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Bruised
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since 2003-07-12
Posts 13
Indiana, USA

0 posted 2003-07-12 06:55 PM


"Life As A Nightmare"

I'm just a child
It couldn't happen to me
It's too wrong

Yet I have proof
The cuts and bruises speak for themselves
This has gone on too long

Maybe I should run away
Or maybe, just maybe
Kill him

He's knocked me down
This keeps happening over and over
I keep still out of fear

I try to scream but I can't breathe
He's kicked the air out of me
I close my eyes and keep my cries to myself

Another day
It's just another day of this nightmare
Will it ever end?

I'm just so helpless
So defenseless
I'm just a child

My mother looks at me
She smiles cluelessly
I can't tell her, too much fear

One night out of the blue
I've done something wrong again
Here it comes, another slap to the head

I run to my place
I can feel the blood rushing down my face
It's cold outside, but I have no choice

I try to dream
Yet I can't sleep
This pain is killing me

I finally hear the sirens
Is this the day that it all ends?
No, they're after me

He's lied
Made it look like I'm all to blame
... Maybe this is my fault

A question I have to ask myself
If I had to do it all over again
Would I have killed myself long ago?

It's time to change
I stand up to him
I yell out my heart

Why have I allowed you to beat me?!
Why have I allowed you to try and kill me?!
Why have I let this all happen over and over again?!

You're my own father
I'm your child
This wasn't supposed to happen

If life was a game
Would I win in the end?
Or would I only make it to 'game over'?

And if I wasn't such a shame
Would I [edited by moderator] all over again?
Would I survive this pain?

I can tell you right now
This pain I feel just isn't inside my mind
It's physically killing me

I'm glad you're gone
I'm glad you're out of my life
I'm glad I'm free at last

I hate myself for ever listening to you
I hate myself for staying
I hate myself for ever believing

I hate you for what you've done to me
I hate you for all that you've ever said
I hate you, I hate you

I'll have my revenge someday
Just you wait
You're gonna wish you'd never had a daughter

You may be my flesh and blood
But you're no family to me
I hate you, I hate you father

[This message has been edited by Sunshine (07-12-2003 09:17 PM).]

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JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA
1 posted 2003-07-12 08:02 PM


This is a nightmare...hope this is not happening right now...James
Bruised
Junior Member
since 2003-07-12
Posts 13
Indiana, USA
2 posted 2003-07-12 08:29 PM


No, tis not happening anymore.  I wrote this poem when I was 11 years old. Which was a year after it all stopped.  I'm 15 now, so twas a long time ago.  I'm fine now, but I still have those bad memories.

~ Tenshi

"If it's too loud, you're too old!" - A Rock Artist

Ladybug
Member
since 2003-06-17
Posts 236
Massachusetts
3 posted 2003-07-13 01:35 AM


Wow, what a sad poem/story.  I am glad that this is over for you.  Keep writing, it helps to get through tough times.  This is a very impressive write for an 11 yr old.  

Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end...

Dayna_Sorrow
New Member
since 2003-07-13
Posts 4

4 posted 2003-07-13 06:02 PM


Hey Luna,
it is Lavender (From HC)
Like I said before, you are a very strong person

angalic22
New Member
since 2003-07-13
Posts 2

5 posted 2003-07-13 07:11 PM


this is a very sad and emotional poem. I remember the abuse I suffered when I was 11 years old at the hands of my father, it's not something I would wish on anybody. Anyway keep up the good work.
TwoSided
Junior Member
since 2003-07-06
Posts 19

6 posted 2003-07-13 07:48 PM


.....Bravo Monsieur a penny of pitty to you I cast..*that wasn't mean to be an insult*
Bruised
Junior Member
since 2003-07-12
Posts 13
Indiana, USA
7 posted 2003-07-14 02:03 AM


Thanks for the imput all!  And I took no offense to the last person who posted.

~ Tenshi

"If it's too loud, you're too old!" - A Rock Artist

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