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The Way I Am (repost) |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio 
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hello yall i wrote this awhile back and posted it in dark passions. i am posting it here to get a feel for the place. i wanna post here but dont know if yall will like my stuff. or if it is to dark. let me know what yall think. thanks and i hope yall like it. The Way I Am So you think you know me?? You think you know whats in my mind well take my hand and walk with me lets see what you will find there arent to many people that have seen the real me they have only seen my wonderful acting showing them what i want them to see but that person isnt me my life just a foolish game deep down i am just lonley southern rebel branded with an outlaws name living off of wasted dreamz and memories that i let slip right threw my hands i aint even a human any more just a lonesome shell of a man on the outside i am a fresh and shining light but on the inside my heart is as black as night raised out on the streets doing what i had to to survive gang fights and drive by shootings hell i am lucky to be alive always moving around from town to town gypsy blood flows threw my viens i moved 17 times in 20 years thats enough to drive a man insane i was raised by my mother cuz my father didnt care he was off with my moms best friend having an affair left alone most of my life using darkness as my guide with a guitar in my hands and a switchblade at my side i have been shot at, stabed beat up and pushed around i have been raised up with the kings and thrown to the ground a heart made of stone that no one could get threw i thought thats how it was until the day that i met you It was you who broke down the walls, You who taught this heart to love, You who showed me light instead of darkness, Your my angel from above so i changed all of my ways and moved down south to be with you i gave up everything i had cuz i knew this love was true i was finaly living my dreamz i was were i always wanted to be i had a love, good friends, a stable home even had a trip to the sea i was oh so happy when i was laying in your arms you always held me close and comfort me and protected me from harm but then one cold day in june that all came crashing to an end you said that you have found another and that we should be only friends i couldnt beleave my ears i didnt want to beleave that it was true that i will never be back home in virginia and that forever i have lost you all of my hope went flowing down the drain i broke down and started to cry tear fell from my eyes like rain i always said that we were fate brought together by the angels from above so no matter what i will always care for you you will always be my true love i know you are married now and that pain cuts me like a knife cuz it should have been me walking down that isle i should be the one calling you my wife you still say that i am the man of your dreamz and that no one will know you like me if this is all still true then why didnt you marry me?? it happened agian my heart shatterd in two all happening the night that i lost you so now you know the real me the broken angel that i am not the happy loving soul that everyone thinks i am so its back to the streets for me once again i have lost my way waiting for another person to love me and take my pain away... Jesse C. Jaymz Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
Great writing from the soul Jesse and these things are a part of this imperfect life we live ...this poem goes from harsh to sensitive and back again and I think it takes courage to face the challenge of this poem.. I'd say I thoroughly enjoyed your story even though it's sad it still holds beauty and beauty will come again... "There's always sunhine after rain." M. Knopfler have a good day and write something to spill the heart again......ethome |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
Jesse, In this life we take some knocks reach the sky and bear the shocks smooth as silk or trouble to hocks Let me just say your poetry rocks. Btw did you mean to spell "threw" like that. I would have spelled it through, or thru ( for America. Write on Kethry Could a greater miracle take place than for us to look through each other's eyes for an instant - Thoreau |
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Wishmaster Junior Member
since 2000-12-03
Posts 24Luton, Bedfordshire, England |
Such a sad story but one that is so familiar to many people. There is love out there and it will find you. You do not need to look for it. Your poem depicts a good trip through the resevoir of emotions that play our souls daily. How often we are misunderstood by those around us. Wishmaster. ~ You cannot be what you want to be if you do not know who you are ~ |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
ethome: thank you for the reply. i am glad you enjoyed it. and i hope one day that i can write happy agian. thanks Kethry: *hugs* thanks for that cute little poem. that made me smile. and i havent done that in days. thank you. and for my spelling. i proboly meant though. i cant spell very well.  i need a spell check. hehehehe.Wishmaster: thanks. i was nervous when i first posted this. scared what people would think of me and my writing. its a very personal poem and i am glad people like it  thanks.peace and love to all jesse Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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Victoria
since 2000-08-12
Posts 5869 |
Good to see you posting here Jesse..nicely written..hope to read more of your poems...HUGS ~Victoria~ A poem is never finished, only abandoned. - Paul Valery (1871-1945) |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
thanks victoria Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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rosepetals25
since 2000-05-31
Posts 3076PA |
Jesse, You didn't tell me you were gonna come over! I'm glad you took my advice and did I liked this poemt the first time I wrote it and I like it now. You are a wonderful writer. You will find happiness again. Until then, keep writing your beautiful poetry to express your pain and know that I am here for you always.Warm hugs to you my dear friend. ~~Tara aka rp25 :o) |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
tara: *hugs* if there was a person that i owe the world to it would be you. thank you so much. *huggles* i owe you everything. and if it wasnt for you i wouldnt have anything. i know its alittle late for giving thanks but i give thanks for a loving caring friend like you. *hugs* thanks hun. catch you soon. love ya jesse Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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