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Saxoness

Senior Member

since 1999-07-18

Posts 1102
Texas

0 posted 2000-12-01 01:56 AM

how many times do I have to
sit in front of a screen crying
because I can feel the empty space
behind me where someone should be saying
come and let me hold you I because I need
your touch as well.

Searching and searching trying
to find something or
someone to fill a void
that has eaten it’s way right
to the middle of me through the other
side where the breath of nobody
whistles through making me curl inside myself
to howl.

If I had a tear for every person
that loved me my well would be as dry as
cracked earth found in the hell of loneliness
and if I had a tear for every person that
has looked the other way I would be dead from
drowning in my own sadness.

I’m sorry if I hold your hand too tightly or
make you stay just a little bit longer
then you want to, but a drowning woman
sometimes pulls her savior under while
trying to get free.

This story is sad to tell and I have to type it first
I fear for my tears stain the paper
and blur the ink and this is one
night that my howls will
be heard.

Sometimes there isn’t a way to end
a poem when you don’t know where the
end is and are afraid to find it for
it may be the one you dreaded
all along. ..

"Glory remains unaware of my neglected dwelling where alone
I sing my tearful song which has charms only for me."

serenity blaze
Member Empyrean

since 2000-02-02

Posts 27738

1 posted 2000-12-01 04:45 AM

Hello, lovie...and you are quite a poet m'friend! The title alone got me, and then your words just "wove" me in...I do understand the loneliness here..and you wrote it with a haunting beauty. I felt it, right "here" (serenity pounds her chest--grin) OUCH. Hugs.(carefully please?) LOL

Love to you. Enjoyed this much.

Saxoness

Senior Member

since 1999-07-18

Posts 1102
Texas

2 posted 2000-12-01 02:31 PM

So I open this poem up today, and I surprised myself. There is some heavy stuff goin on there. Guess thats what I get for staying up past my bed time all by myself.
Thanks 'renity. preciate it.

"Glory remains unaware of my neglected dwelling where alone
I sing my tearful song which has charms only for me."

LngJhnAg
Member Elite

since 1999-07-23

Posts 3508
Boot+Kitty=Poetry in motion

3 posted 2000-12-01 02:33 PM

Hi there, Saxon Lady

This poem screams, Lady - in many ways. The mournful verses go right to the heart. You are indeed a fine poet.

Saxoness

Senior Member

since 1999-07-18

Posts 1102
Texas

4 posted 2000-12-01 05:34 PM

LngJhn, It sure is screaming, I was screaming, or howling, whichever fits. As far as being a good poet, it's gotta be all the company round her rubbin off

"Glory remains unaware of my neglected dwelling where alone
I sing my tearful song which has charms only for me."

Robert Joseph
Member

since 2000-10-07

Posts 491
South Carolina

5 posted 2000-12-01 05:52 PM

This piece cuts deep...a soulful and introspective read. Thanks for sharing.

Robert Joseph

Saxoness

Senior Member

since 1999-07-18

Posts 1102
Texas

6 posted 2000-12-02 12:12 PM

It's kind of disturbing how introspective this was...

Thanks Rob.

"Glory remains unaware of my neglected dwelling where alone
I sing my tearful song which has charms only for me."

Angel_of_Music
Junior Member

since 1999-07-25

Posts 35
Sanger, TX USA

7 posted 2000-12-02 11:20 AM

This looks like another poem in that different style you tried with Can't you write poetry for me. It works for you. Although, there were a few places I wanted to put punctuation. This read like it hurt, though, which is what I think you were going for. If so, you succeeded.

"In sleep he sang to me...in dreams he came...that voice which calls to me, and speaks my name..."

VAS
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-11-16

Posts 7450
Oregon

8 posted 2000-12-02 01:04 PM

You have spoken the heart of so many at one or more times in their lives. This is profoundly an epitome of depression and despair. The dryness of eyes, the wetness of eyes so succinctly expressed. Well done, Saxoness!

Saxoness

Senior Member

since 1999-07-18

Posts 1102
Texas

9 posted 2000-12-02 09:30 PM

Angel and VAS, thank you both

"Glory remains unaware of my neglected dwelling where alone
I sing my tearful song which has charms only for me."

catalinamoon

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-06-03

Posts 9543
The Shores of Alone

10 posted 2000-12-02 10:04 PM

Repetitive comments are all of have, everyone already said it! But God, I know this horrible lonely feeling, and you expressed it so well.
Peace.
Sandra

Saxoness

Senior Member

since 1999-07-18

Posts 1102
Texas

11 posted 2000-12-04 12:13 PM

Nothing like purging an emotion to maek you cry. Crying is the cleansing of the soul. Thanks C.

"Glory remains unaware of my neglected dwelling where alone
I sing my tearful song which has charms only for me."

athena4
Senior Member

since 2000-12-10

Posts 622

12 posted 2000-12-15 10:57 AM

Saxoness,
The true depth of your sorrow metamorphs into the reader's own. I have been a "drowning woman" many times. I hope you will find peace.
Much love, Elise

Saxoness

Senior Member

since 1999-07-18

Posts 1102
Texas

13 posted 2000-12-26 08:47 PM

Thanks Athena, nice to meet you as well

"Glory remains unaware of my neglected dwelling where alone
I sing my tearful song which has charms only for me."

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