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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298
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what is ever for? I sit, one thought (or more) hangs on each side of the fence waiting for a decision, but i don't write any more. I spewed words to the left. I spewed words to the right. Penned my battles till I tired of fighting, tired of the balancing act, and of white pickets poking through my soul one too many time. I tired of emotions wrestling themselves onto paper. Tired of washing the slate clean, tired of hanging me out to dry. So I found a spot comfortably dull and I sit and I don't write anymore. I gaze at the grass greener (on the other side) and at the newspapers piling (unread) by my door and I wait. (I think) I must be waiting, as unmoving, I watch the days roll by, but for what I am waiting I can not say. The horizon catches my eyes (more often than not) and I have to wonder how far can Everafter be? Perhaps in the distance a blue eyed savior on a sterling white horse will take me away? I could (and yes I would though after reading this you probably think not) jump up onto his horse and never have to make my decisions at all. Blinking my eyes, for somehow they are blurring, it's the sun I think, (yes, there I go thinking again) but, it is much too bright, (and yes, arguably so)and I look down in dismay. While I used to be young and oh so prince worthy I have now grown just old, well maybe not old, but certainly less girly. ...and yes I know that this is long and you might argue that I do (write that is) but I don't, (of that I am sure) so don't fear that I will keep you balanced on this fence with me forever, it is mine alone to sit or stand, jump or fall. But do have faith (in my abilities) for just now as I sit, I find that unchanging I am not. I have added one wish. A focus, a turning point, A lever to upset the balance... (or maybe only a 'perhaps', who shall say?) but a wish, oh yes, a wish to spring life into the desert. More than for a savior, more than for the knowledge to know what to do, more than for strength to get down from my perch I look to the sun, the sun that was able to make me cry and I am thankful that I am no longer unfeeling, but right now I wish I surely wish that the sun weren't quite so bright. Tears are too slippery when you sit somewhere in the middle. [This message has been edited by jellybeans (edited 01-30-2001).] |
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Sunshine
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Welcome to Passions! A mighty poem to make your entrance into what could possibly be your new home away from home! Sit back, relax, read, interact with friendly members, and above all...WRITE ON! And check your e-mail for a special message! |
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doreen peri Member Elite
since 1999-05-25
Posts 3812Virginia |
Damn!! this is good.... a very appealing writing style which seems quite familiar to me... are you really someone else? LOL... anyway, if you aren't, welcome, and if you are, welcome and keep writing and posting stuff like this because i'm right there on that same fence and could identify with every word... very very well done!  |
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doreen peri Member Elite
since 1999-05-25
Posts 3812Virginia |
*bump* this needs to be read..... a great write here... these pages are too quick, i think, y'know? bouncing it back up but timing is everything they say, so maybe i should have waited until evening when more people other than us addicts are online.... lol@myself... oh well... i tried... (i like the licorice ones but not the others, btw, as if that comment means anything... who ARE you? hehe... your writing style seems so familiar.) |
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wayoutwalt Member Elite
since 1999-06-22
Posts 4870TEXAS (it's all big) |
i'm not an addict it feels good to read this poem if you don't have it your balanced on neither side? great poem yuh |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
I sit, one thought (or more) hangs on each side of the fence waiting for a decision, but i don't write any more. I spewed words to the left. I spewed words to the right. Penned my battles till I tired of fighting, tired of the balancing act, and of white pickets poking through my soul one too many time. I tired of emotions wrestling themselves onto paper. Tired of washing the slate clean, tired of hanging me out to dry. ==================== More than for a savior, more than for the knowledge to know what to do, more than for strength to get down from my perch I look to the sun, the sun that was able to make me cry and I am thankful that I am no longer unfeeling, but right now I wish I surely wish that the sun weren't quite so bright. Tears are too slippery when you sit somewhere in the middle. ================= very cool write.. Welcome to Passions jellybean ... this is well written and conceived I look forward to more of your work, and yes I have to concur with Doreen.. your style is familiar ... but LOL at Dor asking "who you are"... Hey Dor...not everyone has a bazillion screen names   LOLNice to have you here JB take care jm If my slight Muse do please these curious days ... The pain be mine ... but thine shall be the praise. ~Shakespeare~ |
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pandora Member
since 1999-07-26
Posts 184 |
You're kidding? they don't? meeeeeoowwwta here... (nice job jelly one- don't pay any attention to doreen, she asks too many questions and i'm just a cat, so i pussyfoot around here and keep my mouth shut except for an occasional mew) |
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CD Member
since 2001-01-27
Posts 101 |
This poem caught my eye and it is beautiful and very powerful. Very very well written. I look forward to seeing some more of your poems!! Keep writing, Jellybean - keep writing. CD |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
welcome Jellybeans. . . or whoever you are. . . . . . I really like this one and yes, as doreen said, your style is very familiar. . . hope to see more of it. . . -------------------------------------------------------- To the world, you may only be one person. But to one person, you may be the world. |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
sunshine, thank you for such a nice welcome Doreen, this can’t be good, lol, didn’t you read it? I don’t write any more. thanks for your comments and for the bump…and I guess if I knew who I was I wouldn’t be sitting in the middle trying to reconcile who I want to be with the one who looks at me from the mirror…and yeppers, the licorice are my favorite too wayoutwalt, lol, yes I am perfectly balanced on neither side Just love the way you said that Janet, thank you for the welcome, and the comments, and yes some people do have a certain style of writing, hope the one I remind you of was good *g* Pandora, lol@ pussyfoot…thanks CD thanks for your nice comments…and hey do you want to tell my muse that message, personally I love to write, its my muse that has grown so silent and moody  Sven thank you for the welcome, and *sigh * I don’t know, if I will have more to post, my muse hasn’t been very prolific these days, but thank you for the encouragement. |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
Well, the thought of licorice makes me cringe.... I even substitute another flavoring for anise in recipes... blech! *G* But the poem is superb! I'll admit that I laughed when I read "...and yes I know that this is long and you might argue that I do (write that is)" For you do indeed write and do so well! *S* |
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Agent696_DS Junior Member
since 2001-01-31
Posts 33NY, USA |
I was touched I though it was an excellent expression on how life can be and what many of us feel dont stop writing this is an inspirational work |
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Lisann Member
since 2001-01-31
Posts 350 |
This is one that I can relate to. Sitting on the fence waiting for a reply--sounds like something I'm doing right now. Funny, I also stopped writing for a very long time. I just now started again. I had thought that I lost my creativity but have since met someone who has inspired me again. Never stop writing--poets have the most beautiful souls and writing is the only way that we have to truly express ourselves. You did that well in your poem. So even though you claim you don't write anymore---YOU ARE A POET! |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
suthern well lady, I know your replies are biased, lol, and maybe my appreciation of them also, but still gotta say thank you lady, you mean much to me agent and lisa thank you, and yes, I keep trying to write, even though it doesn't flow easy these days |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
This read with almost a burning question....for the reader - very moving. "I walked beside the evening sea And dreamed a dream that could not be." George William Curtis |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
thank you kathleen, I appreciate your looking up my work, I know it is mostly sad these days, and for that I am sorry, but it won't always be, smiling soon I will be, well I keep telling myself that anyway |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
Never apologize to me for your mood, if you knew what kind of a year I've had, oh well....our feelings have to be dealt with and I can think of no better way than writing..........and letting it go! I look forward to reading more of your work. "I walked beside the evening sea And dreamed a dream that could not be." George William Curtis |
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