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Tears Of A Clown ... repost request
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Tears Of A Clown ... repost request |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
this was a challenge from back in open 7, the challenge was to write using the old phrase "tears of a clown".. thank you much to sweet Melissa Honeybee for the compliment of wanting to see it again... maybe some others will want to try this one again. On another note ... I am having problems replying to poems ... apparently others are also (posted in Bug Swatter) some threads will not load ... no matter how many times I try in the course of the day. I have been told this is being checked into, just dont want anyone to think I am asleep at the wheel  ******* ~Tears Of A Clown~ I learned all my lessons the hard way ... most of them I learned twice, I learned life don't always have happy endings ... and being a woman 'aint always sugar and spice. And I realized a long time ago ... no one wants you when your down, honest emotions and real pain are too much for most to handle ... so I learned to dress them up and to cry the tears of a clown. Keep them always guessing ... never let them know what's in store, always leave them laughing ... always leave them wanting more. Its like suffering in silence ... only turned inside out, hide the pain with the laughter ... never let them see your fears ... the loneliness ... or all the self doubt. Please don't misunderstand me ... I love to make people smile, I need to bring others pleasure ... as it makes me feel valuable and worthwhile. Still ... it's not easy ... always feeling everything ... so much, and I wonder if it's not more of a weakness ... when it breaks me down ... leaving me in need of an emotional crutch. Sometimes fate can be unkind ... and the losses take their toll, sometimes the damage runs too deep ... and the scars leave their mark on a child's soul. I don't want anyone's pity ... no one feeling sorry for me, just simply try to understand ... and not judge ... and if you cant ... then please just let me be. Still, I try to look on the bright side ... and to wear the jesters crown, I try to look for the positive ... and I put most of my old demons on that last bus out of town. To be honest I'm afraid to let it all show ... in the pain I might drown, so I hide the emotions in the laughter ... and I laugh till I cry ... I cry the tears of a clown. Janet Marie 4/17/00  "people say I'm the life of the party... cause I tell a joke or two, though I might be laughing loud and hearty... deep inside Im blue... so take a good look at my face... you'll see my smile looks out of place, and if you closer its easy to trace ... the tracks of my tears." Smokey Robinson ... love it best by Linda Ronstadt Tomorrow holds only mystery And who's to say what might be But in you I've found a love so strong The sun and the moon look on in jealousy ~VH~ [This message has been edited by Janet Marie (edited 02-06-2001).] |
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Gothkitty Junior Member
since 2001-02-05
Posts 32Australia |
This is excellent wonderfully written sadness in your words,hope you find peace within yourself gk |
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snowpants Member Elite
since 2000-09-16
Posts 2061KS |
'Its like suffering in silence ... only turned inside out, hide the pain with the laughter ... never let them see your fears ... the loneliness ... or all the self doubt.' Excellent write, JM! Or, as you would say...very cool! Glad you reposted...I missed this one the first time around!sp  ...if I ride these dreams to the Irish Sea, oh, even there, I know your heart rides with me... |
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Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Janet--Hi...repost, outpost, post post...whenever I see your name...I know I'm in for a treat. Thanks for being you...yes, I know I've said that before and will say it again...so get used to it!! |
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Honeybee Member Ascendant
since 1999-12-26
Posts 5372Ontario, CANADA |
Thank you for posting this again  Wow, this is so well penned, extraordinary, so many will relate to your deepest emotions. I can't say enough about this poem, I remember the challenge and you surpased it. I've read this poem 3 times already, into the library this goes! ~~~~ "And I realized a long time ago...nobody wants you when you're down, honest emotions and real pain are too much for most to handle, so I learned to dress them up and to cry the tears of a clown Keep them guessing...never let them know what's in store, always leave them laughing, always leave them wanting more To be honest, I'm afraid to let it all show...in the pain I might drown, so I hide the emotions in laughter and I laugh till I cry...I cry the tears of a clown" I relate so much! Well, as you see, I could quote every line in your poem that has touched me but, i'll just stop here. This poem reminds me of my childhood, the tears almost flowed, but, I'm glad that I could read this~ Thank you once again for posting this, my gator-friendTake care, Melissa~ [This message has been edited by Melissa Honeybee (edited 02-06-2001).] |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
jan~ i don't think i ever saw this challenge... and i certainly know this is the 1st time I've seen this post of yours. i would remember this is just so beautiful even though it is heartbreakingly sad! so much emotion and power weaved into this...can't help but feel it! awesome write... take care ~amy~  "A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words." |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
JM, this is so heartbreakingly sad but also so honest and real and I don't like this one not at all...I love it because it crept inside me and made a home. Write on sorrow's song Keth Those of us who refuse to risk and grow get swallowed up by life. Patty Hansen. |
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Victoria
since 2000-08-12
Posts 5869 |
Thank you for posting this wonderful poem again and to melissa for asking...HUGS.. I love smokey robinson too ha~V~ |
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Charisma
since 2000-09-30
Posts 5906lost in blue pages |
wonderful read.....tears of a clown, how we can relate on these..... excellent penned as always JM ((hugs)) Charisma |
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hoot_owl_rn Member Patricius
since 1999-07-05
Posts 10750Glen Hope, PA USA |
Oh yes, I remember it well ~ Ruth www.angelfire.com/pa/OriginalMinds/index.html |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
Janet, How old did you say you were? There is more wisdom in this piece then some of the phylosophy books I've read. I've seen wisdom like this written before and the next stage is to live it. And by God from what I know you are well into the second stage. God bless you Janet Marie Winkiewinkie Stinky |
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CocoBaci Member Elite
since 2000-05-06
Posts 3043 |
Sometimes fate can be unkind ... and the losses take their toll, sometimes the damage runs too deep ... and the scars leave their mark on a child's soul ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ JM, I'm deeply moved by this poem and as our PoetFriend Seymour states, there is much wisdom in what you have expressed... My compliments Janet for indeed this is an intelligent and humanistic write... Psst.. I'd say it's beautiful but ya already know that sweetie... ~coco~ You get a lot more lesson mileage when you lose in some situations than always win... |
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laryalee Member
since 2000-06-19
Posts 352Alberta, Canada |
Janet Marie, this is super - even though it's forlorn, hope is flitting about. "and I put most of my old demons on that last bus out of town." For some reason this idea really appeals to me - sounds like it could work - I think I'll give it a try! Thanks for your inspirations! Lary |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Trying to reply m'twin....I remember this one fondly...and thanks also to Melissa for the repost request...Love ya much and I sure hope that THIS reply makes it through....(serenity crosses her fingers and hits "submit") |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
Thank you all for such wonderful replies.. I am still having trouble doing my own replies .. so please forgive me not thanking all individually ... and bear with me while I try to read all your poetry as well ... thanks again to Melis for asking me to repost and Sy ...how old I am depends on who ya ask... some would tell ya 42 going on 90 ... and some will say 42 going on 12 today it feels like the first one LOL thank you stinky ... thank you all again. jm Tomorrow holds only mystery And who's to say what might be But in you I've found a love so strong The sun and the moon look on in jealousy ~VH~ |
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Mark Bohannan Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-21
Posts 7269In the winds of Cherokee song |
I'll take you anyway that you care to give my friend........bet that is a shocker to ya now isn't it? This was a wonderful poem and I don't care if you don't see the beauty in your write......WE ALL DO!!!!  BTW Sy.......don't let her kid you....she is 12 most of the time!!! That is except when she has certain "Randy Dragons" on her mind....then she is at an age where we are trying to catch up. LOL Love the re-post my friend....now what ya gonna give us for Valentine's Day?? If you find yourself stranded in a storm ...then reach for my hand and we will play in the puddles together |
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Balladeer
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
Goodbye cruel world I'm off to join the circus gonna be a broken-hearted clown paint my face with a good-for-nothing smile cause a mean, fickle woman turned my whole world upside down. Goodbye, cruel world I'm off to join the circus Hey, Mr. Barnum! Save a place for me. Shoot me out of a cannon - I don't care Let the people point at me and stare I'll tell the world that woman, whereever she may be, that mean, fickle woman Made a big clown out of me.... Remember that one, JM? |
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EagleScorpion Senior Member
since 2000-03-08
Posts 1644Here, Now, Forever |
You know, I sometimes feel like I'm a clown who hides all of my pain and self doubt behind a shield of laughter and entertainment. Why complain about it to anyone? I'm sure many people feel like they are this way. I say we, the clowns, should take the necessary time out to find someone that will answer with compassion and understanding when we bear our scars to them. The good people of this world wont respond negatively to your pain; the world is a good place, and it will come to heal and nurture your wounds like a caring mother. I always seem to go about pitying myself; and all the while I'm being carried upon the grace of great winds. |
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EagleOne Member Elite
since 2000-03-07
Posts 2829Between a laugh and a tear... |
Hey Janet! Loved that song, and of course it goes without say loved your verse as well. " I have seen without perceiving I have been another man Let me pierce the realm of glamour So I know just what I am"....Dweller on the Threshold, |
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Nate Dogg Senior Member
since 1999-11-15
Posts 1658Georgia, Fulton |
Wow Janet, this is an excellent piece and you know what, I actually just wrote a poem called Sad Clown yesterday and it's very similar to yours in the way the persons disguises the pain with a smile...and then mine takes a twist and turn as you get to the ending....but nonetheless, people are gonna feel the same way when they read mine cause it's so powerful and sad.......anyways Janet, thanks for sharing this piece and damn, what a coincidence!! Nathan |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
Yeah I know what you mean my favourite poet pal. You wrote it all very well here and I have had the same feelings myself, those feelings of total emotional exposure are terrifying and unpredictable, but we go on within ourselves to cope with all that we have been given as a basic personality. You have gone through many thoughts here and I have to say brought out the theme of your thinking to the printed word so very well. I thoroughly enjoyed reading this from your point of view and then applying to my own perspective...the wonders of such communication are never ending...thanks so much for sharing your heart as you always do....etVANhome |
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ATelamon Member
since 2001-02-06
Posts 328Purgatory, Last Staircase, Up |
Impressive use of a rather tired line (a challenge, indeed). You turned it round and put wind back in those sails. Nicely done. |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
thank you ALL for the wonderful and encouraging replies.... Im still having some replying and post loading problems but they are better than before .... MC Eagle Scorpion... you are so right.. thank you ... and Nate... I look forward to your poem... Ethome...your spoiling me again. thank you to each of you Tomorrow holds only mystery And who's to say what might be But in you I've found a love so strong The sun and the moon look on in jealousy ~VH~ |
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Nate Dogg Senior Member
since 1999-11-15
Posts 1658Georgia, Fulton |
Hey Janet, I don't post my most recent work right away but, I'll give you a sample of Sad Clown(the first stanza) so you can see, what's to come in the future: Have you ever seen tears fall from a clown's eyes? Probaly not cause, he cries when no one is around. Don't be fooled by his smile, that's just a disguise cause, he's really hurting inside, he's really down....he's a sad clown! Take care, Janet! Nathan |
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tracie66 Member Elite
since 2000-01-18
Posts 4713Australia |
Oh Janny I do remember this and reading the second time round still made me feel the same way....wonderful write sweetie and I'm glad you reposted. ~HUGS~ Tracie~ Love is the life of the soul... It is the harmony of the universe |
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Greeneyes 
since 2000-09-09
Posts 9903In Your Poetic Mind |
oh wow Janet Marie...this is stunning, and I am so much the wiser for you having reposted this....Just Wow poet friend.... Greeneyes~ *** "Within you I lose myself Without you I find myself Wanting to be lost again." -Unknown |
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StumperDaBumper Junior Member
since 2000-12-20
Posts 19State of Mind, Compassion USA |
Bumpintine Bumpintine Won't a bump be mighty fine Another trip around the forum cause I think it's awful boring without a little bump or two Here's one from me just for you! Happy Bumpintine! Are we having fun yet? |
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Chelsea~ Member
since 2001-02-09
Posts 260Ontario, CANADA |
Just so sad, I used to feel this way. You are a great writer, I really like this |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
Thank you everyone for the wonderful replies.. Nate...thanks for the preview.. GE ... I dont know about wiser...but I thank ya for thinking so Welcome Chelsea .. and to our new friend "da bumper" ... I thank you kindly for the lift .... and while your poetic heart is in the right place .... (and I dont want to seem ungrateful or rude here)... perhaps you could use your kind bumpingtine gesture on some of the posts that get lost with only a few replies and could use the boost much more than a post that has already been so wonderfully blessed.... that is the real gift and need of a bump ... to give some new poets or less read posts a second run thru a much too busy forum.... thanks again for the kind gesture thank you all for the kind replies love ya jm Heaven bound on wings of love, there's so much that you can rise above. I surrender heart and soul, sacrificed to a higher goal. ~DepechMode~ |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
I've read this one several times and will re-read it many times again... the depth is just incredible. Like Kethry said... this one walked straight into my heart. "hide the pain with the laughter ... never let them see your fears ... the loneliness ... or all the self doubt." What can I say but WOW... and mourn that somewhere, a mask store is making a fortune off some of the dearest people in the world. |
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