Dark Poetry #3 |
Broken Angel |
Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
hey yall. this one is for me. had to get it off my chest. if no one likes it i understand but i had to write it. its been haunting my soul for to long. here it goes. tell me what you think... Broken Angel Show me the meaning of being lonely you did this very well you traped my heart in a prison and my body is its cell you said we would be together for all eternity but later to find out all along that all you did was use me i was the only one you ever hurt all of the rest hurt you just because i wasnt there did that make it easier for you?? you know i planned on coming back but you never let me try you know i never wanted to leave i didnt want to say goodbye i planned on being back home by the time spring rolled around but you came up with a last minute excuse and shot my dreamz to the ground then again in may you said you would come up but once agian the day of you canceled crushing my heart like a paper cup thats when i was gonna ask you if you would be my wife but you cheated on me with him and that cut my soul like a knife i heard you on the phone that night and all those tears you cried saying that it would never happen agian and once more i beleaved your lies a month later you broke up with me and then you married him my soul ripped open for all to see my dreamz were looking grim after that i sunk into depression many a night that i cried i was down so deep that i even died but still you didnt see how much i loved you so so i tried and tried but still couldnt let you go you always say you love me you always say you care then why is it he that can hold you close and i am stuck with a teddy bear its been over a year now and these tears for you still flow i want you out of my heart i want to let you go but no matter what i do you you always find a way back and put my poor heart back in your tourture rack set my heart free damnit i dont want you no more i want to move on see what my life has in store you might have broke my wings but again this angel will fly into someones loving heart that unlike you wont make me cry and you will be the one in pain this time and to qoute a very good song "you better kiss me now cuz your gonna miss me when i'm gone" for there is someone new in my life that i love with all my heart and she is willing to give soul a brand new loving start so this in my last gift to you as i try to set my heart free and get rid of these painful pins that you put in me time to move on to the future and leave you in the past you can kiss this angel goodbye cuz my heart is free at last... Jesse C. Jaymz I'm a saint and I'm sinner, I'm a loser and a winner, I'm steady and unstable, I'm young but I am able... [This message has been edited by Jesse Jaymz (edited 03-27-2001).] |
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Temptress
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-06-15
Posts 7136Mobile, AL |
I certainly am glad your heart is free. Take that attitude and don't let go of it, friend. It won't be easy. Nice expression here. Its good to get things off your mind. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
And your happiness is important...good for you...James |
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dragonpoe Senior Member
since 2000-11-12
Posts 608Palm Bay, Florida |
I am sure you can guess what I have to say on this. I am glad you are writing, though and releasing the negative energy out in this fashion, but hun, it's time to let it go for good, and only you can do that and keep her gone. You know what I mean. With the word, I am mighty, with the pen I am free.. |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
Let this be the final goodbye Jess, I know you want it, so be stubborn and do it!!!!! You have mourned enough babe, now your heart is free..... *hugs* Isis *War produces one thing - Cemetaries. And in cemetaries there are no enemies!* |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
jenn: *hugs* thank you my dear friend. i just hope i can be free again. *hugs* james. you are very right. thank you dragonpoe: you have been a rock for me. and i know what you wanna say. i have heard it alot. and all i can say is i am trying. *hugs* but things aint as easy at it seems. sis: *hugs*i know and i am trying. just that it aint to easy. it aint easy to love someone with all your heart and just say goodbye over the internet. i have to do it in person. and untill i do that in person i wont be me. *hugs* love you sis i am glad yall liked the poem. yes there is a meaning behind it. but how was the poem. i know what i have to do with my life and i know i have to get over her but at times its hard and i still love her. it aint as easy as everyone thinks for me. but i will do it. thanks yall I'm a saint and I'm sinner, |
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devina Member Elite
since 1999-10-28
Posts 3539Cali |
I can tell that you've put alot of feeling into this one dear...and as I've always told you...it HAS to get better!!! As for the poem itself, I see alot of improvement on your part...the same as the whole love bit...this only gets better as you go along... Take care m'friend ~D Open arms can be the most fragile in the world... |
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kitkat Senior Member
since 2000-01-11
Posts 878Nova Scotia |
You go Jesse. Yes set your heart free...Now step out side..look up at the sun..and Yell.. Whoopiieee I am free... Nice to see you sharing your heart again.. PS sorry I keep missing you on ICQ.. Hugs my friend -------------- |
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Allysa
since 1999-11-09
Posts 1952In an upside-down garden |
JESSE!!!!!!! I'm so glad to see you!!!!!!!!! I haven't seen you in forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where have ya been????? Still getting your heart broken???? I love these smilies!!!!!!!! ANyways, this is a great display of emotion!!!!!!!!!!! I love it!!!!!!! Hugs!!!!!!!!!! I wish people would stop telling me that I can do anything I want to. I never thought that I couldn't. |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
devina: thank you so much for replying. i am amazed heheehhe (inside joke) and yes it will get better i hope Kitkat: i would do that. but its night time and no sun in fact its gonna rain till monday. but damnit monday i will do that. hehehee hope to see you soon my friend. *hugs* Allysa: awwww i missed you too. thank you for replying. *hugs* e-mail me and i love the smiles tooooooo. love you all jesse Follow me everything is alright |
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DawnG
since 2000-06-23
Posts 1494United States |
Jesse, The main thing I have to say here is that I am *really* proud of you. This poem is excellent. Probably one of your best. I know how hard it is to let go of a former love, still not sure I have completely, and I know when the time is right and everything is in place for that to happen it will. But until that can happen, keep writing poetry like this. You expressed yourself so well in this poem. I felt like I was talking to you on the phone as I was reading it. Dawn |
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qtpieelmo Senior Member
since 2000-07-04
Posts 989Sesame Street :) hee hee ,NY |
HUGZ--Great poem as always I Luv that song by Jessica Andrews "I am" LOVE ELMO <3 [This message has been edited by qtpieelmo (edited 03-30-2001).] |
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Fading Away
since 2001-03-14
Posts 3131Lynchburg, Virginia |
Great poem... I enjoyed reading this. And remember.. we're all pulling for ya! It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. |
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Tamma
since 2000-01-17
Posts 794In His Arms, Harpers Ferry, WV |
Jesse, I dont know you very well, but this one almost made me cry...I hope you can make it thru, I've been there (even tho im only 18) I kno it can hurt and I also know that even if you have moved on, it can continue to rack your mind for years. I hope it doesnt hold on to you much longer, you deserve to be happy with someone that wont hurt you!!! ~Tamma i dont know if i should cry because its over, or smile because it happened |
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