Open Poetry #10 |
Silent Suffering |
startin_fresh Member
since 1999-08-13
Posts 137US |
Silent Suffering In the darkness of my bedroom Where I go once all are gone I lay there awake and tears flow No sobs fill the room, No tears are noticeable; they are internal. So careful I am to never reveal Just how much pain that I feel Words of supposed loved ones Cut deep and expose all the Ugliness of my life. For years I've felt no love Caring or kindness from them. I speak of those who should be Near and most dear to me. Yet, they are distant and hurl Words of hate and disrespect. I lie quietly here and dream While inside my inner spirit Cries out for love and freedom. This inner voice is so loud but Isn't heard outside of myself Where's the child that's within The child is sheltering and is afraid To come out to face the cruelty of some. Soon I must make the break and live My life for me and not those that Bind me with invisible chains. I have served my time and only want To live in peace and contentment. I must muster the strength to make The journey...Take that first step And end the silent suffering. < !signature--> Beacon of Hope! Your guiding light during life's troubling moments. www.yourbeaconofhope.com [This message has been edited by startin_fresh (edited 10-28-2000).] |
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BloomingRose Member Elite
since 2000-08-09
Posts 3092Florida |
Silent suffering makes us feel so alone, yet there is so much beauty in life waiting for you, on the other side of pain. Take that step, you won't regret. Never look back on an unhappy past. Venture forward knowing from that point on, life is what YOU make it. Great poem, hope to see more of your writing. Deb |
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Poet's Sister Member
since 2000-10-16
Posts 80North Carolina |
Sonds like you might be living up to your name...leaving the silent suffering behind and Startin Fresh! It takes a lot of courage to share this much pain. Well written piece. |
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Ron K. Fox Senior Member
since 2000-10-24
Posts 925 |
let the tears flow, release the dam. then you will feel free. there's no shame in crying. crying is a natural way to relieve the pain. when you cry we all cry with you, so don't feel alone. |
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startin_fresh Member
since 1999-08-13
Posts 137US |
BloomingRose---The stage is set and plans are in the works. I have a few things to do before taking the big step. Thank you for the encouragement. I am glad you liked the poem I have others here at Net Poets. Poet's Sister ---- Yes it took all I had to press the submit button. It's been a 7 yr journey out of the darkness. Thank you for the compliment on how well the poem was written. Ron K Fox---- I am sure the tears will come soon. The dam is in place for now. While now we are told there's no shame in crying, it was not that way 30+ yrs ago. I am re-scripting so I know I will get there eventually. I do know I am not alone as my poetic family is always here when I post. Thank you all Startin_Fresh Beacon of Hope! Your guiding light during life's troubling moments. www.yourbeaconofhope.com |
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Tara Simms Senior Member
since 1999-08-12
Posts 1244Honea Path, SC USA |
"bind me with invisible chains"--that even sounds oppressive. I'm glad you are taking the steps to liberate yourself from the situation. Good luck! Take me as I am or watch me as I go |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
re-scripting...I like that. Let me know how it all turns out. Hugs and love because I DO understand. |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
startin_fresh, so glad you are re-scripting and starting fresh. Loved your poem, it moved me in ways I can't even begin to describe. Be well Kethry Growth demands a temporary surrender of security. Gail Sheehy |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
Know that you are not alone...we all share in your pain. ~Wynter Bliss |
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startin_fresh Member
since 1999-08-13
Posts 137US |
Tara - It is oppressive. It has been a long journey and you have been there to support me thank you my friend. Serenity - Rescripting because the past I cannot change. I can only start again and try to learn as I go. To continue to dwell in the past would surely not get me to the point I hope to be. Thank you for the hugs. They are greatly appreciated. Kethry -Thank you. It is good to know that there are those who truly understand. nakdthoughts- Very interesting name. Nice to have met you and have you comment on my work. It's nice to have the additional support. startin_fresh Beacon of Hope! Your guiding light during life's troubling moments. www.yourbeaconofhope.com |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
StartinFresh~ The trip out of silent suffering begins with the first step. And that is realizing the need for the journey. You seem ready to begin - best of luck to you. ~*Marge*~ ~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~ noles1@totcon.com |
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Julie Jordan Scott Member
since 1999-09-19
Posts 146Bakersfield, CA USA |
I really enjoyed how you expressed the depth of emotion, free flowing and vibrant amidst the deep sadness. I can almost hear the chimes ringing in the background, announcing your upcoming reappearance. I am a Life Purpose Coach who specializes in assisting men and women to clarify their Life Purpose and then in turn live true to their purpose. After 5 years working with the Severely Mentally Ill in County Mental Health, I gave up the bureaucracy (and safe, secure blanket) of this environment to pursue my own purpose and passion. |
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