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Body Memory (Child Abuse Challenge)
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Meadowmuse Member Elite
since 1999-12-27
Posts 3263 |
Body Memory Why did you pull away? he asks. After all, isn't his the most loving touch I've ever known? What's the matter, baby? he asks. Have I hurt you? Did I say something? I see the confusion mingled with devotion, mingled with respect, mingled with need to express his love to me. No, it isn't you, I say. It's just me. As I wait for him to leave. |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Claire--this is a powerful scene--one that I understand too clearly. Well done!! |
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Marina Member Elite
since 2000-02-10
Posts 2245Pickering, Ontario |
Meadowmuse, this is something no one has yet touched upon. It is a very sad thing ,perhaps those who have not suffered abuse my not understand. After abuse both men and women have difficulties maintaining a romantic relationship, friendships, or even work enviroments. We tend to through fits of anger and jealousy for no apparant reason, and get physically ill easier then most. Thank you very much for sharing your post and contributing to our cause. Challenge well met. Marina |
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Corazon Senior Member
since 2000-02-02
Posts 1209 |
really clearly and painfully written...hugs |
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RSEvans Senior Member
since 1999-10-23
Posts 1147Tulsa, OK, USA |
A whole other aspect of abuse...the aftermath... Any of us who were lucky enough to survive childhood are luckier still if we did it not despite our parents, but because of our parents. |
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Meadowmuse Member Elite
since 1999-12-27
Posts 3263 |
Martie...thank you for reading. I'm sad that you understand this, but grateful that we can share through our words. Marina...yes, the effects of abuse last...and last...even when we think we've overcome. Healing can take a lifetime. Corazon...thank you. ((youtoo)) RS...yes, very true. Thanks for reading. ~ Claire |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
I knew I would be moved by what ever I found when I clicked on it...knowing things--previously shared... and indeed I was... by your honest and emotional image of the scars that sometimes never heal...I understand... and I know you do too. I'm sorry that any of us do...but always grateful for each others words and quiet company... take care, jm Well the sun sets gently on your shoulders And it makes me want to touch you there. And the light in your eyes makes me feel Like there's something much better out there Something kind... And I know someday I might be looking around Trying to find some purpose Well purpose it can't be that hard to find As long as I've got the wind... The wind and your love to carry me. vertical horizon |
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Meadowmuse Member Elite
since 1999-12-27
Posts 3263 |
Janet Marie, I know you know. (((you))) Thank you for reading this today. I'm just finding myself at a real loss for words today in this forum. As we say, healing takes a lifetime. It's an every day struggle, I guess. Claire |
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netswan Senior Member
since 2000-03-28
Posts 1369Washington |
Meadowmuse - this is so touching --and a very powerful message indeed, Ouch. This forum is filled with fresh tears and old tears all mingled into one. I am absolutely amazed how many poets are coming out to share - past pain that lingers still. Thank you for sharing these difficult things. And, I also am having a hard time reading and writing on this subject. -- I just want to hug your pain away. netswan |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
This reminds me of my very first girlfriend...when I would hold her and kiss her she would start giggling and laughing and act nervous.. I ask her to try not to do that because it made me feel like she was laughing at the way I held her or kissed her and it ruined the soft mood. She later told me the reason she acted this way was due to an uncle molesting her when she was younger. James |
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Tara Simms Senior Member
since 1999-08-12
Posts 1244Honea Path, SC USA |
How horrible when someone's first experience of physical "intimacy" ruins it for them for the rest of their life. Don't the abusers realize that they are taking much more than just the moment? They are taking the child's future as well. |
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A Romantic Heart Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-03
Posts 5496Forever In Your Heart |
This is going back up!! good one! |
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netswan Senior Member
since 2000-03-28
Posts 1369Washington |
I have already posted my response to this touching poem. This is to answer Tara's question. Tara, people who do these things are very sick and most, if they have a conscience at all, do not remember, or care. To those whose first intimacy was harmful. I wish I could post what I want to say, but this is an open forum - I guess I can disguise it someway Most molestation abuse is done by men, but I know a girl who was saved by CPS and her sisters from two sexual abusers their father and sadly to say THEIR mother. So, it is not just men who do these things. But, there are so many men with loving hearts that would die if they thought they have hurt you in anyway. Intimacy is wonderful when shared by two people who love each other - with consent by both parties. Hope this was okay for the forum. netswan |
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WhiteNite Member
since 2000-04-09
Posts 241Montgomery, AL |
Wow... were you a fly on the wall at some point in my life? I swear I've heard these very words before. I can truly Empathize "Don't let your character get camoflaged with your environment. Find who you are and let it stay in its true colors." --Rachel Joy Scott |
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Michael
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-08-13
Posts 7666California |
Someone very close to went through something sililiar to this. It was horrible for her. Sometimes she would just break out into tears in the middle of lovemaking. The emotional toll of her childhood molestations has never relented. life and love for her are hell. Your poems touches deeply. Thank you for sharing. Michael |
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Jeffrey Carter
since 2000-04-08
Posts 2367State of constant confusion! |
BTT |
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Meadowmuse Member Elite
since 1999-12-27
Posts 3263 |
netswan, thank you for reading this and for such understanding words. I do think of myself (as well as each one of us) as a survivor. This challenge has certainly brought about some wonderful sharing, hasn't it? James, yes, molestation can interfere with the most loving relationships. To overcome it, one faces what is generally the most difficult challenge of one's life. Trust is completely out of reach for so many, but with work and God's Grace, it can be attained. Tara, yes, it is horrible. And whether the perpetrators realize it or not, they continue to shame, molest, harm, and kill their victims' bodies and spirits. Thank you for reading this and sharing. A Romantic Heart, thanks.  WhiteNite, any time these words are spoken, it is sad, indeed. Thank you for reading and sharing. Michael, thank "you," my friend. I know you can understand. Jeffrey, thank you... ~ Claire |
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