts 350
South AL

3 posted 2001-07-02 11:39 PM

Oh... What can I say..... This made me cry. I know what you feel like, it's happened to me. It hurts so bad and you just want to forget... but the harder you try the worse it feels. The man that did this to me wasn't my father but I had a love for him that no one could understand and when I had to confess to his wrong doings it made me feel like it was my fault... I still struggle with it but I can't let him win... WE have to remember that it was NOT our faults......

What don't kill you can only make you stronger...

Lady In White

Member Elite

since 2001-02-12

Posts 2799
USA

4 posted 2001-07-03 10:50 AM

Very strong...you are VERY strong...and you are a survivor...

MARK V SHELDON
Member Elite

since 2001-06-21

Posts 3015
In a corporeal internship...

5 posted 2001-07-03 11:13 AM

Again, I commend your courage, decision, and resolution. As deeply personal as this is, it should be in the open so others may open their eyes to the travesties around us in daily lives and help to do something about it. If with this poem but one child's path is diverted from what has happened to you, then you have rightly performed a humanistic miracle. My respect goes to you.

-MVS

"If you think you know it all, you have a lot to learn."

"Everyone can hear; few can listen."

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