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not the same |
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T McCoy Member
since 2000-07-24
Posts 186
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i chain smoke cigarettes while i pace around this tomb i think i'll set my bed on fire i don't wanna sleep alone anymore i've gone through all the channels of course there's nothin' on i turn up the radio seems they only play our songs anymore only me to keep me company and i know everything i have to say man i've heard it all before it's always all the same and as i pace around i realize i've changed since you've been gone i'm just not the same i never did understand how i became your friend or how i became your man before you went away and i'm afraid i've changed i am not the same would you still fall in love with the man i am today? if you were here what would you say? that i'm losin' weight and fading away? i need to eat some more well i'm livin' off of caffiene tonight i'm goin' back to Nashville to relive another daydream we'll exchange vows in that motel where river phoenix filmed this thing called love our honeymoon of roadtrips you'll start feeling homesick to sit atop the sand dunes and listen to the waves break yea man i know all about homesick too and as i drift away laying on the couch i realize i've changed i'm just not the same i'd love to understand how i became your friend how i became your man so i could take you by your hand and do those things again cause i'm afraid i've changed i know i'm not the same i wonder if you'd even fall in love with the man i am today... |
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Sunnyone Member Ascendant
since 2000-07-06
Posts 5334Staffordshire, England |
T McCoy... This should be put to melody!! I can almost hear it in a song, and I really like what I hear.... "I think I'll set my bed on fire, I don't want to sleep alone..." That is great writing!! I have but one goal in life......... To make you smile! ~~ Sunny ~~ |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Very intense reflections on being alone...I've felt these same feelings before..even lost about 25 pounds when a certain woman left me...my stomach was in knots....I couldn't eat..I didn't want to eat..I'm better now...many years later...a testimony that you get over it...but I understand how miserable it is to live through this..its funny cause I changed to and at one point she told me she liked the old James. |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
aw...this is sad...and and maybe you should go back to nashville with this beauty instead...just a thought, m'friend...very well done! |
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rosepetals25
since 2000-05-31
Posts 3076PA |
Tony, I was wondering where you got to.. I have seen anything posted for a few days. Very powerful emotions I see here..and very good writing. (I like the reference to This Thing Called Love...hehe.. I love that movie)I'm guessing this is a song.. I can almost hear the music playing in my mind when I read it. Well done, I can't wait to read more  Rosepetals |
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Meadowmuse Member Elite
since 1999-12-27
Posts 3263 |
So often we are changed by the beginnings and endings of things...relationships cast us into their own special mold as they progress, and upon their ending, that secure shape is taken away, and we once again become mutable, changing beings. Your poem sings perfectly of this. Very nice. ~ Claire Could a greater miracle take place than for us to look through each other's eyes for an instant?......Henry David Thoreau |
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Butterflies_dont_cry Member Elite
since 2000-03-06
Posts 3733Michigan |
Tony* This was powerful...you brought tears to my eyes...darn you  .....being alone at the moment and the events leading up to that point can't help but change you....you had to so that you would survive...I'll bet she's changed too and is worried about the same things...but of all the things that change one thing doesn't change...love. Great writing....."I melting"... |
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T McCoy Member
since 2000-07-24
Posts 186 |
Sunny1* thank you so much for your kind reply... believe me...they're all songs James* i've only lost 12 lbs. but i should've put on about 10 by now...yea...just don't wanna eat myself.... thanks... serenity* i sure don't mean to write sad... it's just that muse i guess thank you! rosepetals* you're guessing right... glad you liked it and caught the reference... that really is where we exchanged our vows... thank you Claire* so right you are...i'm learning a little more about who i am without her everyday... and to all out there i guess i should just clarify...my wife and i are still together... but she's in Florida and i'm in Canada... i've got to get my green card before the NIS catches me...so i'm just waiting now... i didn't realize i'd become so codependant though...but i guess that's the way it goes when you marry your best friend, huh? again a sincere thanks to all... Tony [This message has been edited by T McCoy (edited 08-08-2000).] |
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T McCoy Member
since 2000-07-24
Posts 186 |
bdc* how is it that you always know what to say to make me smile? you've brightened my day........again! thank you so much! Tony |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
i chain smoke cigarettes while i pace around this tomb i think i'll set my bed on fire i don't wanna sleep alone anymore =================== and as i pace around i realize i've changed since you've been gone i'm just not the same i never did understand how i became your friend or how i became your man before you went away and i'm afraid i've changed i am not the same would you still fall in love with the man i am today? =================== and as i drift away laying on the couch i realize i've changed i'm just not the same i'd love to understand how i became your friend how i became your man so i could take you by your hand and do those things again cause i'm afraid i've changed i know i'm not the same i wonder if you'd even fall in love with the man i am today... ====================== how could she not?????? man this is awesome... i love the depth of your emotion in your work... shes under your skin and she inspires great things in you.. and that is VERY COOL.. later-grand-ole-opry-gator LOL jm There are places inside our souls - that have never been touched. There are places inside our hearts - that need to be loved this much. ~jm~ |
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Paula Finn Member Ascendant
since 2000-06-17
Posts 5546missouri |
Tony...well the US needs more like you Friend...do you need a sponsor guy? This is such a sad sad song. |
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Rex Allen McCoy Member Elite
since 2000-01-30
Posts 2863Sippin a Timmy's in London |
 She must love you a lot to take the time to send this little Gem Cheer up you'll get there healthier |
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Jenn E Senior Member
since 2000-08-02
Posts 589Kelowna, BC, Canada |
Everything I read from you, I hear music. I love how you have shared yourself like this, that is statement in itself. As I read I could feel your lonliness and all that you are feeling and my heart goes out to yours. Our hearts have to feel what they feel, but know, through all the pain they will heal, somehow. Know that you are worthy of the hapiness that is looking for you right now. Soft Smiles to you Jenn E |
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Butterflies_dont_cry Member Elite
since 2000-03-06
Posts 3733Michigan |
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWE He's an angel......your son of course Exactly Rex!!! |
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vandana
since 1999-10-22
Posts 10463USA |
Enjoyed this read!!!!!! |
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JnR4eva Member
since 2000-08-07
Posts 377Bronx, NY |
What a touching poem, so full of emotion, so full of pain. i hope things turn out for the better... great job with this work of art . |
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Alle'cram Senior Member
since 2000-02-28
Posts 1816Texas |
Awesome! I love this. A love poem from your heart and the reader surely picks this message up. Wow, this will blow her away, (or maybe back). marcy |
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T McCoy Member
since 2000-07-24
Posts 186 |
jm* THANK YOU!!! it's great hear that you think so.... Paula* thank you...hope there's still room...my sled is packed and the dogs are ready... Dad* hmmm...what to say to that...THANKS. ya made my day in a million ways...i know she loves me...i just miss her too much hope ya don't think i'm sad all day cause i'm really not...it's just the alone time... but just seeing connor's face...i'm going keep bumping this to the top just to show him off...and hey damn it i'm 28 years old...daddy's not supposed to be able to make me cry anymore..! lol thank you more than i could ever say Jenn* i'm glad to know you're hearing music...thank you for the very kind reply... bdc...you're too nice vandana* glad to hear it JnR4eva* thanks for the kind words marcy* thank you...much appreciated again thanks to all...your replies are as much my inspiration as anything else... well...almost Tony |
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Rex Allen McCoy Member Elite
since 2000-01-30
Posts 2863Sippin a Timmy's in London |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
Hey Tony ..great stuff.. love the flow and the reflection on the desperation of lonliness pouring from a torn heart. I know that kind of lonliness and it sure is different from just being lonely because one is alone. And you're right, the intensity of the hurt changes the person to the extent that they don't even know themself. Great work! looking for more man keep it up! |
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Jeffrey Carter
since 2000-04-08
Posts 2367State of constant confusion! |
I'm bumping this back up so you can show him off some more I know exactly how you feel when it comes to your son.....My wife and I are seperated at the moment and I haven't seen my kids in more than three weeks now....So believe me when I say I share your pain. Take care of yourself M'friend |
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Mark Bohannan Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-21
Posts 7269In the winds of Cherokee song |
This is such a sad poem but I know and feel your loss within yourself....Lonliness itself takes on many shades and this is one of the darkest....Love the read, you have shared it well and as for the little guy.......way too cute....gonna grow up loving his dad and breaking hearts. |
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bad little dog Junior Member
since 2000-07-08
Posts 38city pound |
... Ruff ...  Ruff Bow Wow Grrrrrrrrrrr |
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hoot_owl_rn Member Patricius
since 1999-07-05
Posts 10750Glen Hope, PA USA |
Very powerful and intriguing words |
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T McCoy Member
since 2000-07-24
Posts 186 |
ethome* thanks brother...you're right! so it goes though, eh! Jeffrey* geez thanks man...I appreciate it... Sorry to hear that we have that in common...Mark* thank you much for your thoughts... yea he pretty cute eh! thanks guy! hoot* thanks much bld* thanks thanks again to all |
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BloomingRose Member Elite
since 2000-08-09
Posts 3092Florida |
To be loved that much... *sigh* What an awesome person you are to be able to express yourself to that degree. I hear a song somewhere. Deb BloomingRose |
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Tennessee Angel Senior Member
since 2000-06-03
Posts 661Tennessee |
Oh, this is simply beautiful!!! |
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Corinne Member Ascendant
since 1999-10-28
Posts 5167state of confusion |
Being alone too long makes people crazy. You penned these expressions well, giving us a glimpse into you. Nice eyes, too. Corinne |
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T McCoy Member
since 2000-07-24
Posts 186 |
Bloomingrose* thank you so much... Tennessee* thanks for the reply... Corrine* yea it does and thank you and thank you Tony |
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JulieAnn Senior Member
since 2000-06-12
Posts 754Earth 3rd Rock from the sun!! |
Tony~~~~I am not sure how I could have missed this one...must have been all of that working I have been doing how dare I !! LOL You have poured your heart out in this one......and yes no matter how old we get our parents will always be able to make us cry.....and I agree he is a gem....very good writing..brought a tear to my eye....glad I searched for it.... < !signature-->Julie [This message has been edited by JulieAnn (edited 08-16-2000).] |
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T McCoy Member
since 2000-07-24
Posts 186 |
you don't know how ya missed it? i don't know how ya found it...i think it's been in limbo...my son...yea he is eh? thank you twice, i guess! Tony |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
yep, definate song here...I loved this one! |
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ggrn3 Member
since 2000-08-17
Posts 433Nahunta Georgia U.S. |
T.McCoy, I can feel your loneliness in this one. Althouth I don't smoke, I have done much of the pacing and wandering in my time. How lonely can one be left to his own thoughts, pondering mistakes made in a relationship. My answer; "mighty lonely" Garfield |
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