Teen Poetry #3 |
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I Can't Deny(please read and reply) |
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Isabel Galaxia Senior Member
since 2000-06-18
Posts 733![]() |
Do you not notice Do you not see Are you so blind that You can't realize something's wrong with me Your aloof silence Forces me to cry Do you not notice Or are you just too shy Can't you see My hurt, my pain Can't you see My tears that fall like rain The pain inside me Is almost more than I can bare Maybe you can't see it But my hurt is plainly there I really wish That you could only see All the feelings suppressed Blind to everyone but me So please hear My heart's solemn cry Becuase now you know This pain I can't deny Okay everyone, let me explain. As you all probably know, I have a bit of an eating "situation" as some people have told me. But now no one seems to notice, which makes me wonder if they don't notice or if they don't care. So please give me some advice or just any response, feel free to tear this one apart. Thanks Bel Oh! And BGirl_Princess- I really wasn't trying to copy your poem or anything, so pleeeeeeeeeeeeeease don't be offended! ![]() |
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Jenn Cirrincione![]() ![]()
since 2000-07-02
Posts 2107Fl |
Well, I haven't read the other girl's poem yet, but I'm supposing it's similar. You write very well. You are not alone in what you suffer, I often eat when depressed, and there were times when I felt the urge to not eat at all. But I can't claim an eating disorder. I can only wish you find the help you need, and I don't believe your friends don't care about your problem, I've been on the other side of a good friend's traumas, and sometimes it hurts so much to watch, and you feel as if there is nothing you can do, so you try to overlook it, or distance yourself. Give them time, and your true friends will always be around. Good luck. Jenn |
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Crystalina123 Member
since 2000-01-31
Posts 228 |
Ok my dear, you and I have talked about eating disorders in the past, and I think I understand where your friends are coming from. How? You ask, well quite simply b/c I was in your friends place at one point. See my best friend has depression. She used to try and kill herself, and I would be the one she would call as she was contemplating it. At first I was like, "Don't do it, I love you.", etc. But she did it anyway. Hence what your friends used to say when you wouldn't eat. Then as time passed I grew disgusted with the whole thing, I mean I could not be her sole support to sanity, you know? So she would call me and say, "I'm going to kill myself." I eventually got to the point where I said, "Fine do it then, you'll do it no matter what I say." Funny, she didn't do it that nite. That's when I realized one of 2 things, first alot of it on my friends end (I'm not saying this about you b/c I really don't know) was attention. She wanted it and eventually it got to the point of her not getting it and she quit doing dumb stuff like that. The second my life got ALOT easier when I stepped back and let her do as she pleased. I couldn't stop her, why should I even try? Maybe that's how your friends feel: The can't make it better for you or make you stop destroying yourself so why should they try? Their attempts are simply futile. Maybe it's none of my business, bella. I am sorry if I offended you my dear. If you wanna talk you can E-mail me at [email protected]. Love Ya, Crystal |
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Erin Member Elite
since 2000-06-15
Posts 2527~Chicago~ |
BEL~~~i just watched a movie the other night about a girl that didnt eat...and honestly if i had a friend like her i dont know what i would do...but maybe your friends do notice but they dont say anything...cuz you know what you may not listen...but you might too...maybe they dont know what to say to you...i dont mean to sound like rude or anything but why dont you try to get help for this???? ~*~TrUe LoVe Is ThE cLoSeSt ThInG tO hEaVen~*~ |
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Salooma Senior Member
since 2000-01-28
Posts 781 |
gosh...wow what a tough situation, i really i'm at loss for words. well i believe that no one can help you u but you, cause no matter what ppl say to bring your self esteem up, u gotta be able to look in the mirror and tell yourself you are beautiful and it doesn't matter who says you aren't or who does, cause you know when you see your reflextion you are the sexist babe alive! no matter what you think you see, i mean i had a friend who had an eating disorder and i swear to you never knew she did!! i never knew until she told me she was getting help, so maybe you need to tell your friends or family what u are going through because they might be so caught up in their own problems and their own lives to see that there bella is having her own problem....that's how life is really, ppl don't notice until u make a point and make it loud. i see how hard this is on you and wish my advice could do anything to help, but i know you are thinking what does she know (which i don't) and how would she care (which i def do), but seriously i don't want anyone to ever think they need to loose all this weight to be accepted by others, the only person you need to please is yourself and as a human being we are pleased at the state of happiness right? i mean i'm no model, certainly not nice hair (hell to deal with), poohy brown eyes and yet when i wake up in the morning at the site of my face in the bathroom mirror in the back of my mind i'm thinking, i'm pretty and no one can ever make me change my mind....not even those supermodels on tv cause they're usually fake. i guess i look at outer beauty in a dif way i think it's the self love that makes you beautiful on the outside and the confidence so all i can say is look in the mirror and think about it, u're beautiful and shouldn't care about anything else. life is too short for self-denial and too long without your self-confidence. good luck...email me if you want [email protected] Salooma |
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Salooma Senior Member
since 2000-01-28
Posts 781 |
hehe i was just looking at my writing and it seems i wasn't too at loss for words! salooma |
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Jeremy Halstead Senior Member
since 2000-06-01
Posts 569Morris, Ill. U.S.A |
My little sister has been dealing with this for 5 years. She's 18 (on Friday)and finally mellowed out and gotten at a steady weight. Everyday, I would hear "Oh, I'm so fat", or "I need to loose wieght"...all I told her is "whatever", because I knew that if I were to sit there and tell her "No...you look fine..you're thin", that she would soak it up and use it (I'm sure you're nothing like my sister, though). I really don't know what to tell you about your friends except that I know that they really do care about you, whether they vocalize it or not....trust me , they do....I wish you the sincerest of luck hun...later. Jeremy "Time is the matter, and in a matter of that all wounds will heal and all scars shall fade." |
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