Dark Poetry #2 |
Pain is stronger than Love |
tac Junior Member
since 2000-06-10
Posts 28New Jersey |
Being in a long term relationship which has not really been all that good, I have been feeling depressed and lonely for a long time. I then found someone who I reached out to, and I thought I could help me get rid of my pain. When we first started going out intimately, I told her that it might be a difficult relationship. A few days ago I hurt her really badly I said so many things I wish I hadn't said. I wish I could get her back, but I think it may be too late. I sent her this poem I wrote hoping that she can see that I am truly sorry. Pain is Stronger than Love by Me You start a life together with great hopes and dreams life is not what it seems you begin to learn to live with pain For such a long time I have felt this despair I keeps me alone, I go nowhere I sink deeper into the darkness Then I met you a glimmer of hope I guess I needed to reach out for someone but this can't be real, I dont belong it can't be real I am betraying my pain The darkness is comfortable, I'm used to it now afraid to let go I slip back there again there is something about it, I'm addicted to the pain it forces me to let you go, I had to push you away Once you learn to live a life of lies a world of illusions I can't deny no one understands, I just want to fly away from here to a better place I sometimes wish I could see you again impossible love, I can't handle it you told me you could You were wrong Pain is stronger than love < !signature--> [This message has been edited by tac (edited 06-10-2000).] |
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Jeffyf Junior Member
since 2000-05-28
Posts 49Muncie, IN |
I know exactly how you feel. My recent poetry is centered around the exact same thing. It seems that we both know the pain of hurting someone else. Stick in there, it'll get better and the pain will dim. Jeffy |
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lotharingia Senior Member
since 2000-06-04
Posts 897saarbruecken, Germany |
Hi tac and welcome here! Your poem is full of emotion and I love it. However, if you'd excuse me mixing in (I can't help myself) it sounds a bit too defeatist to get someone back. The lines You were wrong Pain is stronger than love Make it sound like it is definitively over. You have to make her know you love her, make her feel like there is a sense in your relationship, you have to trust her, believe in her, try to defeat your fear of being hurt. Relationships can cause so much pain, but never give up! When you find someone who loves you no matter what it's really worth it, and you should do your best to stop past hurts from destroying the possibility of future happiness! BTW, more poems, please! Lotharingia "For God's sake, he's a poet. Poets are meant to feel miserable. Otherwise, what the hell are they here for? What are they going to write about?" Tom Holland |
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tac Junior Member
since 2000-06-10
Posts 28New Jersey |
Thanks guys for your replies and encouragement. This is my first attempt at poetry. I've never been one to show or even talk about my feelings. I have never really openend up to anyone. I don't know how my relationships are going to turn out. I am still in my old one, which is not good (She is very indifferent about our future together). I long for a new one with that special someone I mentioned in the poem. I am really afraid I messed it up with very little chance of repair. I will keep writing as I get inspired. This forum can really help open up a window to my soul, so I can resolve these feeiings. BTW, lotharingia I know that's the way it sounds; But that's the way I feel, the easy way out is to stay in familiar territory [something inside me still wants to push her away] I need to work on opening up my heart and letting her know that (all in due time) |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
Firstly welcome!! Hon you can always express yourself here, we will always respect your thoughts and feelings. Writing as we do is a kind of therapy too, for undiscovered paths and feelings... we call it venting. Vent away, I enjoyed this poem a lot and hope your venting will help soothe your soul and hope the lady in question understands you a little better after she reads this.. I'll tell you this...... No eternal reward will forgive us now for wasting the dawn..... ~Isis~ (Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit) |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Excellent writing..you can only be who you are and where you are. If she honestly cares for you she will be back around..you can't scare love away...sometimes we do scare people away if we live in our past too much or have to many problems...so keep working on healing and accepting yourself and hopefully she will accept you and be their for you and with you...best of luck. James |
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JP Senior Member
since 1999-05-25
Posts 1343Loomis, CA |
Nice exploration of the rut of our own despair. Seems that what we are used to is the most comfortable, even if it is pain and loneliness... a rut one would do well to pull themselves out of I think. Yesterday is ash, tomorrow is smoke; only today does the fire burn. JP "Everything is your own damn fault, if you are any good." E. Hemmingway |
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kynder Senior Member
since 2000-04-11
Posts 537Tallahassee, Florida |
but forgiveness conquers all...... remember that my friend. welcome to dark!! let the writing just flow.. it will come to you. kynder The years teach much which the days never know. Ralph Waldo Emerson |
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sgreybe Member
since 2000-04-28
Posts 209London, UK |
tac this is really great - a fantastic first post let your emotions flow forth and be true to yourself looking forward to reading more poems from your heart. |
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tac Junior Member
since 2000-06-10
Posts 28New Jersey |
Hi guys, I just wanted to thank you for all the fine words of encouragement, I am still working on getting ack my impossible love. She is still quite pissed at me but at least we talked. She didn't say a lot, but at she listened. (gives me some hope) Thanks, for the post Kynder, I showed it to her and she almost seemed like she liked the idea of what you said. (perhaps she will forgive me at least). "I love her so much" |
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Justbleu Member Elite
since 1999-08-31
Posts 3329Oregon, Originally From Alaska :) |
This seems to say what you want to say quite well!! I hope she understands!! This is a wonderful poem!! I can relate to how one can hold sooo dearly to the pain!! Hang in there and do not lose hope!! Take Care Bridgette "Somewhere, somehow, it should be possible to touch someone and never let go again. To hold someone, not for a moment but forever." Unknown |
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Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
Tac, you have a great passion within, and only you can decide to turn it to what you want, but try this out, you have it within you to put not only your poetry to the lighter side in finding what she is to you, what she can mean to you, to your hopes yo dreams, That’s just in poetry, and you can do the same in person, it's called finding the light. If she is a ray of sunshine then blend with it. her light will not shine in the dark. Joel. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. |
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Dark_kisses_Within Senior Member
since 2000-03-21
Posts 680Kansas |
WELCOME!!!! And I must say an excellent first poem! I think pain is something we all endure at one time or another. Yet getting over it is something that seems to be more difficult that breathing itself. As for me.... I wont and cant give any advise. I am still trying my best to overcome mine Keep up the good work.... and always remember to smile! Peace |
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Jeremiah Johnson Senior Member
since 2000-06-08
Posts 1223Brooksville, Fl, U.S |
yes how you sat welcome to the darkside. I am your father LOL oh no i'm in a good mood for once someone shoot me. well this is a great piece and i hope to be reading more of your work. I'm a dying romantic and when i can no longer write i can no longer live -Jeremiah Johnson- |
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