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alibaster
Member

since 2001-07-07

Posts 299
In my own private hell...(PA).

0 posted 2001-08-27 11:33 AM

Depression is knocking and I won't let him in.
I'm locking the door and I'm not going back again.
Yet he screams with vengence and power beyond compare...
"I'm the only one who knows you.
I'm the only one who'll be there,
Go on and lock the door,
run, scream, hide,
and pretend I lied,
but when everyone and every thing else is gone
you know I'm the only one who remains.
No one else will call your name,
no one else will tell you that you are sane,
no one else will hold your hand
when you trip thru insanity's land.
You know its the truth.
I'm The Only One that will Remain."

As I lock the door
and lay in a weeping mess
of empty flesh and bone upon the floor
I hear his heart beating
as he scratches up another score
and screams inside my head a little more.

I have locked the door
yet in the end I will gracefully let him in
and be rocked gently in Sweet Depressions' sin.

"There is an alter ego which dwells within every soul." (C)alibaster 1999-2001

"Sleep those little slices of death, how I loathe them." Edgar Allan

[This message has been edited by alibaster (edited 08-27-2001).]

Sven

Member Laureate

since 1999-11-23

Posts 14937
East Lansing, MI USA

1 posted 2001-08-27 08:43 PM

perhaps now is the time to throw away the key. . .

well done. . . a superb portrait of one who knows too well. . .

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Temptress

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-06-15

Posts 7136
Mobile, AL

2 posted 2001-08-27 09:19 PM

Oh, Affy..my friend. I know this well, and you are very effective in your writing of it.

xShUgArHiGhx

Member Elite

since 2000-09-26

Posts 3150
tRyIn tO fIt iN2 mY oWn ShoEs

3 posted 2001-08-28 01:01 AM

This was absolutely amazing in my opinion!! Wonderful job! I know how you feel..its hard not to let him in cuz he's always there in the end reguardless....stay strong hun

alibaster
Member

since 2001-07-07

Posts 299
In my own private hell...(PA).

4 posted 2001-08-28 09:50 AM

Thank you all for your kind words and I am glad that you understand and enjoy.
I 'posse Sven that I should throw away the key, but it just isn't in me...I have been this way sence I was probably 16 or 17 years old...
manic depressive...fun wow!! Though I do not and will not take any med.s for it because every thing that they have ever tried to give me made me feel like some soft of zombie...and I would at least like to feel alive.
Hope my babbling makes some sence to some one!!
Until...ali

"There is an alter ego which dwells within every soul." (C)alibaster 1999-2001

"Sleep those little slices of death, how I loathe them." Edgar Allan

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