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nakdthoughts
Member Laureate

since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

0 posted 2001-05-13 12:34 PM

A year ago today...

Another day I sit and think
about the pain I feel
whenever I am awake
and then I realize that mine
isn't so great.
I didn't lose him
to a failed heart like you,
at least not yet...
my children aren't all pulling me
in four different directions
making me feel hopeless,
that my life can't be my own
that I will have to be alone
if I want to please them
instead of myself

that I just want it to be
"all over"

That knock on the door yesterday,
I didn't want to answer
as no news is good news to me.
At first I peeked out the blinds
to make sure it wasn't
some religious group
trying to save my soul.
There they were,
two beautiful girls, all grown up
but crying as if they were still
(as I remembered them)
only in their early years.
It had been awhile,
since that wedding and the time
after my dad's death.

Their tears brought mine on
as arms embraced and words flowed
and I knew my pain, today,
would have to be hidden once more
as I rode to the hospital
to be there for them,
the two younger one's
and their mother,
to give them strength
to help them cope
to be the pillar,
that I once was.

Though not a Mother to anyone...
and although very lonely on this special day
I have many memories of those who to me
were special children..from birth to adulthood..

Sometimes I wish....

Maureen

"The worst prison would be a closed heart".
...Pope John Paul II

[This message has been edited by nakdthoughts (edited 05-13-2001).]

Bill Charles
Member Patricius

since 2000-07-11

Posts 10619
highways, & byways, for now

1 posted 2001-05-13 12:47 PM

Maureen - never forget that you are a most special woman.. Caring, with a romantic heart. I will wish you "The Best On Mother's Day"

BC

latin passion
Senior Member

since 2001-04-26

Posts 576

2 posted 2001-05-13 12:59 PM

A beautiful post from one so sweet. I wish you a Happy special Mother's Day, it's in your heart indeed. Very special hugs to you. LP

For those who believed in me -May God keep you. There is no fear in love..For perfect love casth out all fear.

JLR
Senior Member

since 2001-02-04

Posts 1785

3 posted 2001-05-14 12:56 PM

Sometimes, me too.

Saunni
Senior Member

since 2000-07-11

Posts 1777
West Virginia

4 posted 2001-05-14 01:08 AM

Aww, I think you deserve a Happy Mother's Day also.

Sauni

Sauni :)
Have you ever known the color grey when the nighttime finds you weak
I have, I've walked that road each time; that's where my angel sleeps

Joyce Johnson

Member Rara Avis

since 2001-03-10

Posts 9912
Washington State

5 posted 2001-05-14 02:43 AM

There are all kinds of mothers. Evidently you are one too. Happy Mother's Day. Joyce

nakdthoughts
Member Laureate

since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

6 posted 2001-05-14 11:31 AM

Thank you all...for responding so kindly..I have 34 neices and nephews, and great ones always on the way... taught K-3rd grade..had my own nursery school for a few years...and have many friends children that grew up with me around from almost day one..I feel very lucky in that way..*s

Maureen

"The worst prison would be a closed heart".
...Pope John Paul II

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