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VAS
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-11-16

Posts 7450
Oregon

0 posted 2001-05-12 12:07 PM

What I’d Wanted
Virginia Salter

I had wanted...
I had looked forward to
the day when you would become serene,
grateful, able to rely upon me
for tenderness and care giving.

A day when you would not fight my gestures,
not fight my wisdom,
not fight.

I longed for the day
when I would again hear you sing,
see your eyes alive with glimmers of joy,
and be able to hug your shoulders,
cactus spine free.

I awaited the day,
when,though bent and frail,
ever graying,
you would reach out to be steadied by a stronger hand,
a hand extended in love,
to offer balance.

But you’ve gone away,
three years now, and more,
and I think this Mother’s Day
may be the toughest yet
since you left.

Yet,
it is as if
I must remember
your need to leave the pain,
the pain that had been eating you from within,
spreading its leaven in its attempt to engulf you.
That I need to realize
that your needs, not mine,
were most important
then, that it couldn't be about me,
and I had to let mine go.

And, now,
my needs can be met in the memory
of your love and your own unique way
of showing it. Too, perhaps,
I would not have had the strength
of heart and mind
to be whom I had planned to be,
for you, when you had become
the who I planned of you.

©May 12, 2001

Joyce Johnson

Member Rara Avis

since 2001-03-10

Posts 9912
Washington State

1 posted 2001-05-12 12:16 PM

Nice poem, VAS. We all remember our mothers in our own way. Love, Joyce

[This message has been edited by Joyce Johnson (edited 05-12-2001).]

latin passion
Senior Member

since 2001-04-26

Posts 576

2 posted 2001-05-12 01:49 PM

One such poem that I keep tucked away. For this occasion a beautiful tribute. LP

Cuddlez
Member

since 1999-11-27

Posts 422
Walla Walla, WA 99362

3 posted 2001-05-12 03:50 PM

oh, how sad but how pretty...

Time flies? Say it not so, time stays we go.

Tiersdin
Member Elite

since 2000-11-17

Posts 2364
east coast

4 posted 2001-05-12 05:20 PM

Virginia, *BIG HUGS*
It takes a lot of strength to write something like this...

Enjoyed reading!

~Tier

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

5 posted 2001-05-14 04:59 PM

A good expression of your feelings...James

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