CoNfUsEd... (one of my favs)

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Lil OnE
Member

since 1999-12-14

Posts 234
Pasco County. Fl.

0 posted 2000-08-31 02:39 PM

I've been through so many changes
I don't know which way to go.
Yet, I've got it so together,
I can see with my eyes open
or with my eyes closed.
Late at night, I cry and wonder
why my life's going nowhere,
But during the day, everything is okay
I'm having it my way
or so I say.
The world tells me
that I am a lost soul in a black hole,
but my mind tells me that I'm just fine.
If everything is peachy,
why can't anybody reach me?
I've always said I don't need anybody else.
I'm just so confused.... so confused.
I must be destined to lose.
Spent all my life looking for something,
never really knew what for.
Tried out all the options
just to find more pain and hurt in store.
I've been through it all,
but the one thing that I still run from is you.
But to be true, the life I'm living,
it's hard to let it go.
Though I've spent my whole life learning,
there's still so much that I don't know.
I hear you calling,
telling me to leave it all behind.
If only I could find the answers
to the questions in my mind.
I wonder... could it me...
my mind's not meant to understand?
Maybe I should go with my instincts
and put my heart in your hands.
So overwhelmed by the daily troubles
I'm constantly forced to face.
I'm just steadily searching,
trying to find peace in this place.
I search for outside conclusions
to questions I have inside.
I search for logical solutions
for problems I cannot hide.
I've fallen way behind
to my former state of mind.
I look around and what do I see?
So many struggling, just like me.
Trying to live this life,
only to fall down to compromise.
But, then I have a question...
is that what we're living for?
Aren't we called to perfection
and to strive for so much more?
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I run, I fall. I walk, I sometimes crawl. I give, I take. I bend and yet somehow I break
~Lil OnE~

[This message has been edited by Lil OnE (edited 08-31-2000).]

poutprincess
Senior Member

since 2000-07-06

Posts 735
Perth, Western Australia, Australia

1 posted 2000-09-01 06:11 AM

youve said so much in this poem....and i have to tell you that the answers are there..keep looking for them...i dont want to even begin to believe you were destined to lose....too much talent here to ever be a loser. you are winning, just open your eyes to it...i can see it.
i really enjoyed this poem.
~Dawn

"Steady as it comes, right down to you, I've said it all, so maybe we're a Bliss of another kind" Bliss-Tori Amos

Xeonox

Senior Member

since 2000-04-01

Posts 1764
CA, USA

2 posted 2000-09-01 12:32 PM

This is a great piece. I can see why this is one of your favs.

Ronil (The sweet sound of summer sends serenity through my soul searching for that evermore solitude.)

darkstar
Member

since 2000-08-09

Posts 230
Port Richey, Fl, USA

3 posted 2000-09-01 05:03 PM

Wow...I really liked it...

Dark Star

Lil OnE
Member

since 1999-12-14

Posts 234
Pasco County. Fl.

4 posted 2000-09-01 06:08 PM

Thank you all very much. Like I said, this is one of my favorite poems (of my own) and I'm almost proud of it! But thanks for taking the time to read it! I appreciate your kind replies.

I run, I fall. I walk, I sometimes crawl. I give, I take. I bend and yet somehow I break
~Lil OnE~

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